Amir Tataloo - Afee

Az Tehran Motanafreran

Caliber 24 ™ (Shirazsong.org)

Surreal

kelishe

remix hichkas&yas&sorena&sadegh&shayea&khalse-kelishe

gholdor

remix yas&ho3ein&pishro&hidden&sohrab mj&shayea - gholdor

Sange Ghabr - remix sorena x erfan x ho3ein x sadegh x epicure x yas x khalvat x hichkas x bahram

Cipher Of  Concrete

Songs that I recorded and released originally during 2020 under the original title 
"Tickets to Europe". I was a much more inexperienced rapper back then (some of parts of the EP literally make me cringe), and also just a less experienced person. There are aspects of this EP which feel rough, immature or paradoxical which is why originally took them down. I do not agree with everything I said in this album now, but I think what it does accurately depict is the confusion, the anger and the fear that I felt at the time. I've decided to re-release this album under this new name with hopes that the emotions I try to convey at the time might resonate with someone. In many ways, we are just as confused, angry and fearful today as we were back then. It's crazy to think it's been a half of a decade. Anyway, let me know what you think.

NOTE: This track is not monetized and will only be released on Soundcloud & Youtube. It contains several instrumentals which I do not own or license and are for not-for-profit use only. Producers include Adam Jay Beats and DJ Ray among others. "Empty Boxes" and "0A$" are produced by me. Artwork is an original composition made by me (no AI!) using photos taken by David Underland & Elena Takmakova (sourced from Unsplash).

A Better Me

I alter the states of my mind bringing out, 

 The whispering voices to speak,

My Fragmented Identities, 

Bleeding the fury torment,

 Of violence,

 Isolation, 

Brutality, 

Tragedy,

 Sacrificing,

Rape,

Self destruction,

Insanity, 

Forgotten hidden trauma,

 Blood filled consented sexual slavery,........

-Don't leave me, 

I'm going to run away, 

Just to end my life,

Suicide,

 Is the empire of the hour, for every blow you inflect,

I hate you, but said I loved you,

Mixing the emotion of feeling love,

 Only when giving you my body,

A abomination of intimacy,

Slavery that breeds the fear of unknown abandonment, 

Just to feel something, 

I'm so numb,

 To everything I had became,

Black outs,

Forgetfulness to periods of time,

Lost days and memories I'll never have,

 Because of the violence, you inflected on me,

But I give you my body even though I hated you,

And still you beat me every time you where drenched in liquor, 

Day to Night was the addiction that 

Brutalized me, 

So, empty,

Giving voice to mending broken memories, 

Addicted to the black oozing liquid dripping from their mouths,

 lost out of gravity , A blur in the mirror, but faces staring back at me,

Eyes so hollow they cry lost thoughts of suppressed identities,

----Formed from the a life time of abuse -----

--From every time I was beat and screamed at infusing me with shame and self hate

For every time I was molested as a child through to my 20s to hypersexuality 

A sexual deviant, to only feel love when fucked and numb when I lay in bed,

Spreading and separating diving deep into the depths of the halls of dread and monsters,  

Hidden memories and 

That speak in tongues of a two headed serpent eating the fruit of forgotten knowledge, 

Spiting on the pages,

A venom,

Vomiting the dark on to the letter of lost yesterday 

and dreaded tomorrow,

Suicide was a day dream that never faded away,

Ripped apart by the ghosts of complexity,

Entering in the wounds,

Self inflected,

Burns to remember the years of time,

So many scars covered my arms covered in ink but they still speak,

Ropes wrapped around my neck so silent with no ability to speak,

But to overthink as insomnia invaded to madness as reality slipped away

Like mixing static into the DNA of thoughts ,

I bleed to fell and block out the pain of the experiences 

Overdosing,

Drowning mixing drugs to kill,

Injected heroin to end the world,  

Drinking to the point of sickness, 

Impulsive, 

Obsessive,

Compulsive ,

Bending realities just to experience death one more time







 


Sange Ghabr - remix sorena x erfan x ho3ein x sadegh x epicure x yas x khalvat x hichkas x bahram

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