hkfifty

Lyrics:
you should know, that i know, im a fuckin waste
got some Henny in the glass spill all over the place
im a wreck, hit the deck, aint even got a taste
im fucked up mess you could watch while i break

you could catch me on the side, just preparing for a breakdown
the only one i loved, is the only one i hate now
i could give a fuck, cause im numb to the pain now
only think of you everytime that it rain now

get lit, smoke until im snoring
only hear the thunder every time that it be pourin
flip side, catch you in the morning
but i never woke up and it hit you without warning

why is HK always talkin bout death
i just wanna get some dumb fuckin rest
fuck all this shit i really gave my best
life is like school but i failed the test

i got a few things i should get off my chest
the scars on my arm that i never addressed
the panic attacks that keep me in distress
the thoughts in my mind that im keeping repressed

you could watch while i break
(im a waste too)
(i take it all back now)

I'm A Waste

im a waste

Lyrics:
and i still feel my hands on your thighs
and i still see the look in your eyes
and i remember when you wanted to die
well i did too but we learned to get by

stay close cause i miss you on your smoke break
they know that im crushin but i wont say
lay low holding secrets make my throat ache
i hope you know just how i feel because i wont break

i cant connect, open my mouth, i try to speak but no words come out
i cant connect
thoughts in my head, wish i were dead, im zoning out into the ceiling again
i cant connect

i dont blame you if you ended up not liking me
im a bore and im a menace to society
every day lost in my mind im tryna find some peace
im a ghost and im a shell of what i used to be

always keep you close you know i just cant connect
girl i kept you by my side i had my lips on your neck
if i could only use my words to tell you that im a wreck
and that i need you next to me so i feel safe in this bed

i got some real dark secrets that im hiding away
im tryna keep mental sanity and lock it in place
you know im tryna do my best to make it feel like im sane
i got a fucking parasite i keep it deep in my brain

and you know i might explode, like a land mine
and im sorry if i panic at a bad time
i know you prolly wanna fuck but i flatlined
im just sorry im a wreck im tryna get by

Can't Connect

cant connect

lyrics:
get my guap, with a bop, like a palindrome
back and forth, south and north, but I grind alone
keep it lonely, only brodies digits in my phone

run it up dude, keep it on the down low
ion trust you, prove it to the crowd bro
who is you I ain't heard you till right now tho
you a joke you aint even tokin loud bro

I cant say nothin to nobody
catch me alone im a homebody
I aint be trusting in nobody
name out your mouth get your own hobby

Nobody

nobody

Old Me

old me w/ GGLeak

Up Up And Away

Up Up And Away (Kid Cudi Cover)

Lyrics:
Had a funeral in my head, no one crying
Thought that I'd reach out, say I'm gone, think I'm dying
Ain't nobody care, that's a lie, I'm denying
I just never talk, got no words, so I'm sighing

Maybe hit the blunt, I could live, and be happy
Then it goes away, and it's done, now I'm mad G
Always wanna float, but I sink, in the vast sea
Baby kiss my neck, on my lap, call me daddy

Ain't nobody care if I'm dying on the low
Say that theyll be there if I ever wanna go
Tryna be okay and thats all I'm tryna show
Never feel okay but I guess that's how it go

I guess thats how it go
x4

Had a funeral in my head, no one crying
Thought that I'd reach out, say I'm gone, think I'm dying
Ain't nobody care, that's a lie, I'm denying
I just never talk, got no words, so I'm sighing

I dont know, I guess I'm giving up
hit the bowl, yeah my mind be kinda fucked
staying low, homie ima keep it a buck
hope that i choke, deep in my sleep, dont give a fuck

Funeral

Funeral (prod splashgvng)

Lyrics:
im so sick of all the hiding, im so sick of all the lies
im so sick of always smiling, when im dying deep inside
i just wish that you could see all of the feelings that i hide
but i never wanna talk, just get the fuck up out my mind

always just ignore, all the beating of my heart
baby im a walking corpse, any day ill fall apart
you could pick up all my limbs, take me right back to the start
you could sew me up real good but then ill get hit by a car

in december i cut like real bad
saw my veins and the void in the black
life is strange when all you do is slack
its just more time for these panic attacks

keep your head up, i know its the worst
when no one listens, its part of the curse
of being silent, not using my words
im only human, i dont know the cure

i dont know the cure

December

We've never met, but i'm in love w/Hkfiftyone (Prod. HKFiftyone)

HUGE THANKS TO @suburbanwhitey FOR RECORDING THE GUITAR SAMPLE Support this guy <3
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Piano Sample Credit: @instupendo - play palette
My group vocal melody at the end was inspired by Algernon Cadwallader - Horror (https://youtu.be/ARSl5-SXT6A?t=3m26s)

