I went to the pool today and a boy smiled at me. and I went yesterday I made eye contact for a long time with another boy (we was very cute<3) and my voices screamed at me and told me that they only see me as a pretty girl and not a cute boy.

i’m thinking back i should leave now, but i dont think im coming back this time...

currently sobbing under my blanket cuddling a stuffed bear I've had since I was like 5 😭👍

And now i don’t remember comfort because WHAT I AM IS WHAT IM NOT

listening to this while trying ace bandages

listening to this when i’m finally learning to be comfortable in my own skin, i’ve grown up now :’)

Y̶o̶u̶'̶r̶e̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶a̶ ̶g̶i̶r̶l̶

𝙽𝚘...

🅸🅼 🅰 🅱🅾🆈 🅳🅰🅼🅼🅸🆃

𝔾𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣 𝔻𝕪𝕤𝕡𝕙𝕠𝕣𝕚𝕒 𝕡𝕝𝕒𝕪𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕔𝕖 𝕜𝕚𝕕𝕤 𝕜𝕖𝕖𝕡 𝕓𝕦𝕝𝕝𝕪𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕞𝕖 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕓𝕖𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕣𝕒𝕟𝕤 </𝟛

𝙳𝚢𝚜𝚙𝚑𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚊 𝙿𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝

Phase by Antonio Jeremiah Tadeo  - Transgender Suicide Awareness

Track 5 of "Mic Check, Please!", a "Check, Please!" inspired EP!

Fun fact: this was one of the last songs I wrote for this project! I realized I needed more songs from Bitty’s perspective to even it out, so I basically went “I want a song titled ‘this boy’” and just kinda let that idea take me wherever it wanted to go while writing

Song art by https://karin848.tumblr.com/ 
 Mixing/backing vocals by https://soundcloud.com/alecferris  
Read the comic this was inspired by here!: www.checkpleasecomic.com/comic/01-01-01

Mic Check, Please!

this boy

mawce - everybody's worried about owen

Moth Man

We Fell In Love In October

Buy on Bandcamp

Mifehe

lemon boy by cavetown // cavetown - lemon boy

Lemon Boy - Cavetown

GHOST BOYS - CAVETOWN

Cavetown - This Is Home

cavetown // dysphoric

cavetown // devil town v2

Prod by Chef Seth x Jordan XL

Cellos by Max Michael Jacob

Lyrics

Change 
I see them come and go I aint ever really know who’s gonna stay 
Sipping liquor down only thing that stick around is pain
Is it heaven or hell no I can’t tell
its all the same
but bitch you gonna remember my name (teflon)
Change 
I see them come and go I aint ever really know who’s gonna stay 
Sipping liquor down only thing that stick around is pain
Is it heaven or hell no I can’t tell
its all the same
but bitch you gonna remember my name (teflon)

Ain’t enough love  (to get me by)
Ain’t enough drugs (to get me high)
So I made up my mind (deep inside)
I found another way to fly (ill get mine)

I see everyone leaving
thank my mama for believing 
shout out to the few that always knew
i never had no ceiling 
i been knocking on the door (let me in)
heaven said that i aint on the list (wash my sin)

Change 
I see them come and go I aint ever really know who’s gonna stay 
Sipping liquor down only thing that stick around is pain
Is it heaven or hell no I can’t tell
its all the same
but bitch you gonna remember my name (teflon)
Change 
I see them come and go I aint ever really know who’s gonna stay 
Sipping liquor down only thing that stick around is pain
Is it heaven or hell no I can’t tell
its all the same
but bitch you gonna remember my name (teflon)

They can call me blind (they can’t see)
Im gonna learn in brail (I’ll be free)
Searching for the truth (melodies)
no I’m scared as hell (give me peace)
I see everyone leaving
swear to god they’re retreating
shout out to the few that always knew
I never had a ceiling
i been knocking on the door (let me in)
heaven said that i aint on the list (wash my sin)

Change 
I see them come and go I aint ever really know who’s gonna stay 
Sipping liquor down only thing that stick around is pain
Is it heaven or hell no I can’t tell
its all the same
but bitch you gonna remember my name (teflon)
Change 
I see them come and go I aint ever really know who’s gonna stay 
Sipping liquor down only thing that stick around is pain
Is it heaven or hell no I can’t tell
its all the same
but bitch you gonna remember my name (teflon)

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Dysphoria

IDK If I'm A Boy

the angsty tiktok song all of my VERY aggressive followers have been waiting for. stay tuned on my socials for this to be available on every platform you could ever want

chords;
C Bmaj7 F Fm

lyrics;

Fuck you and fuck your mom
She called me a whore when I was way too young and
Fuck you and fuck your friends
I’d never heard half of those slurs until them
And fuck you and fuck him and fuck her and fuck them
And fuck this and fuck that
And fuck you for what you did
And even more fuck you for what you didn’t 

Fuck you and fuck your red light
That i slept under as you texted him all night and
Fuck you and fuck our last fight
And you said it was all my fault and 
Shiiiit you might be right but
Fuck you and fuck him and fuck her and fuck them 
And fuck this and that
And fuck you for stealing my heart
And fuck you the most for giving it back

And i dont care if you think
That I’m being crazy anymore
This is the last time that i’ll just sit here and take being ignored
And i know if you came back
I’d have trouble closing the door
But you’d deserve it
And you deserve this so

Fuck you and fuck your mom
Fuck you and your backstory
Fuck you and fuck your red light
Fuck you for almost killing me 

Fuck you and fuck her and fuck him and fuck them
Fuck you and fuck them and fuck her and fuck him
Fuck you and fuck him and fuck her and fuck them
And fuck this and that
And fuck you for entering my life
But thanks so much for leaving it 

did that make sense?

i just learned the f word

escapist tendency machine go brrrrr

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