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w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

produced by me and @heylog

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lyrics:

I’m broken, I know that
I’m trying to get up
I’m falling apart
That should be enough

showing my good side
Have to keep my composure
But always get angry
I’m tryna keep it closed

Tell me something
I’ll ignore it
Always angry
I’m just broken

Take it out
On people that I care about
Always sorry
For all the stuff that I have done

Someday I’ll fade
Away, regrets
Still there 
6 feet in the ground
With me

Don’t need you to
Pity me, I don’t
Deserve anything
Oh anything at all

on a borderline to kill all things i obtain
all i gave was kindness, u don't provide the same
i leave it all inside but man i'm bound to explode
i'm holding in my blood that just might come out my nose

i don't really see a point in this
ima cut you and your stupid friends
before i hang up get the bye bye
no voicemail i got the right mind

ima bleed out if i don't cover up
my wounds hurt, they're all deep cuts
so i stg u need to stay away
behind my back i could feel ur blade so

stab me good and cut my face and gouge out my eyes
staring at a wall i've stared at too many times
the way the shadow shapeshifted its way in the light
sinking to the floor cus it turns out i was right

broken

broken (feat. heylog)

stream

produced by @user-374890447 and @sinxi
lyrics
oh no it hasnt even been long
since you have been in my arms
hasnt even been long
nothing truly made sense till you came into my life
that was intense, when you kissed me for the last time
i never really understood what it meant to feel alive
i thankyou for fucking up my life
damn shes gone forever ill never get to know
if we'll last here beside my window
i said its now or never or ill dip bro
but your the one that left me, oh 

really hit me hard that i been needing you
wear a bandage but it be bleeding through
sent you a package cant you just see it through
can you open it can you just plead into
lot of oak in here maybe some trees in you
i've got an open ear that needs attending to
its very open here its very nice out of my room
its very lovely but i lose sight of you
can you not think its me losing my mind
i just wanna see you in my life
im imagining things you wouldent like
i just wanna give you a piece of my time
listen up im alone im alone all the time
got a few friends but they're online
need to go out better my life
its such a joke i stay online
IM SUCH A JOKE ALL THE TIME
EVERYONE KNOWS MY LIFE
I NEED YOU CLOSE YOUR MINE
OH PLEASE DONT YOU KNOW YOU'RE DIVINE
that way that your hair moves
freckles presented infront of me
i know that your special 
can you come home

home

original song 
https://soundcloud.com/screwyounick/honestly-i-wasnt-listening-w-heylog-abbot-polar-vedh 

heylog verse only

heylog - honestly, i wasn't listening

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

heylog - if this was the last time

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Featuring @heylog
Produced + Mastered by @noraevelyne
Written, recorded, and mixed by @vilsynth @heylog

(Lyrics)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

I know what you know, oh-oh
I know what you know, I know what you know
I know what you know, oh-oh

I feel the blood pouring out my side
I need your touch, hold me till I die
Drain the IV from my eye
They're tryna poke more needles in my skin, I don't wanna cry

Coat my skin entirely
Fold my ends, and tie me
Hold my hand and cry to sleep
It only ends when Im deceased
It's not the other way
I could get you out my life, and see some better days
But I don't want that on my record (x2)

(@heylog)
I don't think you know how much you really meant
I take in account and confess my sins
Put a bullet on my name and on a list
Cause I know, know you can't get a grip
You were made to have a role but you don't play your part
You'll start to realize it don't work when dealing different cards
And it brought me to the fact we live in different hearts
I'm tryna see the best in you but this is hard
If there's a light inside my room please turn it on
And if I see you on tv i'll turn it off
How can I speak without having to cough
And I had to get it off my chest because

