LYRICS :


i can’t show my emotions to no one
they all got they friends and i say i do too
but all my friends is high and still connected to that life like bluetooth
fam say stay warm and friends say stay safe i say you should too
paranoia killing me they watching me just like youtube
see me cry oh who’s that guy surrounded by the crowd
see my scream out that suicide is all i’ve been around
laugh at all my jokes but i hide behind the tears of a sad clown
my girl she hold me down

most people j stay around cus i am just so funny
as soon as i open up they say “ew omg omoney,
you need help and i damn well know that ur spirits ugly”
this is it it’s life or death i don’t got any other chance
better myself, or sever myself from a better fucking stance 
i just miss them days i was young and i would dance
laugh at all the sights of joy and not being a damn man
cus one thing i am so scared of is leaving all my friends
boutta blow up soon i feel it coming i’ll get bands
gold up on my teeth on stage and seats is full of fans
clapping all their hands to the tempo of my trance
i hope i stay around cus i can’t go to them grams
if life was a damn movie i would hate to be in it
film this film that bitch come film this suicide im in it
it won’t take that long it just might be a few minutes
i don’t like to talk so i decide to fucking zip it

nothing changes if nothing changes (Forest BeatZ)

This pain gotta lotta do with my respect
Never let yo guard down never know whos at ur neck
Get ya checks make the money moves correct
Make sure yo click tight
And make sure u up next
Manifestion of diamonds for my pit bulls neck
making mula off the shows and flip for the profit yet
Ya still depressed 
Cus money doesn’t buy you anything but a blue check
Oh who’s tech?
Boy I love this music
It gets you movin and groovin
That marijuana got yall soothin 
But who’s it
Not me cus I don’t smoke no mo
Probably would’ve had a mansion if I ain’t buy that much blow
Ya never know
Could’ve probably wasted it on something else
I could give a fuck man I gotta respect myself
Honestly the last 5 years I wanted to end myself

But I’m on some different timing
The stars aligning while dimensions are intertwining why you whining 
Cus I don’t know which way to go
Momma dukes held it down cus pops couldn’t, no
That’s sad asf bro
Yea I know my dad probably is cool now I don’t got the time to grow
Relations with the faces that remind me of places that I don’t want to fucking go
Mane Just leave me tf alone 

They said boy don’t you cry
Look up in the sky
Tell me ten reasons why ur grateful to be alive
I’ll tell you one 
Cus I didn’t blast myself with my gun

That was 6th grade I thought I was ugly
Mad skinny cus the pharmacy had me bugging
adderall mixed w no sleep
No one ever told me it was okay to fucking weep
Boy I cried and cried
I wished I had someone right by my side
Tears turned to numbing cus the weed seemed tight
Stole it from my grandfather and stole his pipe
I got to tokin and my mind started closin
All the memories of the pain that I’ve been holdin
It went from weekend highs 
To fiending for a nug every fucking night

Fast forward 2 years still got problems with how I fucking appeared 
I hated my peers they couldn’t understand so they called me fucking weird
I got into blow with a couple of my friends 
2021 snorting lines from end to end
that’s when the damage started to begin
Hated everything  around and wanted it to end

They said boy don’t you cry
Look up in the sky
Tell me ten reasons why ur grateful to be alive
Number two
I got roof over my head and endless amounts of food

2022  drinking and the psychs came in
Boy I was tripping sack with all my fucking friends
they tell psychedelics ain’t a party drug
Took the fucking acid started laughing and I fucking shrugged
now I’m in this fucking loop wishing there was a ladder out  I don’t know what to do
Started taking more acid and started taking shrooms 
7g’s down the hatch and now I see the truth
ego death is something not to fuck with
Lines of coke are still in this function
Started robbing people w my friends for fun
scamming people just to get a new drug
My momma getting scared 


Now I met the love of my life
Both ain’t clean so linked and smoked the pipe
Weed mari ganja grew us real fucking tight
But I ain’t wanna fuck cus abandoned when i was a kid
Broke up after 6 months cus the addiction was too much she had to clean up
And now im fucked up 2023 gonna be really rough
Started smoking dough again and started to pick up 
The acid and the shrooms got me snug
Drinking all my problems down but my mental all cuffed
I thought she was the one I was confused cus I all drugged up
My psyche hit the fucking road
It took a little trip to hell and where the tulips dont grow
it started to snow
my nose got cold cus of all these lined roads
And them barcodes turned into my fucking throat 
Choking on the pain as I hit the fucking floor

They said boy don’t you cry
Look up in the sky
Tell me ten reasons why ur grateful to be alive
Number 3 
My family will always be with me

3 months later now it’s July 2023
my dawg hmu he said bro you tryna link
I said yea where he said coo I’ll drop where we’ll meet
So I took a quick trip down to the park
I dapped him up I said bro u tryna spark
He said yea u know any fucking spots 
I said hell yea let’s go to the hill at the top
(COULDNT PUT ALL THE LYRICS :()

ON THE DAY I DIE, CRY!!!!! (reddotremix)

lil peep - lonely (on the highway)

wifiskeleton - nope your too late i already died w/ jacko

Tell Me If It’s Real (prod. yngbshp)

back bitch screw you
bullets sent through you
cost a lot too move through
live nd learn who knew
broke down coke lines 
livin just too pass time 
more lines coke eyes baby ima be fine x2

rockin gucci rockin prada 
baby girl wann die tomorrow livin till its empty bottles 
tell her too but i dont wanna
got too many drugs we aint done till its up
tell my bitch too call the plug up 
whats another relapse all my friends got wrapped
i got nothin else too live for 
i got nothin else too live for 
bitch fuck you nd ur bestfriend too
ima get too stompin in my brand new choo shoes
baby girl ur see through meanin i can see u 
dont like what im readin so i tell the bitch screw u

back bitch screw you
bullets sent through you
cost a lot too move through
live nd learn who knew
broke down coke lines 
livin just too pass time 
more lines coke eyes baby ima be fine x2

better days?

DEAD HIPPIE - A PUMPKIN ON THE TOP OF THE TREE

WWVII (BSHP777 X RΛYИΞ)

sleep through your alarms <3 slowed by ali

no respect freestyle [prod. greaf]

another product of jameson.

REMember Music.

Doodling In The Key Of C Sharp (prod. Larry Fisherman)

https://linktr.ee/siikada
HE LOST HIMSELF SOMEWHERE ALONG THE WAY (SIDE B)
siiikada: insta&tiktok
SICK OF HIS OWN FACE 
SICK OF HIS SKIN, OF THE DARK,
HE CRAWLS OUTSIDE HIMSELF TO SING

better days?

$ikada

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