I LEGITIMATELY CANT KEEP GOING

the one where i say 1944!!

Solitude By Jahiem Mendoza

Wifiskeleton - Not Drain You By Nirvana Instead Its Skeleton Talking About Murder

Roommates

like im running a rat race
imma kill myself so im coming in last place
why you lookin at me with your eyes in a bad way
its already autumn, i waited, ive matched my days
on my shoulders, too much weight
nothing left for me here anways
its already autumn, but im okay
with knowing ill be dead by valentines day

how is it already october

write these words that you'll never hear
and it might come off pathetic
its most definitely weird
wish i could hypnotize you surely with pretty chords
and then you'll me call again and see what everything's been for

i heard this song in my head and made it exist

You dont need no makeup you’re better either way
I’ll starve myself until you notice a change
Wrap me up in your hands like ur pretty face
Then cover me from my appendix to my waist

show this to your her

w/ @six-days-after-christmas

me:
its been a few days since we talked
since u got up and left it all
im not ready to move on 
all the feelings are too strong 
remember when i saw u at the mall 

i stay up at night thinking of all the things
 we could done if u stayed 
now im up in my bedroom 
thinking about u 
thinking about how its too late  
@six-days-after-christmas:
you dont wanna call
and u dont wanna talk
its been a long time since ive seen u at all
she was all i wanted (how did ifall)
im so psychotic (im so far gone)
my hands were on your throat
passed out again on the bathroom floor
i wake up and ur gone ur Out the door
not a single text back we dont talk anymore

left it all

w/ @six-days-after-christmas

i know your sick of me 
knew that u would eventually 
i dont want you to leave 
its just a big catastrophe
christmas:
holding it over me
your taunting is in my dreams
did i ruin what i had 
or were u rlly gonna fix it all for me
are we still gona talk eventually??
prolly not but i'll beg on my knees
ur tone is scary wdym

catastrophe

guitar by @blurxy
tell me something u know
ill be watching you just like my fucking favorite show
shouldnt come over to where i be to where i be No
ill JUSt,  chop u up in to a thousand pretty pieces

u got a big stupid head full of nothing you dumb bitch

yen - haunt

oh darling now your gone 
ik u feel complete and im no fun
im no fun 
but darling now ur gone 
i look at all the photos feeling dumb 
im so dumb 


remember was the first time i saw you 
your face glowed bright and i couldnt aproach u 
i still feel numb from the words that u told boo
and i dont know how i really still love u 

the things u said to me girl they hurt

now you're gone

https://open.spotify.com/album/5DoJGcRbZ2UQrMPxt4Bysj?si=EXEarZAwQXKYpu4rJZ9pww

when im with u feel like the times slow
i take ritalin just to feel whole
when im with u feel like the times slow
love it when u look at me like ur eyes glow 
i take ritalin like milo
i love it when you look at me
heart eyes stickin out at me
but u give me all these mixed feelings

ritalin

instrumental by the goats @six-days-after-christmas @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

youd think everything was fake
im just one more mistake
and youve become this
feeling that i just dont think ill shake
IM SO COMPLACENT
so disruptive
cant communicate
without words and pictures
guess it figures that everyones the same
im becoming everything i hate
thats all i tell myself most days
take my pictures out your frames
all i ever did was change
must be nothing in my brain
every day feels much more fake
much more than the last one
i know ill just break

your own worst enemy is you

instrumental by @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
oh how youll quiver and shake the next time you see my name
i wrote you poems and youll hear them when im up on the stage
it doesnt matter what path or what direction you take
no matter what because im on my way to your fucking state

and when im singing this one i might scout u out in the crowd
but ill act like i never noticed act like youre not around
and when you try to hit my line i might say im not in town
im only lying to myself, if i dont see you ill drown

i want you all to myself but i dont have you at all
and when i think to myself, everything was my fault
it shouldnt matter to me but it replays in my brain
it would be different this time and it wont wither away

just another life altering event

with @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
prod me and @decago

and i knew u were mine when i saw ur face 
like an angel fallen down  but u couldnt stay 
i need you more than any girl i met 
youre just perfect in every way i bet 

sitting down on the couch and im such a mess
everyday is a struggle girl im way to stressed 
when i met you it felt like i was blessed 
now i hate everyday i see u less

but i'll hate every day regardless
you couldnt cause more if you triedim honest
i'll stalk your accounts couldnt call if i wanted
i'll lay this down when you're gone and forgotten
you'll lie to me
and say that im the only one you'll keep 
but i'll believe anything when you're close to me
eye to eye i wish you were all i'd see

you're just perfect in every way, i bet

the things we would do to each other. goth angelz better than nobody

dragging you to my favorite tree in the woods
you think ill make it to 20 i dont think i could
nobody here that you could see
no one would hear you or believe you
i know a quiet spot right behind the park
you tell me your secrets i wont tell you mine
you must think that im stupid
you must think im so stupid

spotify

i kidnapped her shes ok

w/ @six-days-after-christmas

like a deer in headlights 
when i saw your face i froze in fear 
ran back home in hopes that 
all the thoughts i had would dissapear 
thinking bout ur face while sitting sippin on some shitty beer
lay in bed dreaming that maybe one day 
youd be near 

monday wasnt good at all 
walking past you in the hall 
i saw you with your friends 
laughing and joking  at someones expense i 
didnt know them 
but im glad it wasnt me 
cus im hoping 
maybe i can talk to you at least

i cant get any closer 
my friends told me walk up but i dont even know her
i havent had this feeling in a while itold her
i know how it endsmaybe try when we're older 

cuz its i hate you and you hate me
your lifes a little more private but i'll still see 
cuz if ur all i need you're all i'd be
but i cant see that much from here i'll just see u in my sleep

deer in headlights

my love be patient i'm on your way
these conversations have felt so strange
i wanted to tell ytou that i was afraid
and im so compulsive in all the worst ways

so if i ran away with her 
would i change would it still hurt
but u never change lik ei want you to
if you want the same i'll do what you wont do

I LEGITIMATELY CANT KEEP GOING

graham