prod. ilytwelve 
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
( i love you )

i dont know what to feel anymore 
stuck in anonymity don't know who i am no more
only took a couple months you walked right out that fucking door
yeah, like what the fuck was it all even for?
if this is how to live then i don't want to live at all
i just wind up all my feelings then i let em go
and it was never for the worst but that's just how it goes 
fuck around to fuck around probably just to feel something more
( i love you )

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

and i dont know if i miss you or i miss the thought of love 
im trapped in my consciousness need drugs to get out of touch 
you all diplomatic, im just a manic 
so whose advice do i take if i don't have an answer 
i just spend up all my time in my own mind 
the only friend i got is what i smoke to feel right 
i set the bar high 
a waste of my time 
caught on the deadline, in which im taught to be sure
i struggle finding what's sure 
don't need a hand and not yours 
take revelations it's straining to rip out the sword
i wasn't distant before 
but now i'm distant and more 
my personality inside of me 
it makes me contort 
( i love you ) 

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

fuck!
but i ain't going out sad
do it by myself 
i dont need nobody bad
i remember i was down 
ain't nobody had my back so
now when i go up
ill be up until my body bag yeah.

amenity

( i love you ) 

ima hide my voice 
that’s how ima hide the pain yeah 
remnants of myself they keep 
spilling out the container 
and i can’t contain it yeah 
no i can’t contain it 
and this like the fifth time 
that i realized i don’t know myself 
and even if i did i cant live right 
without your help
if i can’t breathe your air 
then i don’t want it 
been thinking bout the other me 
i fuckin lost em 
and i know i can’t commit to shit 
that’s who i am yeah 
i hyperventilate when nobody’s around yeah 
and nobody’s around 
i’m better in the ground

compulsive.

(Hook)

I know you hate it when im high
Too often I think of my demise
I think that you’re someone I would just idealize
And I know that we never saw eye to eye

Think it’s possession just like poltergeist
Got this anxiety that wont subside
Yeah I get so fucked up it dont suffice
And I dont know why you’re someone I’d idealize

(Verse)

I know its overdue
Dont think im over you 
Baby you’re my drug 
I need a fix can I overdose?
Every door that I left open thank god that they are closed 
What glitters aint all gold 
Leave your voice at the tone 

And I cant escape the matrix 
I left mt brain with you I swear my head is vacant
I guess it could get worse if thats any consolation 
Swear I’d go through hell and back to take away this hatred

(Hook)

I know you hate it when im high
Too often I think of my demise
I think that you’re someone I would just idealize
And I know that we never saw eye to eye

Think it’s possession just like poltergeist
Got this anxiety that wont subside
Yeah I get so fucked up it dont suffice
And I dont know why you’re someone I’d idealize

Idealize

zany

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