Scizophrenic

Pixelate

DEAD SPACE

lyrics: 

When I was young I followed others opinions when I got older realized I wanna make a difference n
side splitting laughter was my kind of fun thought nothing mattered no consequence I was dumb and still young testing water with a litmus had a father so my guess Is I had a Christmas when everyone else was fortune-less. Something I'm grateful for but still one thing I'm thankful for was making it through the hard times faced with all these fuckin lies. see these kids got their own opinions learning growth from their parents if they even ever grew it's not apparent. Stowed my masculinity until 18 serendipity a pill that break fiends. Got my first job with an independent contractor, a handy man. My Good will intended laid me off damn a Shock factor. See money is power and without that I couldn't flower I was crumbling. So another company gave me a shot spent 6 months learning alot a shit ill never forget. Floating like a feather made myself better until they dropped me lost track of employees. Around this time I got into drumming found how far I was pushing the line stepped outta the box no longer feeling lost. Make my own fate now it's up to me where I choose to go how much I'm willing to stake. Interpret this internal enterprise as one being that should summarize this feeling further solidified at the same time sure that this life has more than 1 surprise some ultimate prize thought i was full of it remember how many musicians wrote the future in our lines only crude visions of a heart that needs stitchings switching rude habits like sides of cold linens told of prude women who I won't fit in virgins verging on the deep end they secretly talk with Satan.
When it begins to rain 




I have to choose a wife or the music there's no intermittent periods in life this will always be strife. Remind me, my girl said I tempt her like the devil fighten like a rebel shovel these dark thoughts into darker spots brightened in the sky when I smoke pot. Again it reminds me a lot about this new beginning fending for myself is getting old ill put it on the shelf cause I got a lot to take care of not just myself. I'm serious you might chuckle but I'm really bouta be unbuckled stay humbled now all the cash be unbundled at your toes life fell apart like dominoes. Hell grasping at these souls down the river of styx they flow. Man I need a fix, I'm already there to tell them where to go be steady stay fair because this is purgatory murder for me war it's serving at that it's obligatory so let us read this horror story 40 story jump out of bed I thought I was dead. Save the rest for later I guess, I wish this was a test cause this weight on my spirit feelin like a debt to repay to the angels who carried me from fatal disease. married me? more like money is my honey. I'll never stop gunning it running toward this one thing it goes deeper than you think it's quite lovely. My wedding when they set the dove free kiss a fat stack my girl thinks it's a back smack. Somehow fortunate when the water flows turbulent though im spent i get impertinent impatient but my actions are proportianate, 100,000 fathom deep water sheep slaughter

Litmus

lyrics: 
 
look at this, Imaginative bliss, ephemeral it is it doesn't exist. Temporal space to let my mind erase. The moral reminds I remain unchanged. Super-powered brain stays unphased. A flowered pineal begins to bend, space is liminal time it seems is made of me, then ends. 

I can't describe what it's like up here but it feels like it escapes my mind before it makes its way out 

My self is lost or gone I'm faded not even demons are staying, playing with saucers and God. I'm enlightened come and join the joy ride feel your mood is heightened 
Cause here the evil is blighted by its light, perseverance they fear, cause interference 

how'd I get here? Must be something I took cause 

I'm outer atmosphere

 splitting atoms altered gravity in tandem molecular fallout a spectacle for sure, galactic rebirth intervals between starbirth, all in my ventricular. To say we're humans a misnomer, the great attractor gets closer 
Stars align, it's time for Clover. One's darkness starts with his once lover ties with the under, now I sit in a room silence, unsettling, mindless stew. Concoction of spells on auction, binds and books and death it entails spines and snakes caduceus, my egos dubious, a new lifestyle to remain duteous, a while ago we were just nucleus. Now we climb vesuvious. Now these rhymes are studious cant take that, cause im young but go wabac




can't describe what it's like up here but it feels like it escapes my mind before it makes its way out


wabac

Sightless Hill

I Talk to the Dead

Beetlegeuse

A Dream About Aliens

Blast Off

International Appeal

See Me Glow

See me Glow

UNKWN

Martinstruction on YouTube, probably other social media too, made this beat. I love Ballonerism Type Beats, thought I would give it a shot!! Singing too. not polished, but i thought this was experimental, and had good sounds. LMK what you think!!

lyrics: 
Might as well be summertime 
There's wasps and they piss me off.
We blackballed by the Aliens,
There's one too many atheists.
There's no wall inside my mind at all.
Maybe it's, cause I'm the laziest 
Everytime I stand I fall
Also I'm the craziest.
Everything that's said I said it all
Blend together see the gradients.

