Dropism

Im Fluss der endokrinen Nervensäfte

Monarch

H-Friday Train

(Free WAV Download available here under '••• More'; and eventually, as part of a future solo album)

Latin, literally ‘not having control of one's mind’.

If there was ever a time in my life when I questioned the sanity of the world, this would be it. So many things are not working; and so many people in power seem to want to keep it that way. How does one maintain hope (and provide others hopeful ideas), when the daily news tells such a different story? At what point do the hopeful messages just feel out of touch, rather than helpful?

Bo Burnham’s comedy special ‘Inside’ (on Netflix, but you can find several skits on YouTube as well) should be recommended viewing for all human beings right now. It’s a brilliantly insightful and snarky view of the world we live in, and a candid peek into his struggles facing that world. Half charming, half alarming… he is unapologetic and razor sharp in how he interprets the modern age. Here’s a line from one of the opening songs that really hit home for me:

"The more I look, the more I see nothing to joke about. Is comedy over? Should I leave you alone? Cause really who's gonna go for joking at a time like this? Should I be joking at a time like this? I wanna help to leave this world better than I found it. And I fear that comedy won't help, and the fear is not unfounded."

This so accurately summarizes how I feel right now. Is what I’m doing helping? Or does (you pick the hot topic driving you nuts at the moment) seem so out of control, that I seem out of touch with reality… trumpeting loving and hopeful messages in the face of the chaos? 

In the end, I feel there are only two paths available to us at any given time; activity and inactivity. I don’t know that the specific activity matters as much as the drive and purpose behind that activity. I suspect the point is simply to do anything positive that tells the universe where your heart and intent are focused. The alternative… inactivity probably looks a lot like freezing in your tracks, getting lost in fear (or anger, which I consider a sub-category of fear)… and refusing to (or feeling like you can’t) move forward. It’s pretty easy to imagine how that energy won’t be helping anyone… especially you.

So maybe it’s as simple as just doing something that seems meaningful to you. Maybe that means protesting. Or donating to causes that align with your values. It might be conserving water, limiting waste, and recycling. Perhaps it’s providing your services and skills to someone in need; or simply smiling at someone as you pass them on the street. And it can also take the form of artistic and creative expression; a valuable offering for people in need of evocative images, sounds and ideas. All of these things hold power. And all are important in my mind. So rather than questioning whether we’re doing the right things, or enough of the right things… maybe we just need to follow our hearts (not our minds), and see where that leads us. Our hearts already seem to know us better than we know ourselves anyway. Let’s try trusting that little fellow, and see where it takes us.

I hope you enjoy my latest sonic adventure, ‘Non Compos Mentis’. :)

WTF! The Musical

Non Compos Mentis

10 track LP spanning electronic styles including dubstep, future bass, glitch, freeform bass, house, trap, heavy stuff, melodic stuff, mangled samples from old scifi, custom samples rendered as audio from the guts of EXE files, 🤷‍♂️

Full album on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/50KYzxfObDo5yxAU4GP0qY?si=tCzq6QDKQcm-EgYJ6JLP_g

Full album on Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/beaker-probeard/sets/brute-false

Toggle Me

In Ten City

Wish Upon A Scar

Export Selector

A few years ago, EZPZ & U.O.ME posted stems of their collab track "Money" on Discord for a remix competition. Around 2 years ago I had a DM chat with one of them on Discord that confirmed the track was cool to release. Since I'm a mess-up, of course I sat on it and continued to tweak it in small ways for another 2 years for no good reason. Here's the result. I really like the original track EZPZ & U.O.ME, especially the crunchy drums and heavy (yet fun) vibe. Unfortunately, I can't find it online anymore, otherwise I'd link directly to it. 

EZPZ & U.O.ME - Money (Toy Shoulders Remix)

A couple years ago Parable Collective had a 24 or 48 hr production challenge in their Discord server. Great Discord, collective, and producers. That's how this track started, but my original draft sucked. After tweaking it occasionally for years, I've grown to like it despite its cheesy vox, melodies, and guitar solo. 

Check out Parable: https://soundcloud.com/parablecollective

Still Waiting

This track started as a potential contribution to a supertrack arrangement of Nameless Collective artists, but I don't think that supertrack was ever completed. Over the last couple years I've continued to tweak my little track off and on. Nameless was a fun Discord and collective, with many great producers who still inspire me (Boostio, Mr. Person, Citia, kevox, etc.). This one is kinda bass-heavy hybrid trap, but also a bit wave-ish, but also has a harpsichord segue in the middle?

Check out Nameless Collective: https://soundcloud.com/nameless-beats-official

Debth

This track started as a discord sample flip challenge long long ago... maybe 5 years ago?! I think it was through the CFC discord, which was a great group of producers. Like usual, my first attempt sucked, but I've tweaked it little by little and am finally happy with it. Not really sure what electronic subgenre(s) this is, and that's okay.

Waking is Dreaming

A mirror of its former light, slowed and reimagined. This version of Passed Light drifts through inverted spaces—where warmth becomes shadow, and echoes stretch longer than meaning. Each beat is a bridge between the shimmer that once was and the silence that remains. Descend into a downtempo dream where light isn’t gone—it’s just somewhere else.

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Passed Dark (Zankyo Side)

A harmless training with the Kitchi Gbo (Kess Kess, Télévi, Thelevi, Alasalato, Aslatua, Kashaka,  Kosika, Asalato)ends in a recording :)
Other instruments:
Hang Gede, Berimbao, Brumle, walnut wind toy, crystal singing bowl, cajon, finger cymbal

Monarch

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