Trying to understand and process the pain of the second suicide in my life. The first was My father when I was around 8-9.
The second was my brother a couple of months ago.
I  am not a "musician" I don't know the names of cords or have many that i use. My voice is not great timing is off, but the emotion is raw and real. Singing my story and its pain helps me process. This song is non rehearsed the  words are not pre written, I recorded it on my phone.

The words I have listened and copied and are-

Tears fall like raindrops,
from a dark and buried sky.
Drowning child,
swallowed in the pains.
The life,
taken…
from innocence

Tears,
they falling... from the sky,
them tears are falling,
 from the darken skies.
Them tears the rain is falling-
for the boy that was drowning….
within
you had no words,
for the pain that you felt,
you never learnt to meet its face in the dark.

Now the tears they fall
From a dark emotional sky,
I wish I was there to hold your hand,
I wish you told me you were in pain.

Now the tears they fall,
from a dark and emotional sky
And the angels they scream out why?
why do the good soldiers die?

I’m sorry I never seen your pain,
 the way it was,
I’m sorry you never cried in my shoulder,
I’m sorry I never showed you the way.

And I’m left here in the day of the living,
and eventually I’ll be forgiv(en/ing)
and look after your son and daughter and wife.
I will try and mop up the mess you left,
I will try and wipe away the strife.

But there is a whole that will be forever in our hearts

I miss you my brother.
And I will miss you until the day I die.

Tears  rain falls from a dark emotional sky,
Why oh why don’t we have the space for grown men to cry.

Second Time