another untitled unfinished song

i can feel the day is coming where my skin becomes mine
i can see the waves are moving, things are changing with the tide
i still see my own reflection as some wholly different guy
but the flow creates distortion, and it's further from my mind

i don't see a lot of people or do a lot of things
i've been struggling to keep up with the feelings that it brings
but it's better than the emptiness and the random aches and pains
it's a fight that i've been losing, but now i see the light again

and i
can't take this beating anymore
when all i wanted was before
nothing but to feel at home

home

home phone mic quality

idea

i know you like the back of my own hand
you'll call me, on a day when i have plans
numbing out, i'll fail my test and you'll never even text
im strung out, i'll do my best to not seem so depressed
so you don't ask me why i'm hiding in my room
cause just lying down and breathing is all that i can do

did you think that i was angry when i didn't want to come home
i just remember feeling blankly, when you fully changed your tone
i felt like i did when i was young
when you told me all the things that i'd done wrong
still you berate me while my trust is breaking, how am i supposed to react?
i'm so scared of when you're angry, i'll never get the old you back

all that i can do

tired of waiting to be done with songs
just to get it out there

mattie