Stuck In My Head I Wanna Cry Lol (siemspark x voycebeats)

FAST LIL SONG IDK WHO PROD

It’s 5 AM
Blades in my wrist in this gun to my head 
Don’t think that I’ll ever get out of bed 
So sickening don’t even deserve a friend 
Now I’m begging for help 
The hope that I had man it’s all running out 
To deal with the problems keep pills on the shelf 
Anxiety is killing me I can’t get out 
Now I go for a walk 
Head straight to the pond 
I waved to my neighbor, while he mows his lawn 
He sees that my pockets are full, but no, he doesn’t care because when I do know it doesn’t matter 
I get to the pond and walk to the bridge 
My pockets are full in my heart beating quick 
The drugs from the morning are starting to wear off, so I know I got to do it fast before I go in the second guess 
My whole fucking life 
I’m sick of this shit and I just wanna die 
Today is the day I don’t live for the night 
Maybe if I had friends, I would tell them goodbye 
When she gets hard, I just give up 
Run off the drugs inside my cup 
I fell in love, then fucked it up 
Now I’m alone my body stuck

stuck

@benjithemachine
@icespiceee
#gang4L
#THROWTHATASSINACIRCLE

fijimar x ice spice x benjithemachine - hounds 2.0

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2 old ass song wit @bedhead2001 n @benjithemachine

Two Prod Me Wit Bedhead

Fall Back Wit bedhead P Benji

exotic [Jvsper]

prod mix master by 93

i need 10 milligrams to feel better 
because i’m feeling rather ill 
don’t back away it’s not contagious 
some even say that it’s not real 
some people say 
“there’s nothing wrong with me”
some people think i should be killed 
there’s contagions in that office 
making monsters out of fear 

i need 10 milligrams to feel better 
because i’m feeling kind of sick 
i’ve heard it all before;
pervert, misled, leg up for sports 
i’m begging for the comfort of my skin
some people say 
“there’s something wrong with me”
some people love me how i am
but if finding the cure
means losing friends, family, and more 
then honestly it just is what it is

i need 10 milligrams to feel better 
can you help me find my fix 
i’ve thought it out so long 
moved out, grew up, had kids and all  
the symptoms.. they just seem to persist..
so will you say 
“there’s something wrong with me” ?
so will you take me how i am ? 
maybe this little glass 
ester vial and blister pack 
can make this home feel like home again

10mg

lyrics:

Somewhere inside the Hudson
Ive sat for a decade in Ice cold
Way back in port town suburbs
My scent still sticks to my old clothes
Ive lost all but my worst habits
You’ll be who I look for on my walk home
Rolled up in this bleach burn magic
Does this hit of numb ever get old

Another story of a boy who never grew old
How’d that truck taste
That shit was aiming for him
He said in the worst way
I will see you on road
Tell that fuck face
That im waiting for him
Play the tape back
Look at me im love struck 
I just want that back
Look what we had
Waves touch gaff
Just look at me im sea sick
I dont have sea legs
I cant swim back
Just look at my hands
The ropes burned holes in
The legs of my pants
With the force of cannon
I am no man
I was tucked down
In the bowels of the ship
In a selfish abandoned
As the weights laid
I will stay back
Sure my worst fate remains in my head
For Next birthday
I will eat cake
Sure my ship mates ive hurt are all dead
I cant believe my luck
If u could call it that but really ur just war shy
Next time I sober up
Ill face a battle that gets harder every next time

Somewhere inside the Hudson
Ive sat for a decade in Ice cold
Way back in port town suburbs
My scent still sticks to my old clothes
Ive lost all but my worst habits
You’ll be who I look for on my walk home
Rolled up in this bleach burn magic
Does this hit of numb ever get old

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