Melancholy sun disposition; everything that could go wrong in the recording process did so I decided to record on my phone; this is my zero base draft of Rainy Day Fund.

Maybe I’ll save up some money
To go somewhere pretty 
Call it my rainy day fund
Yeah it’s sunny there
And so bright
I’m happy
It’s nice. 

Sunny day
Sunny ways to feel

Another day
Either way Ill feel

It’s just another rainy day fund
No fun 
No fun 
No fun
No fun….

It’s just another rainy day fund
No fun
No fun
No fun
No fun

So I guess I’ll keep dreaming 


I’ll find my way
Find my way to what’s real

Who’s to say
What is real and not real

Cause heavy hopes 
A hope I’d like to see 

A heavy home 
Deep inside of me

So who’s to say
What can not be
Cause it can be

Cause theres a happy hole 
Eating right in me 

But you see todays rainy day fund
No fun 
No fun
No fun
Yeah you see today’s a rainy day fund 
So You know I’ll keep dreaming 

Who’s to say 
There’s no other place for you to go
When your alone

Who’s to say 
You cant think about for too long
Before you let it go

Picking up the pennies
All for fun
Saving them up for my rainy day fund

Picking up the pennies 
One by one
Saving them up for my rainy day fund 

No fun 
No fun 
No fun

rainy day fund

Hold on to an amen,
bodies ancient;
to holy ground.

Angel person,
are you aging?
Life through silence
still makes a sound 

But I feel better when i am speaking out loud.
Just a little broken over,
either way I know I’ll figure it out.

Now and then,
I get suspicious 
For the reasons life is kicking me down, 
But I’m a hopefulness firm believer that good things, yes they come around,

So come around,
Laughing with me. 
Come around, 
Im happy for the Serendipity. 

Children control the dreaming,
open season,
but growing doubts.

Are you safe then,
safe from ruin.
Heard that karma;
goes town to town 

But I still laugh softer then,
the way I’m laughing now.
Just a traitor knocked me over and the feelings got too big to pronounce.

And the petty things are stupid when you’re older and you’re feeling too proud.
And i thought that getting older meant to leave,
not run from the clouds.

No mushrooms clouds,
Can stop me.
I’ll wait it out, 
Im happy for the Serendipity. 

Home sweet home;
home sweet home;
living in a halo mind of catacombs.
Where I run, 
finding hope;
living in a halo light of sinking boats.
Where love goes, I go to;
walking in pursuit of light in sunshine shoes.
Where love goes I roam to;
walking in pursuit of light through muse sizes blues.

Serendipity

Serendipity

more (of course)

Imagine leaving a voicemail to heaven. I wrote this last week of my dogs life. 

Lyrics:

River of tears, 
oh how many years are left for the dogs?

Times are now weird,
and I think it so clearly;
the time has caught up.

Tell you all about it,
when I get the chance.
But the feelings pressing on me;
trying to face the circumstance up head.

Old friend,
can I see you again?
Can I have another minute;
maybe make the problem end
 ess tragically.

Old friend,
Can we just play pretend?
Can I have another moment,
can this feeling start to bend more happily.

But fate, it never comes late.
It makes the magic be;
sometimes takes your gravity. 

And fate, it likes to keep a date.
It makes the remedies;
makes a life feel like a dream.

But you’re rowing away, 
and I want to you to stay.


WAnd you’re going away;
Won’t you please, can you stay.
Stay with me, 
Where do I put it 
All the memories?

River of tears, 
oh how many years are left for the dogs?

Times are now weird,
and I think it so clearly;
the time has caught up. X2


54321
These things can happen,
it can feel dramatic
Let go, they’re gone.

river of tears (marley’s version)

Imagine leaving a voicemail to a ghost.


