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Kevin Adler & Lxst Boy - Lucid Dreaming (Prod. by Boyfifty)

serotonin

featuring @sewerperson
produced by @prodjody

highway (ft. sewerperson)(prod. jody)

I CAN'T GO THRU THAT AGAIN

LYRICS:
I don't remember the last thing you said
I was running around in my head
And baby Ion rly need another friend
I can't I can't I can't UGH

I don't wanna go thru that again
I don't wanna die with my best friends
Woke up fucked up, when does it end
I can't go thru that again

Again and again, I been losing my mind
Like, when does it end? Feel like we ran out of time
(Woah-oh)
Do you remember forever
That's a lie, you change like the weather
And we got way too drunk in December
But I guess that's how it goes
Oh, oh, oh,  baby you can go
I've got no home, I'm all alone
I know we don't talk no more
Just step right up, enjoy the show
And I don't wanna go
But I will if I have to
And I thought that you should know
That I'm moving past you
And if everyone I loved was at a party
Then I damn sure wouldn't go
I'd stay alone, cuz nothing lasts forever
By now you should know

prod. @branwenmusic
mix/master by me
cover art shot by @dylancxle of @conflictingthoughts.us

ICGTTA 222 (branwen)

produced by LIL DUSTY G 

lyrics : 

PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME BEHIND
THE WEIGHT THAT U CARRY IS EQUAL TO MINE
SHOW ME WHATS IN YOUR MIND
AND ILL UNDERSTAND WHY UR TAKING UP MINE

PAIN STOP WHEN WILL THE PAIN STOP
WHEN WILL THE RAIN STOP
I HATE THE RAIN DROPS IT RAINS ON

THE SHAME ON
ILL TAKE THE SHAME ON ILL TAKE THE BLAME ON
THE ONE TO HATE ON SO HATE ON ME
WAIT LONG DONT MAKE ME WAIT LONG
DONT MAKE ME SAY SOME I DONT WANNA HAVE TO
SAY SOMETHING

SOMETHINGS WATCHING OVER EVERY OPTION
EVERYWHERE I GO I DONT KNOW IF I CAN STOP IT
STOP PLEASE STOP IT I DONT WANT THIS
SOMEWHERE DEEP IN MY SUBCONSCIOUS

SAME WE ARE THE SAME 
NOTHING YOU SAY
COULD MAKE ME CHANGE MY MIND NOW
HEY I KNOW YOUR PAIN
WE SHARE A NAME 
STILL YOU WONT KEEP ME FROM HAVING MY WAY

PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME BEHIND
THE WEIGHT THAT U CARRY IS EQUAL TO MINE
SHOW ME WHATS IN YOUR MIND
AND ILL UNDERSTAND WHY UR TAKING UP MINE

MAKING YOUR WAY UP 
YOU WILL FIND
ALL THAT YOU NEED IS RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE
SO LETS TAKE THE DAY OFF 
ONE LAST TIME
FILL UP MY MIND WITH THINGS THAT I LIKE
YOU KNOW WHAT I LIKE…

BEHIND

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Lyrics - 
verse 1:

you're gone in the morning 
and now im living in silence
but i still have your number in my phone
i wish that i could see you again 

you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

hook:
you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

still wish that i could see you again
still wish that i could see you again

verse 2:

yeah i still remember 
how you looked me in my eyes
how you said you love me 
and how we danced for the whole night 

do you ever think of me
because baby i still think of you 
and everytime you're not with me 
i can't breath
just wanna hold you close to me

you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

hook:
you are the reason why 
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend 
still wish that i could see you again

still wish that i could see you again
still wish that i could see you again

you are the reason why
i still don't understand
and sometimes it gets hard to pretend

wish i could see you again w/LEVI

produced, engineered, mixed and mastered by noah thomas

did i do it to myself again

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

socials:
www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

discord.gg/hsUwdAJknJ

lyrics:

And I’m so sick of always fucking up
Always apologize, it’s the last time
Blame it on me, i’m never good enough
Lost my peace, now I lash out

Cant get rid of the taste out my fuckin mouth
Carve out my tongue, said too much, bleeding out
Doesnt matter what I do, it’s way too late
Screaming out and procrastinate

