[intro]
im all by myself
let no-one know
keep it all inside
i wanna forget about you
i wanna forget about you
but its so damn hard
i thought i loved you but i guess i was wrong
i was just tryna run away

[verse]
aha
life was good when we first met
i wish it didn't come to this
turns out life took a real quick toll
and now im stumbling in my head
asking questions ill never get the answers to
feel like im bleeding, feel like i want you
but turns out i was just tryna run away from your soul

[outro]
i was just tryna run away, run away
its pulling me in closer i dont wanna go back, go back
i keep staring at the photos we took, the photos we took
its consuming my mind please just let me know, let me know
i was just tryna run away, run away, run away

RUNAWAY

lyrics:

ive been stuck up in my room
anxiety still on a springtime bloom
2023 started off unkind
relying on others wont help me find my own mind
nah i aint gonna do this it aint for the clout
all i do is doze away in my hideout
battling the confidence from inside and out 
this shit about to be a black out

but now you're gone
now you're gone

you know i aint tryna pull my heart out
therapist said i needa let my guard down
but its hard when im tryna claw my mind out
and my whole world got turned upside down
all these tears that ive been tryna cry out
heart leaking feel like im gonna die now
walls closing in feel like im gonna pass out
tearing down the walls so i can be freed out

i havent felt this way in such a long time
all i do is sleep and watch my life fly by
nineteen years and im still tryna find me
three months later and you're tryna blind me
i wear my heart right on my neck 
cause there's never one in my goddamn chest
all it takes is one mistake
just to get a heartbreak

but now you're gone
now you're gone

you know i aint tryna pull my heart out
therapist said i needa let my guard down
but its hard when im tryna claw my mind out
and my whole world got turned upside down
all these tears that ive been tryna cry out
heart leaking feel like im gonna die now
walls closing in feel like im gonna pass out
tearing down the walls so i can be freed out

gone

Trapped In My Bedroom

Hanai

coming out on all streaming services feb. 26!!

[lyrics]

i sit in my room and contemplate everything
i write this shit cause i'm all alone, all alone in my own head
no-one wants to hang out with me, girl said its no big deal tho
its been over a year since i last saw some good friends
always try to make plans but they come back to no avail
fuck ive been too damn alone this year

i just wanna soak the sun with you

wake up, stare at my phone for too long
eyes fucking hurting, can't keep them open that long
put on moisturiser, that shit burns
face red, teary eyes, my head fucking turns
i want this year to end on a good term
but i don't know how that's gonna pan out
i ain't looking for clout, just some friends
who knows, when i get clout that's when people will start to show up
one black fingernail painted, aching, looking for patience

its summer in december, so why don't we go outside, 
listen i just wanna soak the sun with you

2020 is coming to a close, will 21' be better who knows, time will tell
watching the final sunset of this year is gonna be crazy, time flies too fucking fast

Soak The Sun

Soak The Sun (prod. heavnsnt)

lyrics:

[verse one]
always dreaming of what could of happened
maybe in another life it could of happened
fuck i don't know i should stop thinking about this
my brain melting away, corrosion got to me
life feels like a void, I cannot compete
almost like space, we cannot delete
would I rather be alone or be with friends that I do not know

[hook]

in another life we could of taken a different direction
i could take a pause but that'll still build up the tension
crying by myself feels like i'm in the wrong dimension
dimension, i'm in the wrong dimension (x2) 

[bridge]

keeping the soul swimming, that shit ain't gonna drown
cant even get a minute, my head is going down 
in another life we could of taken a different direction, direction

[verse two]

cried on the first week of 21' that shit is real rare
what if this music shit doesn't get me fucking anywhere
feeling excluded making music in my bedroom
hell who knows maybe i'm different in another life, but ill never fucking know
we're all just heading in the same direction but just a different path
maybe in the next life, ill get the outcomes I fucking wanted
but I don't got much time right now, we'll see each other soon, we'll see each other soon in the next life.

<3

GINGERBBY