TW: loud sounds, mentions/implications of abuse, mental illness(psychosis, severe paranoia, ect), suicide, self harm and etc. PLEASE PROCEED WITH CAUTION
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9ud1ty

please stop talking
im obviously not the person that you thought i was
i think too often about the possibility youll murder us 

grip fate like its too late
talk to it like you got nothing to lose
charge a true rate 
livable wage 
give in to your rage
go postal post apocalyptic video game 
epoxy epoch together where the trees talk
keep the secret observe how my knees walk
bow legged and pigeon toed
i wont to make it
i already chose 
i went naked forgo my clothes  
you cant hide!
so come on in and get baptized
youre not a bad guy
you had a chance to act right
i admit it was kind of a whack try
things tend to blend in grey when you observe in black and white
but at the end of the day as long as youre saved you can go back to life
its too late too for me too many mistakes
im going to a place that i dont even believe in 
four season red ember bleating delay tape
lets stay safe no decay today 
oh no stay away 
im amazed you made it this far 
but do you remember which way you came  ?

im really sad

PLZ STOP TALKIN

i dont wanna be myself 
i wanna be someone else 
right now, i know 

i changed my mind, ill go to hell
just feed me and keep me in a cell
spend everyday needing so much fucking help
ill tell you the secret and see if you tell 

im not afraid of falling anymore 
i stare at the face 
i ignore features that look the same
theres a hook in my face
pull it out another one forms behind it
instantly cut off circulation
i feel my eyelids flutter as i struggle to sit
i just collapse to my knees in a fit
coughing, laughing, dry heave
punch my fist against the seat and the lid 

theres a message in here somewhere !
changing lanes
ill stay in mine
you stay insane
i love this crowd
dog bites man 
man drops a hydrogen bomb on the ground 
i got a sweet tooth 
i like it when i find hidden objects
i see you
underneath the grass
rubbing against me 
touch it, whats the difference?
ask me if its empty
over turn the glass and get every single last drop out 

oh god its fit right in the palm of my hand now 
rejected blessing i see the angel it shines down
im happy to have the plaque scrapped from my teeth
i added gems to my canines
im playing with them as we speak 

i lie and i steal things
try to be revealing 
off putting !!!
show me where i lost footing
lip service
cock sucking dick circus 
ill be at auction but all of this shits worthless

couldnt begin to imagine how that happened
hey, look over there! 
spit in a napkin!
are you kidding? im asking
are you shitting in my hand or wishing on black magic?
you didnt understand
sometimes its okay to match the energy of your worst man
im the dead spy, i got two red eyes
ill let you guess why i stare out my blinds paranoid
people around me notice and im afraid that theyre annoyed
or think im crazy, and maybe theyre right
backdrop: illusion of contact
age it until it tastes like a safe ride
take you home in the back of a sports car
godly intention so pure as im sure that yours are

i dont wanna be myself
i wanna be someone else

Numbing Agent

NOTE: This is not my song this song is by Strip Mall Seizures
LINKS: https://www.last.fm/music/Strip+Mall+Seizures/No+English

Strip Mall Seizures

Strip Mall Seizures - Grown Men And Women

Strip Mall Seizures - Songbird

Strip Mall Seizures - Possessed

Strip Mall Seizures - True Story

Strip Mall Seizures - Get Off The Bus

Strip Mall Seizures - Black Tie Apooka-Pocka-Lypse

Strip Mall Seizures - Life's Boat Has Smashed Against the Daily Grind

Strip Mall Seizures - Honey, There's Somethin In The House

Strip Mall Seizures - Useless Information

Strip Mall Seizures - Recession

Bag Of Bombs

Strip Mall Seizures - 1 - Develop It

Strip Mall Seizures - 2 - Human Moment

Strip Mall Seizures - 3 - Communications From Gloria Steinem's Uterus

Strip Mall Seizures - 4 - Testimonial 1

Strip Mall Seizures - 5 - Advertising Is Murder

Blood Soup

Hello! I’m just an autistic kid on the internet who likes to make music sometimes! (I also go by He/Him or It/It’s pronouns. Call me Deer, Billy, Corbin or Irvin/Irving.
Some of my posts here are reposts of songs from really old obscure games, like dream emulator, which are mainly put on for archival purposes ^_^

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