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Altered State ft. Lil Ghoul

dreaming of living a better life than this 
and I wish, that I didn't live in fear 
reminisce of the things that I really miss 
and of things I could do 
like maybe go to the park and take a stroll 
with someone that I can trust and get to know 
well I guess that I just gotta tell myself 
everythings alright 
ok, alright, lets do this one more time 

man I wish that I could go to sleep 
close my eyes and then I start to scream 
terror is a reoccurring theme 
and I'm tired of my mind trying to play tricks on me 
I try to look at myself at a different perspective 
cause whenever your life is a drag you don't wanna think about how bad it can really get 
alright, ok, lets do this one more time 

dreaming of living a better life than this 
and I wish, that I didn't live in fear 
reminisce of the things that I really miss 
and of things I could do 
like maybe go to the park and take a stroll 
with someone that I can trust and get to know 
well I guess that I just gotta tell myself 
everythings alright 
ok, alright, lets do this one more time 

Can't tell what is real anymore 
and I'm scared to experience the world 
are they out to get me, are they trying to poison me 
is it my enemies or my family 
so I tell myself everything will be ok 
and I really wanna feel different everyday 
like the sky I'm feeling cold and I'm feeling blue 
do your wishes really come true 
not in this life 
not in this life 
tears me at my soul 
only time that god has ever answered me 
was to say welcome to hell 

dreaming of living a better life than this 
and I wish, that I didn't live in fear 
reminisce of the things that I really miss 
and of things I could do 
like maybe go to the park and take a stroll 
with someone that I can trust and get to know 
well I guess that I just gotta tell myself 
everythings alright 
ok, alright, lets do this one more time

Stroll Through The Park

trapping, using all night 

that was all I did 
every single day and night 
well look at me now 
schizophrenia for life 

didn't wanna live so I was looking for anything to help me escape
acid, meth, spice, molly, weed, shrooms, alcohol, and inhalents 
now the only drugs that I can take are my antipsychotics that don't work 
don't know if I'll ever wake up from this confusing nightmare 

trapping, using all night 

that was all I did 
every single day and night 
well look at me now 
schizophrenia for life 

should of took a picture of reality, I can't remember her face now 
we were never friends but I knew that she lived in the same town
one day I went up to her and told her that I can help you never feel low 
saw her in the news the next day, an apparent drug overdose 

trapping, using all night 

that was all I did 
every single day and night 
well look at me now 
schizophrenia for life

Schizophrenia

This song is about my struggle with depression and addiction.

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