Assisted by chat gpt for now :)
Made with sampler on bandlab
sadboy rap

(Intro)
Yeah… thought it was love, thought it was real
Now it’s just ash in my lungs, nothing I feel
Yeah…

(Verse 1)
Never thought I’d cry again after meeting you
Told myself I’m numb but the pain bled through
Thought I found the one, thought the curse was gone
But the same old scars keep dragging on

(Verse 2)
Pulled me from the dark, razor in my wrist
Cup full of poison, pain don’t coexist
Not enough strength, not enough light
But in your eyes I swore I seen life

(Verse 3)
Love how you touch me, bleeding finally stopped
Motherly embrace made my cold heart lock
Scars on my skin, you traced ‘em like art
Told me “you’re alive” when I fell apart

(Verse 4)
Grab the loaded gun, put the barrel on me
Said if I die, then you dying with me
Unless you’ll stay with me for the rest of my time
I don’t wanna breathe if you’re not by my side

(Verse 5)
Yeah I love you, you saved me from the grave
You cared for me, loved me, pulled me out the haze
Healed the pain, the agony, the torture I wore
Gave me something worth living for

(Verse 6)
“Wanna grab food?” she smiled, said sure
Nice dinner, ate heavy, I was craving her more
Every bite, every laugh, stitched my scars
For the first time I ain’t felt apart

(Verse 7)
Nothing could ruin this, nothing ever will
So I thought, walking out, hearts standing still
Said good night, fell asleep, bodies intertwined
Dreamed of forever, she was mine

(Verse 8)
Woke up cold, her chest didn’t rise
The one woman who loved me, gone overnight
Her motherly heart just stopped, no goodbye
Now I’m screaming at the ceiling — alone a g a i n, why?

save me

Lyrics by chat gpt 
Made with sampler on bandlab
Sadboy rap

[Intro]
Yeah…
Static in my head, voices draggin’ me down…
Ash on my jeans, smoke in my lungs…
No way out… this is it…
My own personal hell.

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[Verse 1]
Walls closin’ in, can’t escape, it’s a tomb,
Ash on my jeans while I rot in my room,
Voices in the static, keep draggin’ me down,
Myownpersønalhell, buried six feet underground.

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[Verse 2]
Cold hands on my neck, whisper death in my ear,
Shadow figures in the corner, I been livin’ with fear,
No light in the tunnel, just the flames and the smoke,
Every promise that I had in this life, it broke.

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[Hook]
Myownpersønalhell, can’t free myself,
Demons lurk in the dark where my secrets dwell,
Myownpersønalhell, no prayers, no help,
Only echoes in the void where the shadows melt.

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[Verse 3]
Rust stains on the walls, like the blood in my veins,
I been numb for so long, I forgot about pain,
Every step that I take, hear the chains, they drag,
Can’t run from the past, it’s the weight in the bag.

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[Verse 4]
Dead eyes in the mirror, I don’t know who I see,
Skeleton smoke risin’ from the fire in me,
Coffin dreams every night, I been learnin’ to dwell,
Trapped deep, I reside in my own personal hell.

[Verse 5]
Pitch black skies, no stars in sight,
I been walkin’ with the reaper through the endless night,
Every step feels heavy, like my soul been sold,
All that glitters turns to rust, all that’s warm gets cold.

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[Verse 6]
Ash rains down, covers skin, turns pale,
Drag my body through the dirt, leave a sorrowful trail,
Silent screams in my head, echo loud as a bell,
I ain’t livin’, I’m just rottin’ in my own personal hell.

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[Verse 7]
No love, no hope, just the taste of regret,
Every page in my story just a bloodstained threat,
Keep scratchin’ at the walls, but they don’t break through,
Yeah I’m stuck in this prison that was built by you.

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[Verse 8]
Eyes low, veins cold, let the misery swell,
Heart froze in my chest, like it’s locked in a cell,
And I know I can’t leave, yeah, I know too well,
This is life, this is death, this is myownpersønalhell.

[Outro]
Yeah…
Ash on my jeans, dirt on my face,
Life ain’t shit but a cold, dark place.
Yeah…
Myownpersønalhell, forever I stay,
Till the flames take me under and I fade away.

myownpersønalhell.m4a

Assisted by chat gpt :)
Made with sampler on bandlab
Mix of rock and sadboy rap

[Verse 1]
Where the fuck were you when the flames ate my house down,
Smokin’ in the shadows, yeah you never came around.
Ash in the breeze, silence all I ever found,
Cold in my veins, heartbeat don’t make a sound.

[Verse 2]
Cut it all up, wrist drip red in the cup,
World don’t love me, I don’t give a fuck.
Tried to hold you close but it wasn’t enough,
Now it’s me and the void, blade sharp, eyes shut.

[Verse 3]
Slit through the pain, yeah the floor breaks my skull,
Spikes in my brain like a crown when I fall.
Ash on my jeans, bloodstains on the hoodie,
Deadpan stare, bitch, death lookin’ through me.

[Verse 4]
Slit the pain away, yeah I’m witherin’ away,
Like a flower, dead flower, dead, dead, dead decay.
Pale face, empty gaze, nothin’ left to say,
Dead rose in my hand as I fade into gray.

[Verse 5]
Ash on my jeans, blood on the hoodie,
Ash in my cup, ash in my lung, ash in my veins, yeah yeah yeah.
Coughin’ out smoke till my chest feelin’ flooded,
Dead inside eyes, whole world lookin’ ugly.

[Verse 6]
Blood drippin’ like the falls, yeah I tried to save us both,
But it wasn’t ever enough, let the reaper take control.
Ash on my jeans, blood swirling in the wine,
Clock stuck at midnight, I been frozen in time.