River of tears
Oh how many years are left for the dogs 

times are now weird
And I think it so clear
Yes the time has caught up

Tell you all about it
When I get the chance 
But the feelings pressing on me
trying to face the circumstance
Up head

Old friend
Let’s not pretend 
I ever want to see your face
See your love again 

Oh yes old friend 
Bitterness ends 
rewrite the broken history
forgive your lack of empathy 

And Oh my 
how the time flies
I really thought you’d get it
But it’s now the second time 

And you’re right,
It’s fine,
You’re free from your crimes.
Go out with no apologies,
continue life gaslighting me. 

And you’ll see,
I guess I’m happy 
I’m Born with old religion 
And distaste for 3rd degrees. 

And maybe, 
I’ll bleed; 
You’ll talk about me, 
Most likely how I’m tasteless 
And how you show pity 

River of tears
Oh How many years are left for the dogs 

times are now weird
And I think it so clearly
Yes the time has caught up x2


54321
Nothing happened,
Let’s not be dramatic 
Let go, be gone

river of tears

Carefree
Sun daisies
Lovely lost ladies 
Lazy
Love interviews 

Scraped knees 
Losing money 
Flush cheeks 
sweeter than honey
I’m craving 
Your point of view 

You know you’re all I need
So won’t you follow beside 
Would you follow me baby
Cause I’d follow you
I get nosebleeds
From past life’s that outgrew me
Always hiding from something
the changing altitudes 

You hand me love tissues  
so i gotta push through

Flame trees 
Virgin Mary 
Sunset obituaries
Scary 
what all this life can do

Tame scene 
Blood like cherries 
Mind bomb booming libraries 
Barely 
Making it out of blue 

You know you’re all I need
So won’t you follow beside me
Would you follow me baby
Cause I’d follow you
I get nosebleeds
From past life’s that outgrew me
Always hiding from something
the changing altitudes 

You hand me love tissues  
So what else can I do?


cause yeah you gotta know
its neither left or right
flee or fight 
Save the night 
The melancholy hits late afternoon
You’ll the see clues
When good guys lose

And yeah it’s better known 
Sometimes there’s keys and kites
Fly thought the light, the lighting bites 
No holly jolly singing after tunes
Go Tie your shoes
It’ll be over soon
(And you know)

I I
I Know there’s no other place left for me
Other then the far out winds
no longer biting cheeks 

Hope there’s still a place I share
Where the moments can stay happy 
Leaving life to innocence 
Where it can always be free

Love me through the thunder
Love me through the rain
Love me through the paradise
Twisters or my shame 
Remind me 
Through its felt like a winter 
that’s it’s only pain

And mercy lies in miracles
Like Freedom always stains
Do all weapons collecting dust
Mean that mind wars can remain 
And find me
Through it eats til I’m thinner
I know I could change 


And I You know you’re all I need
So won’t you follow beside 
Could you follow me baby
Cause I’d follow you
I get nosebleeds
From past life’s that outgrew me
Always hiding from something
the changing aptitudes

You hand me love tissues  
So I gotta push through

nosebleeds

Shot goes the whisper,
and down goes the soul.

If everybody knows,
if anybody’s home.

If the winter’s just a bummer,
and the summer’s always cold.
Tell me where do flowers grow;
tell me where it’s safe to roam?

Tell me where do I belong?

Heavens just a sender,
and nobody can go.
Cause the good is sacrificed,
and warm bodies like float.

Climbing every mountain;
counting,
every treasure’s not fools gold.
Ever think it has to change;
never doing what I’m told.

Older,
older;
aging slowly .

Lost in a twister,
and down golden roads.

Calling hello who’s to blame;
poppies won’t let strangers go.

If the dangers in the player,
but the player lost control.
Tell me who will hold the shame;
tell me who will live to know.

Tell me who will take the throne?

Cold shoulders;
roller coasters.
Aging;
feeling,
older; 
I’m older.

Humming siren sounds;
singing laughing antidotes.
Giving pity to the sick;
feel a tickle down my throat.

Have the lesson in the message,
feel a lot like sticks and stones. 
Many people share my name;
many people live alone.

Many people are unknown.

Older.
I’m older.

