I miss you. It probably won't make a difference how you feel about me, but I just thought you should know. It's been a rough week and some too, thinking about it gives me a headache. An amalgamation of mixed emotions, more negative, some positive. But maybe it's a good thing that you're gone... actually no, I can't think of anything good about it at all. I know you didn't intend for things to be this way either, it's not like we were together or anything. It's just like you said, we were just a couple floating bubbles that just so happened to come together to form a bigger one. I think we both knew it would pop eventually, I just never thought it would happen so soon.

If only I hadn't told you how I felt. If only I wasn't so insecure. If only I didn't open up so much.

I'm far from being okay, but I'm stable otherwise. It's hard to operate with you always finding a way to interrupt my thoughts. I really wasn't lying when I said I couldn't forget you even if I tried. Although, now that I think about it I haven't been trying that hard. Part of me still wants to keep you around for some reason. It doesn't help that I still have your photos saved on my iPod, I should probably delete those. I just can't find it in myself to act like you were just some memory... just another something that happened at some point in my life. There's still so much I want to experience together with you...but you don't want that do you.

If only I were stronger. If only I hadn't given up. If only you felt the same way.

I still don't understand what you meant that day. I don't think I ever will. Maybe I respect you too much to question it or maybe I'm too scared to face the reality of it all. Then again, I'm a dreamer so it's hard for me to accept reality. I don't even know what purpose this letter serves, maybe I just want you back in my life. Maybe I just want to hear your voice and hear you talk about your day and tell me how you've been doing, watch you draw, see you smile and tell you stories to help you fall asleep. Maybe I can't move on from you because I'm not supposed to. 

Maybe I'm just in love with you.

If only we had never met.


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Cirque Du Corsair (Short Ver.)
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Cirque Du Corsair

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やわらかで、しずかな夜を。

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2019/04/28 春M3 P-07a
透明な歌声を多彩に色付かせる、Sennzai＆alicoによる1st Collaboration Album 『Vocis Helix』

豪華作曲陣と共に、2人のソプラノヴォーカルによる響きあう歌声と、日本語×造語を用いて紡ぐ、壮大であり幻想的な全7曲。

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＜Track List＞
1.序響...342（Vocal:Sennzai＆alico）
2.Vocis Helix...342（Vocal:Sennzai＆alico）
3.la lumière montre l'ombre-光示す影-...中島岬（Vocal：alico/Chorus：Sennzai）
4.憧憬のミラージュ...塚越雄一朗（NanosizeMir）（Vocal：Sennzai/Chorus：alico）
5.まほろばの星...Rai（Vocal：alico/Chorus：Sennzai）
6.オートマタ綺想曲...Umiai（Vocal：Sennzai/Chorus：alico）
7.Remember Me...削除（Vocal:Sennzai＆alico）

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