This not being on radios and being played in arenas is a crime

mommas boutta go to war, if ion come back, i love you.
autumn: https://soundcloud.com/skullergamez
v v v
[emptychest]
talk talk 
thats all i hear
bangkok
got two broads in my ear
brain rot
thats the shit that wont cure
sorry babe
i couldnt help but overhear
whats it like when ur living off the deep end?
spending every day getting high till the week end
living life slo mo but the dream steady beaming
in my mind its all im feigning 
have u reached the ceiling yet?
spoke ur feelings yet?
gonna be okay, or are you gonna end up dead baby..?
lemme know if u simply need some rest baby
ill be the shelter when the hails pouring real heavy
but im boutta go to war and ion know if imma come back
hug me while im here so if i die you wont get flashbacks
keep that pretty lil face posted up beside my nightstand
rewind to the days when u were cradled in my right hand
now im stationed up, boutta ship off
my hands are shaking and im scared but ion got no option
you can always text me if your awake and u miss me
mommas boutta go to war, if ion come back, i love you..

[autumndropsdead]
yeah i’m anxious to hit a wall
hoping you carry on
do you care at all?
you don’t care at all

oh to be a little taller
look a little better
ally once said to die whenever; 
it’s the weather 
self encouragement is something 
i need to endeavor
girl i never meant the bond between us 
to be severed 

now fuck i’m sitting here alone
i ain’t got a message at the tone
the light in my heart that once shone
is dimmer than i’ve ever known 

swearing that i know 
i’ve been a bitch baby 
ion wanna talk abt shit i wanna live maybe whatever i’m feeling got caught up in a wind is he all you ever wanted could you count it as a win baby yeah yeah yeah

[emptychest & autumn]
yuh!
talk talk
its all i hear
bangkok
got two broads in my ear
brain rot 
thats the shit that wont cure
sorry babe
i couldnt help but overhear 
whats it like when ur living off the deep end?
spending everyday getting high till the week end
living life slo mo but the dreams steady beaming
in my mind its all im feigning.

im stationed up
boutta ship off
my hands are shaking 
and im scared
but ion got no option
you can always text me 
if your awake and you miss me
mommas boutta go to war
if ion come back,
i love you..

war w/ autumndropsdead (jabarionthebeat x deephartt)

left here stranded and torn 
break me down again 
pour me another four 
looking for all these answers 
in all the wrong places 

Handful of pills yeah,
I drink just for the thrill 
Yeah, I’m going to the bar like every fucking night 
I always feel alone and I just wanna die 
Lying in our old bed 
with all these different women 
You’re still running through my head 
just wish things weren’t different 
I don’t really know what it fuckin means 
When we still talk and you got me down on my knees 
just watch me cut my throat, and bleed 
just popped another xan, can’t see 
I’m drowning in your Hennessy 
remember, you were my Tennessee? 
give me pills and alcohol, and sex and drugs we do them all 
I’m always waiting on you call when you leave him, drop him, let him fall 

JeffreyAlexander.
I never  really knew you until I met you 

Pour another shot of that shit when I fucking see you 
I’ve never felt like this until you turned me into dark blue 
Now I’m losing everything inside my mind that’s the truth 

I just wanted to be okay 
I stay inside my pills that are laced 
I’m on my way six feet under my grave 
Is where I my dues are paid 
Is where you’ll see my face

left here, stranded & torn (feat. jeffreyalexander.)(prod. Afterlife X Jolst)

Lyrics:

head high private
this time will pass
cannon fodder
how long will u last
soldier boy
come home to mama
soldier boy
come home to papa

he didn't even know what he had been fighting for
in conditions no human could take anymore
he met many empty husks created thru a war
waged from hypocritic passages 
centuries old
yet still we push on
for a reason we had never known
more than a few situations he'd probably've died there

i don't wanna talk anymore
i'm not alive dear

won't u hold his hand
as he passes from this world for good
won't u
won't u ease his conscience
that his efforts were not in their vain
and meet his eyes as you say

head high private
this time will pass
cannon fodder
how long will u last
soldier boy
come home to mama
soldier boy
come home to papa

come home to mama
come home to papa
come home to mama
come home to papa

soldier boy (ʎpoqou)

Bleed ft. lovdi3d #restart

nonprofit 

mix.ztope



lyrics-
You ant got a clue 
What I went though 
All this fuckin pain that
I hold never helped
You never learned to heal 
So you learned to 
Just Pop pills I
Was only 12 when it
Happen now I miss you 

Face turned blue when I
Heard you crashed that 
Car I didn’t even get
To see you now
Im turning 18 I
Don’t even feel it
I’ve been numb to pain 
I’ve been starting at
The ceiling 


Verse 2
Nah I can’t stand the 
Silence I can hear the
Static in the air I
Can smell the sadness  fill
My lungs when no one’s
Here I Can feel the 
void in My chest disappear 
When I smoke or i 
Drink never mind I’m just
Drunk again yeah I'm drunk 
Again yeah I’m numb again 
I can feel the void
In my chest come back
Yeah it hit me like
A train wishing I could 
Go back to the old 
Days where I never felt 
Like this

18 (nevrfall)

Alone Again

Exhausted. w/ Pradalex (prod. Taurs x ghoul x synthetic)

lyrics:
its hard to write a song when i dont feel a thing
and all the pressure on my back, got me crying here
i dont wanna fucking say that i miss u
but everytime i see ur face i fall in love again
its hard to make a friend when they think im weird
and i dont talk to friends that i used to like
could be cuz im not the person that i used to be
or could be cuz im not the person they would like to see

woah so i just hide inside my head now
with the headphones on, and they always loud
i dont wanna pretend i didnt hurt u
cuz i know i was the worst i could fucking be
but u gotta know it wasnt on purpose
oh my mind still hurts im a failure
i was crying in my room thinking bout u
with my phone in my hand, should i text u?
20 missed calls could u pick it up
i can never sleep til i drug it up
all these fuckin meds to keep me alive
but i know they kill me at the same time
running thru my head, tell whats the time
4 in the morning when i feel alive
i can never do anything right
i hope its feeling better when im not around

are you sure you could love me?
im such a disaster
my past is a mess like the thoughts in my head
lay me dead
black eyes and i dont ever rest right 
see the scars around my neck
so i speed down the highway hoping that i crash
you're not right here
are you sure that you love me?
are you sure you can leave?

when im not around (prod. caps ctrl x p4ra x dream tales)

a song i wrote in 2019 and released in 2020. it's a song about struggling with addiction, and trying to love not only yourself, but another person. a failing relationship between two people because of addiction. the 2nd and new verse, is a letter to 14 year old me. and a memory for the older one. this song is a personal battle, the death and the aftermath of what's to come. thank you for listening.

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
she never come around, when i'm on drugs
idk what to quit. is it drugs or love?
i feel like it's too much to ask
i'd say i love you, but i'll never take it back
would you take it back, if you said so?
i feel like i can ask, but i'd rather not know
on the road
run away from you
scared of love i don't know what to
do
idk what to do

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse 2
it's been years since i met you
and i've been trying to forget you
it's been years since i met you
and all i wanna do
is forget you
i gave it up for you, gave it up for you
i got sober for you, damn i got sober for me too
huh, i guess that's just the both of us
i guess we're growing up
go back to them days, poppin xans
i'll take another one
getting high with you, getting high with you
thought i'd OD, might just end up dyin with you
sobriety is something i could never do
i hope you're proud of me, the same way that i'm proud of you
i'm just tryna stay clean for my family
if i die young, then i'm dying happily
i don't wanna be here, not anymore
6 pills, now i'm falling to the floor

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

Alone Again

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