Thoughts are miscellaneous 
CLover is my alias.
Lost in vast thoughts 
Forgot to check my blind spot.
Just shut my mouth and let em talk.

This won't be my last song
i see them when they wave, of euphoria wash over me. No end to this pain, so I absorb the morning sun, wash over me. 
I see them when they leave, a breath of fresh air. 

Energy i perceive, watch over me.
Please, give me a piece of that sweet symphony, should it come with sympathy, give me all i need.
Lacking in some squares, all I have is 4.
Problems I show bare, but I have more
Lost in silence by the count of 4,
I should care, but I don't have none to give
Clover by the count of 4, but I've got a lot more. 

I never wanted things to be this way. 
Heaven opened up their gates, close enough to make you sway. Into angels arms, don't look away, or they take your heart. We'll be ready to die someday. It might be Friday. we don't decide when it falls apart. Just smile in case

Energy i perceive, watch over me.
Please, give me a piece of that sweet symphony, should it come with sympathy, give me all i need.

Just a Song I Prod. Bardo Beats

Just a Song I Prod. Martin

:) lyrics:  prophecies, promises
One I know one I keep, in my soul I'm sure to reap. 10 of cups means I drink. I fell behind, enough to make you think. 
Problems with the people never seem to cease. 
Brought up by the people, yeah they never leave
the blackest sheep, my energy
Lacking sleep in lethargy
Broken promise means you always stray,
Lot of losses, so you never stay
Better pray, for it comes yo day
In a nice way, better stock the bread you lay
Lock the doors you take, 
The ice that breaks be the bed that lays,
I can change that off day,
Give you a peace of mine/mind one that might stay
What I offer, could be a life change. 
One you may regret, lest you not forget
This is your request. Take the throne, be my guest. 
I had to get this off my chest. 
I'm dead, I can't avenge you yet.
But just know I did my best.
Divided from the Flesh,
I don't know that yet,
Lemme cash that check
Is this a test?
If so I aced that shit
Is this a bet? 
If so I made that hit
Here it is, but y'all don't know that yet.

Prophecies & Promises I Prod. BBGLOS

I made a Hit!!! I Prod. BBGLOS

Credit to Bardo for the beat, it's amazing. I'll probably buy it :). On creative commons until then.
Lyrics: 
Now I be walking with my head held high, ain't nobody told me I could chase that high. I been walking real fly ever since the plane took off. stranded in the skies and we still ain't landing, my God. So high.
All I gotta do is live the life, soon it'll be granted to me. If you live a lie then the world gon notice, won't make quotas, gotta say hold up. Cause I won't focus.

If the skies turn grey I'm not folding,
If God turns away I'm not losing hope,
Imma keep going till the sun starts to show.
brave soldier through the snow won't fade, I tell you it goes this way. Make place for the greatest, jack of all trades better than a master of 1
Come this way I'll show you some. 
I don't play, I'll make it last. We're going past,
Bring that ass and show me some. My heart is made of glass, but you get a pass. 
They say it's not lasting but we up past 10, that's past tense, now we broke up. Now I'm fasting, trynna show love. 

Take mushrooms, see where it goes. Huh, never thought about it like that and, What's this life, without a little magic? Say wait up, lemme show you what I'm made of, okay, hermeticism back in fashion. 

I texted God, but he hasn't answered.
Algorithm feigning the answers.
Last time I saw him, he was crying out to his master.
Afraid of the disaster he created but in the end it's okay we repaid him. Gave him all the credit, so now we just let it be.
It made no sense to me, still on the fence with me if imma be honest, I won't ask why but I'll trust it when I'm falling.