(@vilsynth and @heylog)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

Spotify + Apple Music

Existentialist (ft. heylog) [nora evelyne]

hey, woah
you look so much better than i thought you would
i know i could have helped and i know i should
have been there when you needed me most
so stay close
i just can't bear the thought of you going ghost
on everything we built and the roads we took
doesn't that sound like the best?
'cos i've been staring at a little piece of heaven in your eyes
and i look beyond the arch and see the devil in disguise
and it hurts when you matter the most
and it kills me when you leave me alone
and trust me that i gave it my all
my skin is shed and i'm nothing but bone
you're poison in my veins, my disease
the end of everything we could be
and it's hard
to focus on our wants and i won't
leave you here in my arms 'cos you know
it never got easier
my disarray
leads me here when i need a safe place
i might lead you here into the flames
and right here we'll stay
tongue tied, what can i say
burrowed, i'm hiding away
go without me, save yourself
leave right now, i wish you well
it's been a while since we spoke
but it feels like a week ago
and you forgot what i look like
you won't see even if you try
you won't see me even if you try your best
i can't believe we continue trying again
'cos in the back of my mind i just know we'll end
let's not figure it out, let's just call it dead
i stay alive for a reason
and that reason is you
when my body is bleeding
it bleeds out just for you
Friends (Interlude)
oh she stole my heart
it's all i have
ooh drifting apart
but there ain't no way i'm giving up
it's all my fault
you said yourself
i took too long to answer
you called my your 'makeshift hell'
my patience thin
you told me you wanna stay as friends
i don't know how to take that in
but trust me i'll be alright
it's the same shit but a different day i
woke up in a different place i
don't really remember how i got so damn low
save me all your bullshit lies
i find it hard to push the lines
but ain't that what you wanted love?
ain't this what you needed oh?

you're poison in my veins, my disease [feat. heylog]

I forgot to listen, should I pretend u love me 
There’s something in the air, it’s something I should never breathe 
Clouds are looking morbid at the top I’m at the peak 
Tryna get em out, my words get stuck and I can’t speak
Holding on this mountain girl this gravity’s calling me 
Maybe if it’s fair it would let go but keep hold of me 
Cause I have this obsession and I keep rushing into things 
Maybe it’d better if I wasn’t so annoying 
I’m boring 
This isn’t what I wanted 
Wanted 
It’s too much to hear u calling
Calling
I just want u to be honest
Honest
I’m so replaceable 
I’m not really made for anybody else
But your eyes 
And your eyes only 
I’m so pathetic I can’t believe that I tell you how I really felt
But ur eyes and ur eyes only

wish you would have met me at a different time 
Maybe somewhere far we beneath the plane we realign 
Coincide
Nlm, there’s nobody here that I like
Push me away while I’m burning inside 

Feel like an animal I’m trapped inside a cage for you
I’m far beneath the plane
I wonder if you hate me too
Take my pulse don’t let me breathe until my eyes are blue 
Buried conciously my bones are breaking out in 2 

I’ll keep swinging til he’s dead
Dropped down on the floor
And If I miss I’ll pierce a lung heart kidney and all
If only he would listen 
Dickhead keep ur mouth shut
U told me it was fine
And it was not love
But I don’t really care
I never have done
U think he’ll keep u safe
He’s never backed no one
I could take him by the ear and hold him ransom 
Now he’s not even ur friend he’ll never have none 

Take a lil time out my day
I feel it’s all a disgrace 
My body’s rotting, decaying
I’ll throw it all to waste 
When I see myself in the mirror
I put my hands to my face 
So I can’t see what I’ve done 
Don’t wanna see anymore 
Don’t ask me if I’m fine 
My knife isn’t  even towards
Any skin, it’s passed that line
Least I’m not hitting the floor
Even if I was I’d lie
Let the ground coat  me in mold 
Sorry for wasting ur time
I been meaning to let you go

newmaker IV

I’ve survived

guitars were done by SADisfying & heylog

lyrics:
and i try to run from u but i end up right back where i begin
her waist is skinny young face may i borrow u just for one sec
and there's this place we'll stay where the fire burns, it's nice and quiet
ill be by your side i swear take care of u until i end
i'm in the mud cut up god forgive me for i have sinned
i pull out the nails and heal i guess that's what i get
and i'm pullin out my hair and i'm still learning how to control it
but i'm still doubting me to this day i'm really tryna fix it
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon

i write this song i'm scared to death no one will even like it
and i dump my thoughts to the world i'll probably regret this
and i can't sleep if ur rent free in and out of my head
so basically i'm starting to think i'll be like this for infinite
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon
and you're halfway across the world i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess and my hairs a nest and im too ashamed to look
and i fell for u and i recommend that u fall for me too
and u left me but i left u first i hope we'll meet again soon

heylog - honestly, i wasn't listening

t7ae

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