The Upload

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Lyrics
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Everything I know will soon just be a memory
I'm forgetting more and more every time I breathe
Keep repressing what's depressing some call it a dream
But I forgot how I got here and I wanna scream

I recall sobbing in a winter night's breeze
Couldn't feel my toes so I'd fallen to my knees
I know when I'm older it'll mean nothing to me

I've been captured by the moment
But it always slips away
They keep telling me to own it
But it's only for a day

There's no moment like the present
There's no present like today
I've been learning on my own
'Cause if I don't I'll fall away
I keep trying to be vibrant
But I'm crying when the clouds are grey
Keep it together Rob
You'd be better off on the road
And when you're doing shows you can celebrate

Hanging off the edge I feel like I'm hanging from a hook
Better than the gallows but I don't think by much
Wiping tears from my phone while my shawty send me love
I meet her on the Friday pretending like what's up

'sup

Can she tell than I'm numb
Thoughts keep racing they're running running running round enough
But I'll forget this too
Baby I don't wanna forget you
I don't know what I could do
When living in the present is all I knew

I've been captured by the moment
But it always slips away
They keep telling me to own it
But it's only for a day

There's no moment like the present
There's no present like today
I've been learning on my own
'Cause if I don't I'll fall away
I keep trying to be vibrant
But I'm crying when the clouds are grey
Keep it together Rob
You'd be better off on the road
And when you're doing shows you can celebrate

Present [Prod. Cian]

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Production: yungdreamer555
Mixing: lil XipZ
Master: lil XipZ
Cover Art: lil XipZ
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LYRICS

[chorus]
i got blood dripping down from my hands
i slaughtered the demons that were roaming my head
i killed em one by one and theres no going back
i dont feel bad for it tho, i feel no regret

they shouldve left me alone
years ago
they shouldve left me alone
thats what i told them when i was smashing their skulls

[verse]
i got blood on my hands
feel no regrets
im living life crazy
what happens next?

where do i go?
what do i do?
everyones been asking "what happened to you?"

i simply do not have answer
when i call, i have no one that answers
is this what it feels like to be all alone
lost in my head again, why is my life so dull

im searching for my purpose
why do i feel worthless

do they think that i deserve this?
whatd i do to deserve this?

[chorus]
i got blood dripping down from my hands
i slaughtered the demons that were roaming my head
i killed em one by one and theres no going back
i dont feel bad for it tho, i feel no regret

they shouldve left me alone
years ago
they shouldve left me alone
thats what i told them when i was smashing their skulls

Blood On My Hands [Prod. yungdreamer555]

you're all i ever loved....

hope u guys enjoy the song, this one is rly meaningful to me

HUGE thanks to @itschrismarek for going crazy on the beat as always <3

lyrics:

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

when i thought i hit my best, we’re breaking up
every time i try to go to rest, i’m thinking of
all the times we had
thinking of all the times we had

i know i know 
i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo
i’ll be doing this on my own, my own
don’t wanna hear you fucking call

(i’m numb)
(i been so damn numb)
(from the day you said “we’re done”)
(you’re all i ever loved)
(you’re all i ever loved)

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

(i know i know)
(i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo)
(i’ll be doing this on my own, my own)
(don’t wanna hear you fucking call)

if ur still reading this ily :)

all plats

sick of it [prod. chrismarek]

all these highs be weary 
they take my friends and bury 
but dont be scared theres much more room inside this cemetery
all these stories cautionary
like take your life compare me 
take the parts you dont like then 
in your life be different than me 
nothing could have prepared me 
none
but i knew the whole time what would happen 
it just hits different when youre really in it heavy 
my skin is slipping off me
just leave me where you find me  
im in the woods trainspotting through the poison ivy 
i left that all behind me
still feel it close beside me 
i dont know what to do with myself when i sit still and silent
i find myself in situations i hope dont get violent 
i trip myself up thinking someones intentions are sideways
ive just been done so badly
you dont know the slightest
all these things that i done seen i keep em in my eyelids 
all this time that ive spent looking youd think that id find it 	  
and i try the millionth i dont know why 
repeat

tombstone carousel (prod. sorrow bringer)

Pavement (Prod Splashgvng &  @Jolst )
Key E minor
Bpm 154

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Pavement

UPSIDE DOWN (FT. Car$in) Prod. by Lynnrae

You Wouldn't Know

You Wouldnt Know

a song i wrote in 2019 and released in 2020. it's a song about struggling with addiction, and trying to love not only yourself, but another person. a failing relationship between two people because of addiction. the 2nd and new verse, is a letter to 14 year old me. and a memory for the older one. this song is a personal battle, the death and the aftermath of what's to come. thank you for listening.