Lyrics:
I feel the cold breeze in my hair yah
Think of all the times I wasn't there yah
In your bed these thoughts I just can't bear yah
You went somewhere but I don't know where yah

I focus on my music just so I don't think of you
You got me thinking why you do the things you do
Do you still care after all we've been through
Through the better and the worse and just to name a few

You do you like nobody can yah
I'm not fine it's just who I am
You once were my biggest fan yah
Now I gotta find a way to cope with change of plans yah

Now I'm spending days driving solo
When you left yah it got me so low
Running through my mind like where the fuck you go
Feel so broken hearted like you'd never know
Now I'm spending days driving solo
Riding through the city I feel so alone
Feel that cold breeze through my hair don't take it slow I pull out in the bimmer where the fuck you go

Everybody wanna collab, yah
Everybody want these bands, yah
Everybody lookin at me thinkin Ima quit and buying everything I wanted but I can't, yah
This motivation is making me feel alive again
I wonder how many times I've said I'd rather be dead

And now I'm not afraid to live
It's been hard since I was a kid
You know you hurt me with everything that you did
But I will keep going I'm not afraid to live

Now I'm spending days driving solo
I'm learning to be better when you don't show
I clean myself up I wear a polo
I'm making hits like I'm a virtuoso
Now I'm spending days driving solo
The only way to go is up when you been so low
I'm in the coupe I take a couple photos
Touring in a whip like it's a roadshow

solo

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Sample Credit: Nights: Journey Of Dreams Soundtrack - Dream Gate

Lyrics:
Sweet dreams cuz I get money on the daily
Drink this Ima forget, although maybe...
I been knocked down

I hope that you never come home
I'm not mad I just hate when you roam
I just hate that you left me alone
If you're gonna leave don't fucking come home

As well as usual
I been making mutuals
Talking on that twitter but I'm still attending funerals
Cause friends are suicidal
I been talking to the bridal-procession to get a ride home when I get drunk, hold the title

I been working on my shit to try and get a flow
I been so depressed but not a single person knows
Money gotta go, tryna grow a soul
I been tryna kill my inner demons with a pole

I hope that you never come home

sweetdreams

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Sample Credit: Real Friends - Maybe This Place Is The Same...

Changing

Photo Credit: https://www.deviantart.com/yattamigeru <3
Lyrics:
I be out here catching flights you gonna watch me soar
Fans all in my DMs and they begging me for more
Music saved my life when death was knocking on the door
Know the future holds my dreams i know theres more in store

i just spent a rack on some shoes
yall been know my name comin thru
spendin all my time in the stu
climbing to the top im self produced

Comin up concerned bout the money
Now im gettin all this cash and life is sweeter than honey
Im rockin hard, i go dummy, you know it aint even funny
And all these girls be double trouble when they all wanna fuck me

Workin on my shit im making beats
Now you hear my shit out in the streets
People bump my music all on me
Now i rock margiela on my feet

You gon watch me soar dude
Believe that you can soar too

I be out here catching flights you gonna watch me soar
Fans all in my DMs and they begging me for more
Music saved my life when death was knocking on the door
Know the future holds my dreams i know theres more in store

i just spent a rack on some shoes
yall been know my name comin thru
spendin all my time in the stu
climbing to the top im self produced

Get up out my way im goin hard as fuck
Drink some UV down im finna party up
Ya boi is wilin out ya what the fuck is up
Livin just like larry i cant get enough

We're faced with choices everything will be okay
Wake up in the morning and you'll see another day
Hold on to the hope you got you'll find another way
And then you'll soar this shit is true just like i say

You gon watch me soar dude
Believe that you can soar too

soar

sometimes things just dont work out,
if you wanted me to stay you should know now,
you can tell me anything that you dont doubt,
Park Jefferson in the air while we roll out

cool breeze in her hair got my heart warm,
orange leaves in the air got me lovelorn,
cold fights on the phone make a big storm,
guess ill leave, wanna stay, got my heart torn

when i wake up my bed too big,
sleep in the hole in the grave i dig,
i walk away like i know you did,
turned my back the same time that you hid

some day when we're both alone and lonely,
some day when i want you back to hold me,
think back on all of the things you told me,
miss you feeling like you were my only

