We are all Sinners when the Light goes off

Sober

Golden Idols

They keep inviting me out, I keep saying no
Not 'cause I'm sad, I just don't wanna go
Small talk with people I don't really know
I'd rather stay home, pour a drink, take it slow

They think something's wrong with me
But I'm good, honestly

I'd rather be alone
Than fake it with a smile
Rather be alone
Than waste another night
Pretending that I care about the things they talk about
I'd rather be alone
And I'm good with that now

Used to think I needed people all the time
Now I realize that most of it was lies
Surface level shit that doesn't mean a thing
I'm cool with just a few, don't need everything

They think something's wrong with me
But this is where I'm free

I'd rather be alone
Than fake it with a smile
Rather be alone
Than waste another night
Pretending that I care about the things they talk about
I'd rather be alone
And I'm good with that now

Maybe I grew up, maybe I just changed
Maybe I'm just done playing games
Either way I'm cool right here
Don't need the noise, I'm clear

I'd rather be alone
Than fake another day
Rather be alone
I'm better off this way
Done pretending that I care about the things they talk about
I'd rather be alone
And that's okay

(I'm good, I'm good with that)

I'd Rather Be Alone

Platinum painkillers, same dose nightly
Got rich slow, but the peace move lightly
Can’t feel lows when the highs get pricey
Smilin’ in a world that don’t like me
Yeah, platinum painkillers, no refill left
Made my name, but I lost my rest
If it all come down to what I suppress
Then I guess I’m doin’ my best

Platinum Painkillers

What you mean by that?
When you say you care, but you fall right back
You say “forever,” then you fade to black
Yeah, I know what you mean by that
You say “it’s different,” it’s the same old act
Talk too smooth, I see the cracks
Don’t explain, I don’t attach
Yeah, I know what you mean by that

what you mean by that

I’m not here to preach — I’m here to embody.
A messenger forged through pain, clarity, and growth.
I share my process because someone out there still feels lost — like I once did.
I’m not aiming for perfection.
I’m becoming the example I once prayed for.
Awareness is power.
And with power comes responsibility —
For our healing.
For our choices.
For our mind.
I use CGM to express the inexpressible —
to turn emotion into energy, chaos into clarity.
I am Mind Warrior —
a presence forged in fire,
defending the mind from manipulation, distortion, and decay.
This isn’t just art.
It’s armor.

Shatter the Script

Frequency

will-i-survive” 3.mp3

Something to Pray For

BEYOND THE TRUTH [1]

When You Know You Know

[Verse 1]
You said it like a passing thought
with a tight smile half-way out the door
the rain was brushing at the window
your keys ready in your hand

I asked if you were coming back
you laughed like you didn’t hear the question
the kind of laugh that stings a little—
almost warm almost gone

[Pre-Chorus]
And maybe it was nothing
or maybe it was everything
funny how the quiet
tells the truth first

[Chorus]
When you know you know—
it hits you slow
like a long breath you didn’t take
like the space between
what you said and what you meant
when you know you know—
and I knew the second
you looked at the floor
instead of me

[Verse 2]
I replay your footsteps down the hallway
every step a softer version of yourself
you always left with a kind of carefulness
as if breaking something delicate—

As if you knew I was the delicate thing
I sat with the quiet after
hands wrapped around my own ribs
trying to hold what was slipping

[Pre-Chorus]
You didn’t have to say it
people rarely do
the truth always arrives
before the mouth catches up

[Chorus]
When you know you know—
the body feels it first
the heart gets it late
and the mind pretends
it’s all misunderstanding
when you know you know—
and I knew the night
your goodbye sounded
too practiced

[Bridge]
I keep thinking maybe I dreamt it—
the way your eyes softened
right before you let go
love is funny like that
it lingers even after
the people don’t

[Final Chorus]
When you know you know—
the truth sits small
but heavy in the chest
you don’t have to explain it
I already heard it
in the spaces you left
when you know you know—
and I know now
even if you couldn’t say it

When You Know You Know

Welcome to My SoundCloud Journey

By ZEN

“What I Represent” (CGM Producer Statement)

I want to be clear about who I am and what I represent.

If I had to use a label, I’d call myself a CGM Producer — Computer Generated Music.
I create music through research, reflection, and self-expression.
Every track I make comes from something real I’ve lived, learned, or healed through.

I’m not here pretending to be a traditional musician, and I’m not disrespecting anyone who is.
I honor the art, the craft, and the ones who’ve dedicated their lives to it.

I’m simply a human using the tools of this time — AI technology — to express myself.
I don’t need a label, a budget, a producer, or an engineer.
I don’t need to fit a certain genre or meet anyone’s expectations.

Technology has given me the opportunity to create freely, to speak on the topics that matter to me:
healing, emotional intelligence, the human experience, and the truth I’ve learned through my own journey.
I’m not trying to be famous.
I’m not chasing validation.
I’m building connection.

This is my art.

This is my process.

This is my voice — expressed through sound, emotion, and technology.

If it resonates with you, I welcome you.
If it doesn’t, that’s okay too.
I’m just doing what humans have always done —
expressing myself through the tools of my time. 

🎧 Listen. Feel. Reflect. Connect.
Like, share, or comment — every interaction helps this mission ripple further than me.
To those walking this path of healing:
You’re not behind. You’re not broken.
You’re becoming.
Let’s rise together — freely, consciously, and without shame.
Love is my compass. Healing is my art. Unity is the goal.

🎵 All of my music is CGM (Computer Generated Music) created with the collaboration of ChatGPT and Suno — my thoughts and feelings, transformed into sound.

💫 If you’d like to support this journey:
Venmo: venmo.com/u/ZenYao1111