If it made no sense to me, no sense at all
Was I really free, if I cannot leave? Without coming back right where I started, feeling like I'm outsmarted, no I don't debate cause your ego flakes. Yeah I wish I was more kindhearted. I swear I'm too up tight close guarded. Feels like I'm back where I started.

Just wanna float away, maybe a couple tokes a day, I could use some jokes these days. Don't wanna feel like I'm choking (always choking)
Don't wanna feel like I'm underwater, 
Drifting farther, if only I could see past the fog
I think I saw her speaking with moon, another siren sings her soothing song. I stay awake just to ponder. To make this song.


Blast Off!

Held High I Prod. Bardo Beats

Make my mind up, gotta, wake me up
I'm back at it, this ain't the same stuff. stuck in a stage of stagnation, I turn the page embrace salvation. Moving cause I'm impatient cant stay stationary,
She said you gotta carry me. 
Marry me, pay for me. 
Cant settle down now, so I left, music is my life that's what I said. Nothing else matters... this more than a guess. I left God flattered, chase the songs to their end. 
I filtered out the clatter. 
Chase the smoke till I'm dead.
Clear the bowl, like I'm fed
Do the most, cause I can
Take it slow? But I can't
Make the most of it cause it ends.
 Off to oz, gold brick road take me as far as I can go. The mystery unfolds, see how little I know. Capacity is full, downloading till I explode. This like computer code, now im going till reality is broken. Taking steps, a process that grows.
Im golden, blood slowing like faucets caking, rust, brain stopping. Life is taken then we're falling up. Earth absorb your mortal form then we morphing, all of us.
Spirits that I'm courting, more worlds for me to explore Follow us, don't be afraid of soaring in the sky, serving a purpose transforming what was dust into some sort of high. Obey omens when they fall from your eyes. 

Yeah I'm flying on a birds wing
Heard there were more things

From up above the views 
Unnerving, somethings are left better unheard and, maybe even buried.
Are we undeserving? We all looking blurry.

Chase the smoke till I'm dead.
Clear the bowl, like I'm fed
Do the most, cause I can
Take it slow? But I can't
If i fly i don't land
If i aint high i ain't sad.
Bury my head in the sand if
the sky collapse.
Won't those eyes relax..
Stop looking at me, 


Wonder

Save me from myself, I don't need no help.
You put me in this cell, watch me count these reps. As I mouth my raps. Call masterchef. Stirring up the sound taste unlike the rest. I wear it on my chest.
I take it to the grave, I gave it to the world. Maybe say its the best, count me on those bets.
 Saving some confessions, raising all suspicions, cravings and addictions.
I hear you have a question,
No answers just suggestions.
Were it so easy, you wouldn't be stressing
But the weight is pressing should it be depressing? feeling measly, what's around me eats me. If my World of sound is fleeting, i should be defeated.
Here i stand unsheathed completed.
The reath has meaning
Invite my guests with greetings. 
You are my new meaning.
Say its best if we open up this chest no more holding grudges, set aside regret.
Cavity the holes it's cutting. Sanity as low as nothing. Handing me a life that's blessed. If i Take the steps, invest in understanding, fuck depressed. Im standing coalesced sail this boat success.
Penmanship above the rest, I don't fold i bend the shit. Those skills possessed, this story's told, I manifest. I can handle this.
I'm damn obsessed. Suggest I'm out of it
Claim I'm drugged at best, cloudiness.
Shroud of death
Just the bugs eating at my head. Demons are  nice and fed.
Shroud of death.
Save me from myself, put me to rest. Maybe shoot me to death. 
Lately losing this bet.
Fuck it shooting for best. 
Fuck you, do me like that.
I do this by hand, every sound I weave 
Take you to the past. Make you feel the Now, you feel at peace. Secrets to keep show you the golden key, find your way I meet you at the peak. Pine away, finally at ease I know its scary just come with me. I set you free, prometheus lights the fire but no freedom for him eating his skin. you seem to have lived carry the light and hold it within.

I cried rapping this song so I hope it hits just as hard for you.

Cravings & Addictions

Can you guys Help me find my MLE? I miss her

346Hi I'm C⅃over & this is my 3rd life346
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