I’m standing naked, in front of a crowd 
throwing a tantrum, screaming out 
and the sun doesn’t rise like it used to 
i ignore you, because I have to

I look into everything, when i look in his eyes
it’s you staring at me, my courage dies
and I can not love like I used to
no matter how far I am it comes back to you

Joe, I hope you’re alone, I hope you are hungry 
I hope you are broke 
i hope everyone that you love leaves you
i hate the mean person you turned me into

I don’t know how to fix this
Is this who I am? 
all my kindness has rotted, I don’t like who I am
are you apart of me now? do i carry this shit?
I feel you in the night breezes and I see your face
I hear you breathing when Im awake

Pick up the pieces, crumble under the weight
and everyone asks me, why I would stay 
but I sat in the dark to appease you
you promised you’d chance and I believed you

now I’m sick to my stomach, and high off the hope
I stood there crying while you stared at the floor 
you said I’d do great things, I think I freeze up 
and now i’ll do anything to prove i’m enough

I’m afraid if he touched me, i’d make him drown
crack open my skull, and I’ll pour in your mouth 
i’m sorry I can’t get to know you
if he saw me I think I would run too

I don’t know how to fix this
Is this who I am? 
all my kindness has rotted, I don’t like who I am
are you apart of me now? do i carry this shit?
I feel you in the night breezes and I see your face
I hear you breathing when Im awake

Joe, please let me go
i have been hungry, i’ve lost all hope
i never did anything to you 
if it makes me clean then I’ll forgive you

I don’t know how to fix this
Is this who I am? 
all my kindness has rotted, I don’t like who I am
are you apart of me now? do i carry this shit?
I feel you in the night breezes and I see your face
I hear you breathing when Im awake

Bluebird

Nora Meier

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