I can’t
Stay here
Mental
Dread and
Pain gets
Stronger
Isolated

I can’t keep it up, nah
Throw me out, leave me to rot
I think it’s easier that way for me
You have no say in this, so just leave me

I dont care what they say
I ignore, most of dms
I don’t know why it’s so hard to
Keep a convo, maybe laugh

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

blame

stream

back to weekly songs soon i promise.
its a new era

prod. sorrowbringer x me <3

lyrics:

try to impress but it comes out fuckin gibberish
torch me to bits as the reputation settles in
mediate the confilct intimidate the cheiftans heir
this human form my disguise and i'm shedding skin
fighting tooth nail claw and i won't let em in
run me out the town i'll come back with an army
we'll tear ur men to bits roast ur offspring with a charring
the grass will dye red by the end of the night here

unless u stop hunting me
i wait here for your concede
i stakeout with 9 slugs in me
i chose truth n i was wrong to
but still i breathe
i've been up all night plus a day and a half
i still worry for my kind now that u lash out like that
it seem clear to me ur people xenophobic
i had trusted u but it's clear to me that is over

my friends won't leave their caves cause of u and it breaks me
so all that i can do is rid ur people from our place here
ur buddy shot me nine times what u gotta say to that
i'm gonna murder all your people i don't care if they our friends
get out my way i got buisness to do on ur village
there's a couple hundred people that i really gotta see
they got appointments to get their heads lopped off at this moment

-

try to impress but it comes out fuckin gibberish
torch me to bits as the reputation settles in
mediate the confilct intimidate the cheiftans heir
this human form my disguise and i'm shedding skin
fighting tooth nail claw and i won't let em in
run me out the town i'll come back with an army
we'll tear ur men to bits roast ur offspring with a charring
the grass will dye red by the end of the night here

unless u stop hunting me
i wait here for your concede
i stakeout with 9 slugs in me
i chose truth n i was wrong
but still i breathe

revenge

impatience Ft. sendflowrs

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Vertigo

https://linktr.ee/swainesworld
prod. scotty splash / eric godlow
ft. sewerperson

complications

and ull be mad at me next week
this was diamonds turned to dust 
and i cant fault u that was weak

i been pullin up heavy on top of these songs 
like i gotta keep my peace
i gotta change my shit up quickly
u gotta leave me alone dont speak
this been a cool lil play but the ending is here and the curtains are down, and scene

1 2 3 and 4
it was simple u had to go
5 6 7 and 8
all u touch turns complicated
1 2 3 and 4
all i touch turns into gold
5 6 7 and 8 
make that break up fill my plate

why u gotta go and make things so complicated?
i cant believe u 
took me from the top and made my soul turn cold and nameless
u turned me evil

so i say 
im amazed
and its great
and we
fall back to the place
where dreams go

took me from the top and made me untold and shameless

its been a few months now
and im still on demon time
i give it too much now
and im still on nothin wise

but fuck it its what i wanna do
when the brand new pulls up
whatchu gon do? 
when its that time baby
im promisin u 
that i cant wait to see what u think of the kid when hes lost in the booth
and im spillin this juice 
im spillin this blood from my heart to the groove
and i mold that put it on a disc and i snooze

and im back to the basics
round 1 i was on the end of a beatin
round 2 i was on the floor maybe quittin
round 3 i was in the ring w a demon
round 4 i was makin him gimme reasons
round 5 i was w the ref w my arm up
fuck knows what the next one might look like
duck those 
weave thru the love and u find what u dont like
scott splash
eric and the sew 
make u bite that
imax clearer than ur eyes can

im mad i didnt know about that
i guess its done and its like that?

light work baby dont u like that?

swaine x eric godlow x scotty splash: complications ft. sewerperson

love...produced by autrioly

(lyrics)
her presence inside of my chest and its ending
i live in the past and im still here pretending that im feeling fine when im not
poison inside of my skull has my head go to rot
acting okay when im numb aint a shock to me 
im a good liar, i guess its a part of my essence
its something i dont understand
why cant i sleep without holding your hand?

numb as a mannequinn
i feel panic only when you aint standing beside me handing over all of your love as youre holding me close
is it the touch that im missing the most?
scrolling through pics on my phone only seems to remind me that i am now all on my own
im hardly existing with knowing youre missing
if i could rewind wonder how would it go?

