Pain and Suffering

Sub:Internal is a ritual / dark ambient compilation designed to facilitate deepened awareness and integration of the shadow self. It provides a sonic and sub-sonic ambient soundscape to facilitate shadow meditation.

The three-hour sonic journey can be conceptualized as a journey into the underworld, or as the Hero's journey. There are three phases. 1. The Descent. 2. The Abyss. 3. The Return.

Guiding the seeker on the journey is Goddess Hekate. Hekate is a lunar and underworld Goddess associated with the dark of the moon. The recording was created in a ritualistic setup, between the hours of 12am and 3am, on the 29/09/2018. The 29th day of each month is sacred to Hekate. Hekate's energy is clearly and directly infused into the music.

This recording may bring up powerful and painful feelings for people. Some parts of the recording are exceptionally dark and confronting and may induce fear, dislike or horror. It is recommended that people follow the soundtrack through from start to end as the final few tracks serve to return the listener back out from the underworld journey. The optimal time to listen to the music is between 12am and 3am. The music is not effective during the day.

This compilation took me two months of work to complete. I listened to approximately two thousand tracks in that time in order to find the final twenty that feature on this compilation. Most of the listening was done late at night. During the preparation, on several times spiritual entities would gather in the room where I was listening. Most of these entities are nocturnal spirits, cthonic or subterranean spirits, and underworld spirits. 

I cannot guarantee that listening to this music will not create similar experiences for you, and you listen to this compilation at your own risk. My recommendation however, is to progress on the journey with a spirit of fortitude. If you are joined on the journey by others, the appropriate stance, regardless of the circumstances, is polite respect and honest acknowledgment of the spiritual presence. Hekate is there to protect you from harm. I recommend the use of Obsidian crystal throughout the meditation for additional protection. There should be no artificial light. A black candle is effective. Sandalwood and Myrrh are effective incenses.

Hour 1: The Descent
Plane: Mental
Element: Air
Season: Autumn
Tarot: The Tower
Crystal: Purple Obsidian
Shadow Themes: problematic core beliefs, unfounded assumptions, arrogance, poor or shallow judgement, harshness, coldness, excessive detachment, collapse of mental structures, weak foundations, bad decision-making, closed-mindedness.

Hour 2: The Abyss
Plane: Physical
Element: Earth
Season: Winter
Tarot: The Moon
Crystal: Black Obsidian
Shadow Themes: death, annihilation, destruction, collapse, endings, despair, hopelessness, misery, pain, suffering, unconsciousness, finality, finiteness.

Hour 3: The Return
Plane: Emotional
Element: Water
Season: Spring
Tarot: The Star
Crystal: Green Obsidian
Shadow Themes: sadness, loss, acceptance, integration, wounded inner child, unrequited love, melancholy.

Track Listing:
1. Paleowolf - Paleoforest.
2. Paleowolf - Botania.
3. Paleowolf - Aurochs.
4. Heilung - Fylgija Ear / Futhorck (Incongruous Edit).
5. Lamia Vox - Lapis Occultus.
6. Herbst9 - Erishkigal, Rise from your Throne.
7. Druha Smrt - Cold Inward Journey.
8. Lost Kadath - The Collapsing Existence and the Eternal Sleep of the Mind.
9. Peter Andersson - On the Brink of Death, in Mud under Barbed Wires.
10. Lull - Just Below Wixford.
11. Dark Drone - Suicidium.
12. Tertium Organum - Dark Matter.
13. Tertium Organum - End.
14. Northaunt - Night Came to Us.
15. Psyclopean - Nathicana.
16. Northaunt - Autumn Cold Rain from the Stars.
17. Psyclopean - The King in Yellow.
18. Northumbria - Helluland.
19. Endless Melancholy - Impermanence of History.
20. Endless Melancholy - One Day You Will Be Free (feat. BILYK).

Total Length: 2:55:21.
File: 1411 Wav.

Pain and Suffering

Amit

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