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This song started out as me just writing from the perspective of wanting to get out of a life of normality that haunts me every day and move towards the excitement and action that awaits me. Being aware of the fact that this kind of life takes sacrifice i'm saying that i'm ready for it and i know fame costs allot. The Chorus is basically the imagination of me entering the life I've always wanted and all the excitement that comes with it, i'm enjoying it and its everything i envisioned, the chorus dies down and i just want to relax a little from all the chaos of being in the spotlight, i start to realize how much my dreams are weighing a toll on me, how much they're affecting me, the backlash of fame and being in the spot light hits, people know everything about me I've put too much of myself in my music and in my art just to feel whole again and now everyone knows everything about me and rumors start coming up and everyone is talking and i'm basically a circus clown now, a use for everyone entertainment, in news magazines a image to spark gossip and generate money and even my family is so distant from me because of the life i live and the reputation i have now i feel isolated like nobody get me like nobody can understand me like i'm just a product of what the people made and i will never feel happy, In that dark hour of having these thoughts haunt me it drives me to kill myself. I now realize that this is a possible outcome for the life that i'm choosing to take but I'm choosing to take it regardless of the harshness and penalties that come with it. Crowds Eyes
- Hohepa

ISXIX PRODUCTIONS

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