LYRICS :


i can’t show my emotions to no one
they all got they friends and i say i do too
but all my friends is high and still connected to that life like bluetooth
fam say stay warm and friends say stay safe i say you should too
paranoia killing me they watching me just like youtube
see me cry oh who’s that guy surrounded by the crowd
see my scream out that suicide is all i’ve been around
laugh at all my jokes but i hide behind the tears of a sad clown
my girl she hold me down

most people j stay around cus i am just so funny
as soon as i open up they say “ew omg omoney,
you need help and i damn well know that ur spirits ugly”
this is it it’s life or death i don’t got any other chance
better myself, or sever myself from a better fucking stance 
i just miss them days i was young and i would dance
laugh at all the sights of joy and not being a damn man
cus one thing i am so scared of is leaving all my friends
boutta blow up soon i feel it coming i’ll get bands
gold up on my teeth on stage and seats is full of fans
clapping all their hands to the tempo of my trance
i hope i stay around cus i can’t go to them grams
if life was a damn movie i would hate to be in it
film this film that bitch come film this suicide im in it
it won’t take that long it just might be a few minutes
i don’t like to talk so i decide to fucking zip it

nothing changes if nothing changes (Forest BeatZ)

there’s too much on this earth to be mad about

and kids and mommas cry while the men laugh out loud

Typical o$ shit to sit and cry and pout bout the life of mine is better then it was bad times and now I’m out 

Times have changed and lines will fade from my mothers house

Grew up with dysfunction now I don’t know how to route

Nothing but the pain is real and nothing but self doubt

I wish I took the time to grow relation with my father how?

Too much pain is in the dirt I don’t wanna dig it out

Id do anything to see my brothers clean

They don’t like the new me and I care a lot

But it’s too much pain to sit and try to stop

6 months clean is a day I’d thought I’d never see

I’d do anything to see my fucking brothers clean

It’s not what they want their life is their’s to live

But the way they hurt is familiar and it gets me pissed

times have changed (B.O.R remix)

I don’t got the time today
To sit around and wash my face
Pain will never fade away unless I do something 
in case I ever die
Hold me one last fucking time
Tell my momma that I love her while I watch my nieces cry
Jesus if you’ll ever listen hear me plead this one last time
I am sorry for my sins and I am sorry for those nights
That I wasted all my time getting fucked up doing lines
All the stealing and the lies
I was sick and hated everything around

ROSE FROM DA DEAD

from the back of the class smokin wax with my brother

 yes we got high and now we’re chillin tryna understand what tf is goin on 

i don’t think i can keep goin on

but it’s never been about me yes i knew this 

never in a million years i ever thought he’d do this

so i’m steady thinking bout some fucking blue scripts

most likely gonna end it with a mfkn blue tip 

what’s sad is now everyone acts like they fucking knew him

they just worry about themselves and go back to their bullshit

i don’t really like you humans j stay back

i hope this suicide ends with this track



now this image of you hanging in my head is tearing me apart

ik you’re somewhere out there watching me from afar

sometimes in life you gotta keep really pushing ur car

all this weight upon my shoulders yet i’m still goin hard

jacoby tribute (LLJN) (prod. notpo3a)

resurect me (2rangtones)

This pain gotta lotta do with my respect
Never let yo guard down never know whos at ur neck
Get ya checks make the money moves correct
Make sure yo click tight
And make sure u up next
Manifestion of diamonds for my pit bulls neck
making mula off the shows and flip for the profit yet
Ya still depressed 
Cus money doesn’t buy you anything but a blue check
Oh who’s tech?
Boy I love this music
It gets you movin and groovin
That marijuana got yall soothin 
But who’s it
Not me cus I don’t smoke no mo
Probably would’ve had a mansion if I ain’t buy that much blow
Ya never know
Could’ve probably wasted it on something else
I could give a fuck man I gotta respect myself
Honestly the last 5 years I wanted to end myself

But I’m on some different timing
The stars aligning while dimensions are intertwining why you whining 
Cus I don’t know which way to go
Momma dukes held it down cus pops couldn’t, no
That’s sad asf bro
Yea I know my dad probably is cool now I don’t got the time to grow
Relations with the faces that remind me of places that I don’t want to fucking go
Mane Just leave me tf alone 

They said boy don’t you cry
Look up in the sky
Tell me ten reasons why ur grateful to be alive
I’ll tell you one 
Cus I didn’t blast myself with my gun

That was 6th grade I thought I was ugly
Mad skinny cus the pharmacy had me bugging
adderall mixed w no sleep
No one ever told me it was okay to fucking weep
Boy I cried and cried
I wished I had someone right by my side
Tears turned to numbing cus the weed seemed tight
Stole it from my grandfather and stole his pipe
I got to tokin and my mind started closin
All the memories of the pain that I’ve been holdin
It went from weekend highs 
To fiending for a nug every fucking night

