original song 
https://soundcloud.com/screwyounick/honestly-i-wasnt-listening-w-heylog-abbot-polar-vedh 

heylog verse only

heylog - honestly, i wasn't listening

produced by caves

lyrics:
nothing meant to last and u know that
nothing meant to last and u know that
how are you already bored of me
face is twisted recoils at me
how are you already bored of me
dont wanna fix it get closer to me
her count lullabuy
another day, day goes by
i sit here i still pry
where are you no

sitting in some fields waiting for you
oh man a graveyard waiting for bloom
digging six feet i wanna seee
if ill die here or ill be released
whats between trees i wanna sleep
whats the deal with you whats the deal with me
why are you crying it was fucking me
how did it go wrong it was all me

it has been year
a year too long
was your love sincere
or did you just play along
will i ever find someone else
someone ought to take this

sitting in some fields waiting for you
oh man a graveyard waiting for bloom
digging six feet i wanna seee
if ill die here or ill be released
whats between trees i wanna sleep
whats the deal with you whats the deal with me
how did it go wrong it was all me
im an introvert ive got anxiety
ima leave this earth leave behind me
i should eat this dirt
soil come find me
can someone come find me

sincere

mountain warehouse

teach me what i did wrong
and this silence, fucking broke it fore it had a start
you can take the things you said and shove them up your arse
found a picture of your face and now its battle-scarred

id do anything for you to just pick up the line
so i can call you a bitch at least another time
you should tell your man to get a fucking life
stop being such a pussy and following mine

turn to my own enemy 
dont care no more dont ask for me
i just wanted sympathy
is that to much to ask for me

havent talked to you in like 5 days
you stare too much at my face
acting like you werent fake
i could do this all day
her teeth grip the back of my necklace
no one cares for the shit that you rented
2k for a feat ur demented 
pussy still stalking my mentions 

uh

liar
should've punched you right on your chin
should've broke your jaw
should've put you where you belonged
i put trust to set aside
but it wasn't useful
now i know it's better
we can't be friends ever

we're all alone in my backseat
i shoulda called in a taxi
her clothes off, got a head start
nails stuck in my chrome hearts
said she love my ambition
my mental state diminished
toxic time, a waste of breath
i feel the blood drip off my chest

battle scarred w/ heylog & pvrk

prod me
no samples used
take care

up in the trees is where i would hang
'till i tumbled down when he told me to stay
back in the bush; cast on my arm
shall i never heal, i'll be happy a pine.
yet i'm full of shit, atone every word
but this is for you, so i'll try not to hurt
choked up every verse though.
you cannot reverse

what a fine young man, i wonder where his head's at
too far gone, now i needa take a step back
all that i want is to live in my notepad
feeding me lyrics for songs 'till my days' last
genuine crave, and i don't wanna change that
mental array in a haze getting whiplash
honest display, but there isn't a playback
trust in the heart of your cards when it fades black

patch on the leg; how the fuck do i move it
i miss your laugh, and with friends, watching movies
oh, i'll try a bit harder to step out my comfort,
but being alone is just way too damn soothing

i cannot bear this weight,
so i'll just eat it up and stomach it
your words they spoke to me,
i'd always wonder what would come of it

you were nervous, well, i'm anxious
but for you, did you know i would fucking get back on my feet,
though, not complaining
seldom i held any care, wouldn't budge, wouldn't speak
years, haven't walked down the street
i took a walk down the street.
bubbling grief
if only you knew what you meant to me, 
god i would hope you had felt what you meant to me

june arrived, i almost felt alive
but then i heard the news and felt the water rise
capsized the thought of letting go of life
but now it's even harder getting sleep at night
what a gentle soul, grown out the mold
with the sky his home, and for the earth, a stone
beyond the ozone; inside the mind
what an ethereal one, and of a joyous kind.

suck in the rain, spit out the clouds
our synergy now resides in the ground

yeah i know the rain is real important when it's pouring down the evergreens
thought about you often, so i hope that you remembered me
'cause you took your leave
autumn and sleep
we ran our shit up until '23
growing the seeds; sowing their seams
if i make it out of this, hoping you see, yeah.

sycamore

shoutout https://soundcloud.com/cay2o for helping with the ending
all the rest prod by me

lyrics:
dont talk like that, you know this
ive had it, babe im focused.
discarded. u said, "dont leave, don't go"
been up for days, I've blown it
"don't fold in" but its too hopeless
im coming to the coven, i've been numb.