[Verse 7]
Ash in my blood, blood in the wine,
Cry every night just to die, every night, night, night.
Bleed out slow, let the silence align,
Dead in the dark, yeah the pain intertwined.

[Outro]
Cut it… cut it up…
Dead flower…
Dead love…
Dead soul…

Cutitup.m4a

Lyrics by chat GPT 
Made on bandlab
Sadboy rap
(Verse 1)
Dead eyes stare at the ceiling in silence,
World too loud but my mind stay violent,
Cut veins leak like the truth when it’s spillin’,
I don’t chase love, just the void that be killin’.

Cold nights, yeah I rot in my room,
Every shadow on the wall look the same as my tomb,
No hope, no faith, just the weight that consume,
Yeah, the flowers all dead, never see them in bloom.

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(Verse 2)
Yeah, ash in my lungs and it taste like grief,
I don’t pray no more, only talk through my teeth,
Every word that I speak just decay underneath,
Yeah, my soul been gone, what remains is the beef.

Grey sky thoughts bleed into the rain,
Every step that I take just echoes the pain,
Life one curse that I can’t explain,
Broken heart, broken me, nothin’ left but the stain.

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(Verse 3)
Blood on my hands, but I wipe it on my jeans,
Yeah, death in my eyes, but I move like a machine,
I don’t want love, I don’t want no dreams,
Just a coffin in the dark where the silence screams.

Deadpan flow, no highs, no lows,
Ash on my jeans, that’s the life I chose,
Yeah, cut through the night where the cold wind blows,
Yeah, broken heart beats ’til the casket close.

(Verse 4)
Dead love letters on a page unread,
Every word that I wrote was a thought I bled,
Yeah, I sit in the silence with the weight in my head,
If the pain don’t stop then I wish I was dead.

No hope, no God, just a cross in the rain,
Every prayer I said was erased by the pain,
Every night I drown, every day I strain,
But the cycle don’t break, it just stays the same.

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(Verse 5)
Ash on my jeans, blood on the seams,
Every step that I take fall apart at the means,
Yeah, broken heart beat in the dark with screams,
But the silence cut deeper than a thousand dreams.

Deadpan walk through the static and snow,
Broken soul drift where the cold wind blow,
Yeah, the weight in my chest is the only thing I know,
When the casket calls my name, I’ll be ready to go.

Brokenheart.m4a

Lyrics assisted by chat gpt 
Made on sampler on bandlab
Mix of sadboy rap and house

(Verse 1)
Yeah, yeah, yeah — I love you more than anything, my love,
But that shit cut deep, left me bleeding from above.
You so womanly, I crave it, I’m addicted to your touch,
But love turned to venom, now I can’t feel enough.

(Verse 2)
Yeah, I love you so, yeah I love it — I confess,
But the more I love, the more my soul gets depressed.
I love the way you make me feel, then you rip me into bits,
Every kiss taste like poison, every hug a slit wrist.

(Verse 3)
Yeah, suck the blood outta my veins, drain it slow,
Take the pain away, baby, watch the red river flow.
Yeah, I don’t want this pain, but it’s carved in my skin,
Every “forever” that you whispered was a motherfuckin’ sin.

(Verse 4)
Yeah, slit the pain, slit my wrist, baby girl,
God, you so motherly with the way you stab my world.
Cradle me in blood, like a lullaby of knives,
Yeah, you killing me slowly but you keeping me alive.

(Outro)
Ash on my jeans, blood dripping on the floor,
Yeah, love was the drug, now I don’t want it no more.
Heart turned graveyard, yeah the flowers all decay,
Baby, kiss me one last time, then just fade away…

Truelove.m4a

Assisted by chat gpt :)
Made with sampler on bandlab
Mix of sadboy rap and eurobeat

[Hook]
Don’t you forget about my love (yeah)
Pedal to the floor, can’t get enough (woah)
Racing through the night, lights blur above
Baby, you the one — don’t forget my love

[Verse 1]
I see you honey, I’m locked in your stare
Heartbeat redline, smoke in the air
Yeah I love you dearly, no lie, no fear
But the pain in your kiss cuts sharp, too near

[Hook]
Don’t you forget about my love (yeah)
Pedal to the floor, can’t get enough (woah)
Racing through the night, lights blur above
Baby, you the one — don’t forget my love

[Verse 2]
Yeah, my baby girl, you my lifeline
Every “I love you” stuck in rewind
Love you, love you, echo in time
Burning up the road, no brakes, just shine

[Verse 3]
You the best thing that happened to me
But the scars that you left cut deep when I bleed
I love you, I hate how you haunt my sleep
Fast lane passion, but the price ain’t cheap

[Verse 4]
Fast lane livin’, scars on relapse
Hate myself dearly but I love you, that’s facts
Speed through the night, can’t turn back
All this pain in my chest but for you I’ll crash

[Verse 5]
Wrist slit, drip like Niagara falls
Broken reflections painted on these walls
Life in pieces, I can’t stall
Pedal to the floor till I lose it all

[Verse 6]
Cut it all up, pour it out in my cup
Chasing death down, I can’t get enough
This life’s a curse, and I’m stuck in the rut
Slit my wrist, screaming loud: fuck this luck

[Hook]
Don’t you forget about my love (yeah)
Pedal to the floor, can’t get enough (woah)
Racing through the night, lights blur above
Baby, you the one — don’t forget my love

[Outro]
Ash on my jeans with the blood in the rain
Speeding through the night just to numb my pain
Don’t you forget, don’t forget my name
Lost in the beat while the world goes insane

save me

AshMøde

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