Instrumental by T.W

I'm older

m calling out massacre: let oblivion be the final resting place to insecurity 

Holy masterpiece 
Hold me as I breathe 
But you’re not enough to please me

Solar war and peace
Light room temple tease
But it’s not enough to save me

Maybe I just want to get to know my body 

Feel the night
And the movement 
See the sun
And it’s strong appetite

Maybe I just want to get to know  my body 

Eat the fire 
And wind
Such a miracle it is 
To fight 

Moonlight majesty
Cast your spell on me
show the demons 
thee exits to my mind

wish star lecegy
homebound remedies 
tell the voices 
im done with self sacrifice 

Maybe I just want to get to know my body 

Angel being 
On the surface 
Glow kite surfing
Tasting lost satellites

Maybe I just want to get to know my body

Let it wonder 
Let it hunger 
Dream beam sober 
in the ghost towns tonight 

Cause rather grow old
Then leave my body out to wither 
Searching to let go 
Sold
To Something out there 
Other than a mirror 

Cause it’s just so sickening
This itch I’m in
I’m listening to anything 
Left suffering 
Less suffering

Cause it’s just so crippling
This kick I’m in 
Not ignorant but innocent
Left suffering 
Less suffering x2

Maybe I just want to get to know my body

Tell it sorry 
and it’s over 
that we’re both older
And it will be alright 

Maybe I just want to get to know my body

Feel the edges 
til it’s over 
til I know that one day I’ll be fine

body

I’m not right
left behind the sugar and sweetness.
Cried all night,
In your arms I’m developing weakness.

Short answer, long guess 
See I’m feeling depressed
Is there somewhere I can go to fix my mood.

Under pressure, hot mess 
see I’m feeling worthless
Is it cause I’m never settle with bad news

When Life’s Stepping over me and 
my blue suede shoes. 
Blue 

Picking fights,
It’s finite who brought these bombs to Eden?
Sharpen knifes,
Yes I’m fine, my back is only bleeding.

Melodrama obsessed
Leaving room for softness 
Is there other ways to go about this gloom?

Heavens bitter imprints 
leaving love to digest
Do you know a way to cover up a bruise?

When life’s steeping over you and your blue suede shoes

Honeyed cherries  
Holy Hallelujah 
God I wish I knew you when I was young 

Kicked my bruises bare knees
Lovesick in our series 
Running all the theories of what i did wrong

Thinking this much made a whole damn song  to

And life’s stepping over it and my blue suede shoes 

In a new era
Who called me sierra?
rivers dipping down my cheeks 
a mountain point of view.

Light beam magenta 
I named a swan Sarah 
And very pretty girl i know is always singing blues

What to do when life is just walking on you
Kicking you around and scuffing up your whole mood

Tried to make it better by just telling my truth 
And here you come around stepping on my suede shoes
Blue  
On my feet
Steeping hard 
It’s discrete
If your a man
And I’m a toy
At least I like to feel some joy

Heartbreak motel I guess it you’re
Burn it’s up, no kiss and tell, burn it up wish you well 
I said it’s nothing much just burning love

blue suede shoes

Draft lyrics 

mark your words like chains
I think I’m getting use
to how your love has gold restraints 
then tells me I’m the one who should feel shame 
So sorry I’m not you, 
but baby we all still bleed the same, you’re call 
And walk on water was to no surprise 
Oh please 
I saw it coming for me with those alibis
And 
really I did  try to make you proud.