Im sorry i ran away
Im sorry i couldnt stay
Im breaking down every day
I know its better this way

can you feel this pain inside
broke inside got me out of my mind
all these days pass by i cry
wanna go back, do it right this time

i been down im so broken
cant stand my hearts been stolen
the way our lives been woven
just makes me sad im frozen

i tried to sleep away my feelings im still sad
i tried to get all of this weight up off my back
i tried to numb all the emotions that i had
i cried and laid in bed for weeks i still feel bad

Im sorry i ran away
Im sorry i couldnt stay
Im breaking down every day
I know its better this way

runaway (prod adjustisac)

Lyrics:
i had too many things to say
i write the same shit every day
im scared while i be on my way
too anxious to know that im gonna be okay

cuz you know im a bad dream
i get lost i dont 'member me
then you call on a memory
but you know it aint meant to be

i just cant breathe you already know
panic inside i pick up my phone
try to type a message cuz im never alone
i dont want them hearing what goes on in my dome

on repeat on the daily now
tryna stay sane but im crazy now
yeah i wish that i was faded now
so i dont have to think of how i hate it now

its late at night and i can not sleep
trapped inside this anxiety
been distressed just to say the least
i still aint know the fuck wrong with me

i just gotta take a breathe and calm down
need sedation and i need it all now
i been clean the plug im bouta call now
this so fucking hard im bouta fall now

i had to many things to say
i write the same shit every day
im scared while i be on my way
too anxious to know that im gonna be okay

cuz you know im a bad dream
i get lost i dont 'member me
then you call on a memory
but you know it aint meant to be

memory (prod vader)

i dont know where i went wrong i feel like something isnt right now
choking on my breath i get so scared without a light now
feel it in my stomach and it burns im not alright now
paralyzed im frozen but im chosen for this life now

i hate the way you not in my bed every day
something feels so wrong i dont know what to say
wish that you were here girl lemme kiss your legs
but i am not myself feel like i went away

looking for some warmth again like in July
tried to find some answers and a reason why
anyone would want me in the summertime
i been a mess and i just wanna be alright

i just wanted my hands all up in your hair
you just wanted my heart when it wasn't there
now i gotta live life but i wouldn't dare
i cant do this without you and it makes me scared


i, hide, behind, all the words i write
i say that, im, fine, but you know i lie
know i love you now and its still the same
so why do i feel lost i guess im just insane

panicking in my room i just wanna make it through it
feel the weight all on my chest and i feel like i blew it
i just dont know how to breathe when i be acting stupid
im freaking out you knew it cuz you also been right through it

i never doubted for a second that we're still not safe here
take my hand and run away we'll die if we just stay here
i cant do this on my own but we can if you stay dear
make it through all of the sad cold hate grief tears cried pain fear

wentaway (prod nciku)

zombie

Lyrics:
im a fuckin peice of shit, why you always gotta bitch
let me sleep in if i wanna, get the fuck up off my dick
know my mind is really sick cause i like it when you kick
-in me down cause i deserve it when i cant learn a new trick

im a dog, im a ghost, im the one you hate the most
im that toxic drink youre pouring raise me up propose a toast
this ones for all of the loosers, the forgotten, diagnosed
cause im one of you but im the king i really hate to boast

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of

i recorded all my verses, but im still dead like some hearses
and im trapped inside my body i feel like i need some nurses
i feel like i need some surgery, for all the shit thats hurting me
but im a ghost im never seen, i know that yall aint heard of me

write down in chalk, all the shit that i lost
while i run out the clock, just before it gets washed
know the year has been hard, got you down in the dark
cause the future is stark, that you 'bout to embark

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of
x2

i been living with the pain, yeah
but i know ill be okay, yeah
if you march right to your grave, yeah
nothing will ever be the same, without you

graves

Lyrics:
I'm so cold right now, hit a low right now
Hit a bowl while I'm drunk I'm in the flow right now
In the gutter right now, get her number right now
Get the number for the plug cause it's over right now

Gotta cope with the pain, get that shit out my brain
I don't need to explain, gotta run from the blade
Gotta stitch up my veins, shawty stay in your lane
Why you call me insane, I got scars you got the same hoe

I'm boutta pass out, (yeah)
I'm boutta crash out, (yeah)
I'm boutta cash out, (yeah)
See the tunnel with no light, (yeah)

You been on my mind too
Shame that I cant find you
No feeling inside you

But nothing can hide you
I know that you lie too
It's okay dont cry boo

I feel a migraine comin on
Shit too real so I run along
Nothin real when I'm analog
World is gone while I'm in this song

Crashout

crashout

Im Bad For You

imbadforyou

White Tee

White Tee (Lil Peep Cover)

Anime, 9tails,suicide boys,lil peep, not home, emo kinda stuff, GBC, $B

hkfifty

Thomash