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
she never come around, when i'm on drugs
idk what to quit. is it drugs or love?
i feel like it's too much to ask
i'd say i love you, but i'll never take it back
would you take it back, if you said so?
i feel like i can ask, but i'd rather not know
on the road
run away from you
scared of love i don't know what to
do
idk what to do

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse 2
it's been years since i met you
and i've been trying to forget you
it's been years since i met you
and all i wanna do
is forget you
i gave it up for you, gave it up for you
i got sober for you, damn i got sober for me too
huh, i guess that's just the both of us
i guess we're growing up
go back to them days, poppin xans
i'll take another one
getting high with you, getting high with you
thought i'd OD, might just end up dyin with you
sobriety is something i could never do
i hope you're proud of me, the same way that i'm proud of you
i'm just tryna stay clean for my family
if i die young, then i'm dying happily
i don't wanna be here, not anymore
6 pills, now i'm falling to the floor

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

limbo (2022)

Mictainn X Slashy - Dont Run Away From Me

(Chorus)
it’s gon be me and you today 
it’s the day, we can run away 
i don’t want to see you stay 
and be judged on what you say 

so late 
baby girl you know i need you 
here so 
can you make it on the bus 
it’s getting late so 
i promise i’ll meet you half way 
so do you think of me
the way i think of you 
i see you as an angel 
my words are always true 
when you’re gone 

it makes me so sad 
because of you i almost relapsed 
but you always make me feel great 
baby fuck all the fake shit 
And fuck all the hate 

girl you know that we can be more than friends 
live our life til we die in the fucking end 
girl you know that we can be more than friends 


letting go 
i cannot let you go 
letting go 
i cannot let you go

(Verse)
So please don’t run away stay each and everyday
Look each and every way so far girl you can be my star girl

So please don’t run away stay each and everyday
Look each and every way so far girl you can be my star girl

One time give yourself to me
One night is all I’m left to see
These drugs get the best of me
I’m done gone and left to bleed

One time give yourself to me
One night is all I’m left to see
These drugs get the best of me
I’m done gone and left to bleed

Dont Run Away From Me

Mictainn X Slashy - Dont Run Away From Me

I only met her once but i see her every night in my dreams

Fantasizing

the other side w/ foreign forest

Mixed/Mastered By Me & Joshiguess
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(lyrics)
why'd you stab me in the back thought i made it all clear i be popping all these tags and i know they wanna fear I'll be posted with strap making shawty fucking mad turn the fucking lights off we be bussin in this club 

you said you would stay you think that it's a game you wanna play pretend ya she killed me fucking twice man i thought she was my mistress shawty back it up man i think you get it twisted and i don't care i can see man I'm fucking sound asleep i don't even wanna see you anymore 

i was in my come up made them shut up they be getting too nice damn it's getting fucking weird i thought i made it fucking clear i was in the back of the rear i don't want you here 

(joshiguess)
me and akira just performed last night
we were in sac and the crowd got hyped
Got fucked up like my ping got spiked
we gon blow up like it's dynamite

They wanna say hi but they insecure
But they always give me numbers give me integers
I shake while I'm giving them my signature
I just wish these times were simpler

first song in the room where we both recorded
trees around me like I'm in an orchid
walking up the steps like the plane that I boarded
all these summer times got it feeling so torrid

(akiradoves)
why'd you stab me in the back thought i made it all clear i be popping all these tags and i know they wanna fear I'll be posted with strap making shawty fucking mad turn the fucking lights off we be bussin in this club

(my verse) 
blast off we bussin you tweaking shots on me you said you wanted to hear me now I'm going stupid on this mic thats alright kinda fucking drunk catch a ride i don't wanna fight staring at your crystal eyes 

(joshiguess)
staring at your crystal eyes
we both gonna rise
said I act too nice
quiet like a mice

napalm w/ joshiguess (notartemys)

SING ME A SONG: LYRICS

break my bones
sing me a song
i cant tell you when im wrong 


tak e my life
put me asiude
dreams of a fire inside my mind 


All this shit I been through I be taking a plea
Lying on the floor and I got blood on my feet
T hey said pls just be urself, no figure of speach 
I wanna be there for you  
dont wanna be there for me 

be there for me
im begging u please
im down on my knees
 i feel my heart start to freeze 
 
come take my hand
we got a plan
fortget the bands i got a eyes on a benz


if i had a kid i would feel less alone 
look at the pictures on my phone 
we had the time to cry 
feeling stuck no where to hide

i cant take this bullshit
one more drink and im lucid 
fucked up face im stupid 
no cocaine im useless

where did all the time go
bitch i gotta line for 
every fucking mind low
got u by my side hoe 
bitch i wanna die hoe 
i dont wanna lie bro 
pick me up again and im a get a fuckin ride hoe

The Upload

broken man with dead eyes