I never should have thought of it
I Should have let you go
And now you’re asking how I’m doinqQ
as if you play dumb for show
And if you wanted to get even
maybe reap the seeds you sow
But guess that’s how our story goes
I never should have to beg for it
You should’ve told me no 
And now your asking for forgiveness 
while I waited years for hope 
another lesson another reason
Another person another treason
now I just don’t know, I just don’t know
But
~~~ chorus
Baby line those words 
prefect poet perfect diction 
We could make this work
Kiss my bruise with superstition
and i know love hurts
but im dying in remission
So fuck you never listen
fuck you and your decisions
and it can’t get worst
Other than the way it’s sitting
on my chest, you’re the best 
At making love feel like prison 
And your cold hearts cursed
pass the lies and indecisions
please say your fucking kidding
Pls leave it all to feelings

take me dancing (short version)

you want it darker, you wanna fighter?
not Leonard Cohen; a fire starter.
dont think im chosen, dont think im higher,
but i stopped playing nice, when you called my pain a liar.

ive heard you right? the wedding singer,
says im the person setting all the shit on fire,
dont sing in cursive, its just satire,
casue the punchline to the joke is that the ladybirds a writer.

so what did you think that i was gonna say to that?
you think this shits a game, stop treating me like Marianne.
dont punish me, for saying that you made me sad,
for leaving me that way, im just an ordinary friend. 

my songs are bitter, my songs are biters;
i tell my truth with sharpened teeth through the crossfire.
kiss my own bruises, birds on a wire;
glad i could be to your service, glad my service could inspire.

I've hurt you right?

Marianne

Song draft, lyrics:

Darlene heathen￼, eyes like gates to Eden
One more look I’m in danger, lips as sweet as peaches
holding hands with an angel, while I’m bleeding out blue 

Golden light is receding, oh won’t you say it and mean it?
I placed a bed on the weather, I didn’t know time was fleeting
I held my hands out to angels, now they’re bleeding out too

Ancient ways of dreaming 
Ancient ways of reasons 
Ancient ways of nowhere to go 

Tried to find the meaning 
Ancient ways of freedom 
Ancient ways of losing your hope 

Melting smiles through seasons, hate the look of you leaving 
Oh Won’t let me surrender, all of my past lives to grieving
I sympathize with an angel, now my heart into 

you live off sunshine and screaming, 
so fuck the world/people pleasing.
I know I get the vendetta, it’s hard to sow what you’re reaping
I justified Angel, so what’s there now left to do .

Ancient ways of dreaming 
Ancient ways of reasons 
Ancient ways of nowhere to go 

Tried to find the meaning 
Ancient ways of freedom 
Ancient ways of losing your hope 

Ancient age, ancient days
Ancient phase, ancient faith

Ancient ways

Encoring
and down pouring
Faucets of love

he came and then he
sun kissed her  
kneeled whispers 
fast pacing dust 

so scarlet 
and starlit his moon bitten fun

better savored ultraviolet
still soft lit in moon hidden rust 

and jack and jill went up that hill
to taste the wasting sober 
jack fell down and broke his crown
and sent jill tumbling after 

hand written 
sun prison’s cheeks painted blush
 
holy fires meant to 
not miss her
sweet withers out with his love 

Ah oh x2

No warning
seed mourning
A flower a grudge

Doesn’t matter if your snow charming
Im starving and still not enough

 so starlet 
incarnate of needing to touch 

better sacred better silenced 
reliantly blued out of hush

Ah uh
~~
and Jack and Jill went up that hill
and couldn’t find their laugher 
Jack fell down and broke his crown
and sent jill tumbling after 

Free falling
prayer calling
what next the bruise or fluff 

Please darling; heart throbbing
the threats that threaten us

But Jack and Jill go up that hill 
so see the moments after
Jack feel down and broke his crown 
and sent jill still tumbling after

Jack and Jill (acoustic demo)

in my mind
I gave you 
everything I had and more

but I found 
at the end
your heart is only able to hold me
playing pretend

more more more x2

that is fair
also not 
to give everything to someone 
while they only watch 

More more more x2

your green eyes
speckled skin
I would want you 
in every room or place I was in

More more more

more more more

I like to stare 
sinking in another minute
you’re unaware most times 

you don’t play fair
tell me how it is you laugh that perfect