Fast forward 2 years still got problems with how I fucking appeared 
I hated my peers they couldn’t understand so they called me fucking weird
I got into blow with a couple of my friends 
2021 snorting lines from end to end
that’s when the damage started to begin
Hated everything  around and wanted it to end

They said boy don’t you cry
Look up in the sky
Tell me ten reasons why ur grateful to be alive
Number two
I got roof over my head and endless amounts of food

2022  drinking and the psychs came in
Boy I was tripping sack with all my fucking friends
they tell psychedelics ain’t a party drug
Took the fucking acid started laughing and I fucking shrugged
now I’m in this fucking loop wishing there was a ladder out  I don’t know what to do
Started taking more acid and started taking shrooms 
7g’s down the hatch and now I see the truth
ego death is something not to fuck with
Lines of coke are still in this function
Started robbing people w my friends for fun
scamming people just to get a new drug
My momma getting scared 


Now I met the love of my life
Both ain’t clean so linked and smoked the pipe
Weed mari ganja grew us real fucking tight
But I ain’t wanna fuck cus abandoned when i was a kid
Broke up after 6 months cus the addiction was too much she had to clean up
And now im fucked up 2023 gonna be really rough
Started smoking dough again and started to pick up 
The acid and the shrooms got me snug
Drinking all my problems down but my mental all cuffed
I thought she was the one I was confused cus I all drugged up
My psyche hit the fucking road
It took a little trip to hell and where the tulips dont grow
it started to snow
my nose got cold cus of all these lined roads
And them barcodes turned into my fucking throat 
Choking on the pain as I hit the fucking floor

They said boy don’t you cry
Look up in the sky
Tell me ten reasons why ur grateful to be alive
Number 3 
My family will always be with me

3 months later now it’s July 2023
my dawg hmu he said bro you tryna link
I said yea where he said coo I’ll drop where we’ll meet
So I took a quick trip down to the park
I dapped him up I said bro u tryna spark
He said yea u know any fucking spots 
I said hell yea let’s go to the hill at the top
(COULDNT PUT ALL THE LYRICS :()

ON THE DAY I DIE, CRY!!!!! (reddotremix)

YUNGBISHOP VERSE:

I don’t got the wisdom friends drugs killed em
Mane when is god gonna get em ik that these people need help
Miss the times when all my homies would kick it and not have coke on the shelf
Monkey crawling on our backs as we’re in despair for something we felt
Most my dawgs steady itching for some crime with that metal to belt
But half the time they gettin high they wanna be wanting to shoot themselves 
Self destruction at its finest and I’m missing myself
But drugs they’d kill me if I went back please pelt 
The thought of urself
That was a terrible time and ik you would kill urself
For an image of you that’s way out of reach mane you got to just preach
Lay me down 6 feet deep mane let me sleep

$IKADA VERSE:

And I’ve been on my own for too damn long but no one seem to care 
I been wishin for some better days but they ain’t never there
So I scream and cry and pray for u 
But ig u got shit to do 
Cause everytime I reachI seem to sink 
Into a deeper pool
I guess I’ll fuckin play the fool 
The games u play are very cruel 
It’s safe to say I’m fucking doomed 
Cause I’ve been on my fuckin own for too damn long
I just wanna be a normal kid and make my fuckin songs 
It looks like everything I do it always ends up wrong 
Hope my fuckin liver strong
I just wish I could belong 
But I’m gone

OH WELL (ft. $IKADA)

YUNGBISHOP:

i keep on pushing fighting urges just to stay tf alive
Wasted months turned in to years and now I barely fucking cry
Tears done turned into the selfish part of me where I don’t even try
To make things better with the people that done fucked up my whole life
I need to chill tf out cus I know that I been on 10 on my
9/11 shit the way I’m blowing up and blowing peoples minds
No one ever offered help until was willing to be alive 
No one ever offered love until I was willing to love my life

$IKADA:

How I got selfish bout my brotha? when he finally was fine 
Makes me question my own person is the life I live a lie? 
maybe cause I fuckin wasn’t I felt envious inside
But I know wrong or fuckin right
That I was wrong I fuckin love u mane 
DJK is in the function know we next up for discussion 
Used to sip on robotussin that’s until we got to buzzin 
Got a life I need to live 
Let my sister see this shit 
This my fuckin promise that shits never happening again

Blood Moon II (REMASTERED) (ft. YUNGBISHOP) ( prod. NIGHTMVRE)

sleep through your alarms <3 slowed by ali

no respect freestyle [prod. greaf]

another product of jameson.

REMember Music.

Doodling In The Key Of C Sharp (prod. Larry Fisherman)

https://linktr.ee/siikada
HE LOST HIMSELF SOMEWHERE ALONG THE WAY (SIDE B)
siiikada: insta&tiktok
SICK OF HIS OWN FACE 
SICK OF HIS SKIN, OF THE DARK,
HE CRAWLS OUTSIDE HIMSELF TO SING

Blood Moon II (REMASTERED) (ft. YUNGBISHOP) ( prod. NIGHTMVRE)

$ikada

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