do you want me as bad as i wanted you, baby?
its haunting to have any thoughts of us lately 
and dawning on me is the thought that a need for you daily is all that i need to be sane in this life
i might wanna be dead if i time it right
i could fly to a greater height, i know
maybe there i could get you back right after that
cuz bettering myself's the goal
i wont break

i want you out of my head
(x3)
so come to be mine and with me again

(x2)

cannot stop all the thoughts even while im unconscious
weep in my dreams and im waking up nauseous
is there a way i could stop this?
taking no caution
i could be sippin' on toxin

type out a paragraph, struggle to send
wish i was sure of myself but i only pretend
i look at the moon up above
what is this feeling im healing from?
think it is...

love.

<3 \\<

LOVE

"LOVE"˚ˑ༄ؘ p. autrioly

~2300~

@daystowaste
Guitar by 2FLOORSUP

Lyrics:

[VERSE1]
I can’t take the steps in this process And I fight the help that i’m promised; With myself lately I’ve been dishonest Will you treat me less like your project I’ve been holding on too tight
Honest open gone tonight

[HOOK]
Bags packed up
One last cup
To look back on everybody grows up
I’ll write a sad song just for you to show love
You’ll find resolve from it whenever the time comes Bags packed up
One last cup
To look back on everybody grows up
I’ll write a sad song just for you to show love
You’ll find resolve from it whenever the time comes

[DAYS TO WASTE]
You were something
Cigarettes in my lungs you were toxic
Light a match leave it all to assumption
That’s okay baby i’m going numb anyway
Don’t call back i’m leaving and that’s that Driving away to a place I can relax
Cause I can’t escape this
I made you a playlist
Of every song that convinced me I hate this Say goodbye to distant lies
The pain you dealt a thousand times
Cause i’ve been staying up all night
To wash away the wasted time
But i’m so tired
Sick of the lies and the miles I drove back home Cause i’ve been someone else for a long time

[HOOK]
Bags packed up
One last cup
To look back on everybody grows up
I’ll write a sad song just for you to show love
You’ll find resolve from it whenever the time comes Bags packed up
One last cup
To look back on everybody grows up
I’ll write a sad song just for you to show love
You’ll find resolve from it whenever the time comes

Resolve w/ Days To Waste

vocals by https://soundcloud.com/imgeist & https://soundcloud.com/yokaidreams

produced by https://soundcloud.com/tnvr555

lyrics:
i think i love you but i'm not sure
your bad decisions give me concern
and i know i'm not a doctor
but nothing good can come from heart burn
sun so bright hurt my eyes when i'm outside
she wear clothes so tight, must be suffocating slightly
i won't lie i think i'd rather stay inside
but the warmth in the air is just so god damn enticing

short skirts sun burns
think i mighta missed my turn
call you but i guess you lost my number
dry lips sun kissed
i hope that it stays like this
she fell in love with me last summer

i saw you kissing on the front porch
and everybody wants an encore
and i sure miss when i was all yours
now i’m reminiscing of last summer
how you said i lost my one chance
but if i’m really being honest love that shit hit the fan
and i’m no goner, but i fell in hopeless romance
oh darling played me for a fool and now you wont have this dance
woah
summers come to an end
i’m holding on by a thread
and i’ll miss you but can’t say the same for your friends
i need to focus on myself
i’m letting go just for my health

short skirts sun burns
think i mighta missed my turn
call you but i guess you lost my number
dry lips sun kissed
i hope that it stays like this
she fell in love with me last summer

short skirts sun burns
think i mighta missed my turn
call you but i guess you lost my number
dry lips sun kissed
i hope that it stays like this
she fell in love with me last summer

short skirts sun burns
think i mighta missed my turn
call you but i guess you lost my number
dry lips sun kissed
i hope that it stays like this
she fell in love with me last summer

Summer

summer

I'm Geist & Yokai Dreams - Summer [TNVR]

prod. me

rest easy pops<33

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

ever since u've been gone
shit's been different 
i hate myself
and can't take this distance 
been fucking my health 
i can feel the symptoms 
i need fucking help 
but can't face my feelings   

(i been hiding emotions
behind all the drinks
i been hiding emotions
behind all the weed 
people know about this
and still don't talk to me 
i might be fated to 
live the rest of my life all lonely)

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

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