slave away the day until i make it
this chest in pain feels so amazing
if you got some more, then i can take it
she said im mental, guess im crazy
IM SO CRAZY IM SO CRAZY
feeling lost, when you walked in with bleach blonde hair
i never thought we would talk now its been 3 years
on the rocks and im coughing i gasp for air
and she said, "kade, do u hate me? do u hate me?
please dont hate me!"

dont talk like that, you know this
ive had it, babe im focused.
discarded. u said, "dont leave, don't go"
been up for days, I've blown it
"don't fold in" but its too hopeless
im coming to the coven, i've been numb.

coven

spotify

prod me 
w/ @hiraethsry

Lyrics:
don't know if i feel okay
i'm aware of all that you say
i'm burning bridges all day
not my fault you're in the way
don't know where i have been since
you speak to me with no end
sun shines down onto my skin
been a while since i felt like this
you run from all that i am
you take the flame and you end
oh you say that it's nothing but you're offended
without you i'll feel the same
i'll go on about my day
you don't mean anything to me
promises don't mean a thing

don’t remember from yesterday but I’m feeling it now
so confused on what you mean, I can’t tell anyone now
every finger you laid onto me, I’m feeling them more
I wish I could get over this, pass the blade and some
someone that I can take it out on, I can’t deal with it
stop lunging into promises you cannot hold me with
and only when the time is right, will you belong to me
twist and turning in my bed waiting for you to sleep
and sometimes I hold my stomach, like it’s your hand on me
and if I close my eyes and dream it well it just might be

don't know if i feel okay
i'm aware of all that you say
i'm burning bridges all day
not my fault you're in the way
don't know where i have been since
you speak to me with no end
sun shines down onto my skin
been a while since i felt like this
without you i'll feel the same
i'll go on about my day
you don't mean anything to me
promises don't mean a thing

burn

All Platforms - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/vil13/existentialist-feat-heylog-2
Featuring @heylog
Produced + Mastered by @noraevelyne
Written, recorded, and mixed by @vilsynth @heylog

(Lyrics)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

I know what you know, oh-oh
I know what you know, I know what you know
I know what you know, oh-oh

I feel the blood pouring out my side
I need your touch, hold me till I die
Drain the IV from my eye
They're tryna poke more needles in my skin, I don't wanna cry

Coat my skin entirely
Fold my ends, and tie me
Hold my hand and cry to sleep
It only ends when Im deceased
It's not the other way
I could get you out my life, and see some better days
But I don't want that on my record (x2)

(@heylog)
I don't think you know how much you really meant
I take in account and confess my sins
Put a bullet on my name and on a list
Cause I know, know you can't get a grip
You were made to have a role but you don't play your part
You'll start to realize it don't work when dealing different cards
And it brought me to the fact we live in different hearts
I'm tryna see the best in you but this is hard
If there's a light inside my room please turn it on
And if I see you on tv i'll turn it off
How can I speak without having to cough
And I had to get it off my chest because

(@vilsynth and @heylog)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

Spotify + Apple Music

Existentialist (ft. heylog) [nora evelyne]

not uploading more deleted heylog songs as i think i would have to take them down

for takedowns you can contact me:
discord: deqex
twitter: depexlol
or soundcloud ill take longer to reply tho i

heylog - 7:30 (feat. boyblue)

AMANAKi E KUO HE VAHA🫶🏽

lyrics:
(heylog)
baby can u tell me something real
i got off white, on my torso
but im bleeding, on my collar bone
i swear to god its not a joke
got sick of my wrists so i decided i should change it
and i should cut my shoulder bones
can u tell me, its the past time
im afraid that, this is the last time
im so slow at replying
im not really sorry
i delete everybody
no one knows that im hiding

(yuno)
im so sorry but i'm not really sorry
i should leave everybody
i know you keep me worry
i'm ghost 
like i'm running from 
i know
i just need a sec
baby can you keep it real 
can you stay a while
it's not that i care
you should just stay a while
i can't remember 
your name 
when we're together 
we can do better
cold as december
heartbreak in winter
heart froze on ice but the weather
burns like my eyes when i get high
so go to sleep i'll be alright

(heylog)
im so slow at replying
im not really sorry
i delete everybody
no one knows that im hiding

heylog - honestly, i wasn't listening

t7ae

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