prod. ilytwelve 
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
( i love you )

i dont know what to feel anymore 
stuck in anonymity don't know who i am no more
only took a couple months you walked right out that fucking door
yeah, like what the fuck was it all even for?
if this is how to live then i don't want to live at all
i just wind up all my feelings then i let em go
and it was never for the worst but that's just how it goes 
fuck around to fuck around probably just to feel something more
( i love you )

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

and i dont know if i miss you or i miss the thought of love 
im trapped in my consciousness need drugs to get out of touch 
you all diplomatic, im just a manic 
so whose advice do i take if i don't have an answer 
i just spend up all my time in my own mind 
the only friend i got is what i smoke to feel right 
i set the bar high 
a waste of my time 
caught on the deadline, in which im taught to be sure
i struggle finding what's sure 
don't need a hand and not yours 
take revelations it's straining to rip out the sword
i wasn't distant before 
but now i'm distant and more 
my personality inside of me 
it makes me contort 
( i love you ) 

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

fuck!
but i ain't going out sad
do it by myself 
i dont need nobody bad
i remember i was down 
ain't nobody had my back so
now when i go up
ill be up until my body bag yeah.

amenity

( i love you ) 

ima hide my voice 
that’s how ima hide the pain yeah 
remnants of myself they keep 
spilling out the container 
and i can’t contain it yeah 
no i can’t contain it 
and this like the fifth time 
that i realized i don’t know myself 
and even if i did i cant live right 
without your help
if i can’t breathe your air 
then i don’t want it 
been thinking bout the other me 
i fuckin lost em 
and i know i can’t commit to shit 
that’s who i am yeah 
i hyperventilate when nobody’s around yeah 
and nobody’s around 
i’m better in the ground

compulsive.

(Verse 1)

I got lost somewhere in the process
Tryna figure out who i am
Feels like ill never find solace
Cause these times feel the darkest

Fear of missing out as the time goes 
Hope im faded out before my minds gone
Guess ill cope by making all these sad songs
Hold on to the memories they dont last long 

(Hook)

But what the hell do i know?
I make dumb decisions thats life tho
Babe we dont need a title
We’re not young forever so im told

Wonder what its like to fall in love 
Ups and downs then im choking up
Give it all i have hope it dont combust
Thought i’d have it figured oit by 21

(Verse 2)
And i remember all the long nights 
Memories burning with the bonfire
To get it back i’d pay any price
any price

And im living for now not the past tense
Even when it aint making sense
Wish i wouldve taken action 
Instead of living for the thrill of it

Young and im dumb but i guess thats human
Cant learn from what youve done withoit knowing you’re clueless
Even when im barely staying afloat
I just gotta grasp everything thats gold

(Hook)

But what the hell do i know?
I make dumb decisions thats life tho
Babe we dont need a title
We’re not young forever so im told

Wonder what its like to fall in love 
Ups and downs then im choking up
Give it all i have hope it dont combust
Thought i’d have it figured oit by 21

21

zany

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