dancing around most lines 

yew who yew who

don’t you get to close to me 
I might just make you poetry 

rose are rare
a stitch against the blueing violence
I like your hair tonight 

no small affair 
you ever catch a blushing violet
out of thin air sometimes 

Chorus 

the very first line
it speaks for it’s self 
I’ll spell you just right 
write you in pastel 

The very first time
it stays on a shelf
I read it just fine 
remember you well

yew who

first take:

im not looking like him
not looking for you
god I’m so dramatic 
it’s something about how they see what they do
my body’s just a form to hold the static 

what the fuck is up with that 
do i look like a welcome mat?
without reason  
a heart attack 
but boy do I love it when you make me laugh 

ha ha ha.  Ha. x2

wrappin around naked emotions
lose you in crowds 
you’re not around 
maybe I doubt 
your motivations
your distance is proud 
if I’m thinking out loud 

cause this shit it hits right back
do I look like a welcome mat?
and l keep it coming like you’re Bojack  
keep it coming I can handle that

commas epiphanies
all this love in parentheses
I gave, you take what you want from me
I give, you never feel anything 

what the fuck is up with that 
do i look like a welcome mat?
without reason  
a heart attack 
but boy do I love it when you make me laugh 

dancing around sacred erosion 
lose you town
you’re not around
maybe I doubt
your locomotions 
it’s hardly a noun
yet I’m writing it down  

cause this shit it hits right back
do I look like a welcome mat?
and l keep it coming like you’re Bojack  
keep it coming I can handle that

oceans of legacies
a gripping fist to humanity 
I gave, you take what you want from me
I give, you never feel anything

welcome mat

I’m not right
left behind the sugar and sweetness.
Cried all night,
In your arms I’m developing weakness.

Short answer, long guess 
See I’m feeling depressed
Is there somewhere I can go 
to fix my mood.

Under pressure, hot mess 
see I’m feeling worthless
Is it cause I’m never settled
with bad news

When Life’s Stepping over me and 
my blue suede shoes. 
Blue 

Picking fights,
It’s finite who brought these bombs to Eden?
Sharpen knifes,
Yes I’m fine, my back is only bleeding.

Melodrama obsessed
Leaving room for softness 
Is there other ways to go about this gloom?

Heavens bitter imprints 
leaving love to digest
Do you know a way to cover up a bruise?

When life’s steeping over you and your blue suede shoes

Honeyed cherries  
Holy Hallelujah 
God I wish I knew you when I was young 

Kicked my bruises bare knees
Lovesick in our series 
Running all the theories of what i did wrong

Thinking this much made a whole damn song  to

And life’s stepping over it and my blue suede shoes 

In a new era
Who called me sierra?
rivers dipping down my cheeks 
a mountain point of view.

Light beam magenta 
I named a swan Sarah 
And very pretty girl i know is always singing blues

What to do when life is just walking on you
Kicking you around and scuffing up your whole mood

Tried to make it better by just telling my truth 
And here you come around stepping on my suede shoes
Blue  
On my feet
Steeping hard 
It’s discrete
If your a man
And I’m a toy
At least I like to feel some joy

Heartbreak motel I guess it you’re
Burn it’s up, no kiss and tell, burn it up wish you well 
I said it’s nothing much just burning love x2

Here is a little more of bleu that I finished New Year’s Eve morning. Bleu was my last song of 2020 and did so much for my soul. This song’s intentions became clear after it was written and I had my “ah ha” moment. In the beginning of year I wanted to finished an EP called “synesthesia”, by the end of the year (because I feel things quite literally in color so I wanted to elaborate on that) but had no luck...and honestly it’s because I had so many fucking barriers and I thought I was in the complete known of myself and wasn’t. When something real appeared in my lyrics I thought... well no I cant say that? Or feel that.. or THINK that... and confuddlement was my prison.... my prison was not feeling so others didn’t have to take accountability on how they hurt me. My prison was not feeling so I didn’t have to take accountability on how I was hurting myself. 2020 was so uncomfortable it taught me uncomfortable isn’t where I wanted to be, but is necessary to feel at times. It teaches you other colors, it teaches bleu isn’t an omen, but a lesson.

NICO WOLFFE

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