regret fills her heart as her love leaves her home

lyrics:

Spite
Die 
Trying
Die trying
Die trying

I’d rather die happy instead of die trying but how long is too long to try?
It’s an uphill battle and I’m not Sisyphus on the climb 
I’m just on decline

Everybody’s everything when everything is pointless
Look for sharper edges when all is going poignant
Not in taste or smell but rather mood and state
Still I’m as engraved as a some words on a grave
Each state ingrained with delusions of grandeur
Thought I could make it but I guess I was wrong too
Though I could chase it but I know my songs suck and this ain’t an excuse but rather a fact
The fact of the matter is what matters is facts and the fact is I’m matter but I don’t matter 
Leave the room shattered when my brain’s splattered and the stench gathered is just me
Rotting away under the floorboards 
Remembered as nothing but a young kid with a bad mindset
And right now my mind’s set on a different time where I kill myself to feel the pain a lot less 

And every day goes longer
All has become gray

I’d rather die happy instead of die trying but how long is too long to try?
It’s an uphill battle and I’m not Sisyphus on the climb 
I’m just on decline

I’m just on decline
I’m just on decline

Tuesday morning 
You were woken up to my terrible screams
I had done something so horrible
There was blood on walls and I was crying in pain
My arms had been violently cut for what seemed like hours
And I was so bleeding so much that you tidied to my wounds
You tidied to them whilst keeping composure
And I saw it in you that day
I saw that you cared more for me than I cared for myself
I saw a semblance of sympathy and I didn’t understand
How could I feel so alone when I’m actually not alone?
There’s more than one person in this home
Still it felt like the world was staring daggers at me
As everywhere I went I just had a larger sense of paranoia
Just a hunch of total insecurity that surrounded me
Maybe it was my looks or my voice or my name
Something was odd and it sure got the people looking
Still something doesn’t sit right within me
But I don’t wanna find out

I’m cutting again but I’d rather die trying
I’m cutting again but I’d rather die trying
I’m cutting again but I’d rather die trying
I’m cutting again but I’d rather die trying
But I’d rather die
I’m cutting again but I’d rather die trying
I’m cutting again but I’d rather die trying
I’m cutting again but I’d rather die trying
I’m cutting again but I’d rather die trying
But I’d rather die
But I’d rather die


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