2021 revamp of a song I wrote when I was 20 that never saw the light of day, until now.

Genre is set for “Alternative Rock” but it definitely falls into the “Punk Pop/Post Hardcore” category.

Lyrics 

Intro

This story has a trend 
The signal comes in red 

V1

I’m giving you an honest verse
With my question of what hurts you worse 
Is it when I catch a feeling?
You’re blowing me away 
Your voice it’s just an echo now 
It brings another day 
And I’d love to change our bitter end
And things so much different now 
Since you claimed he’s just a friend 

Pre C

Your secrets keep you so safe for now 
I don’t know how but I just deny it 
Quick to put the blame on me and so suddenly 
I guess it’s fair enough, when I know your lying

C

Am I wrong for wanting to choke you 
I’ll play your game but I want out 
The silence kills me, you wouldn’t understand 
How you put the lyric inside my head 

V2

Let me show you what my worst is 
And curse you in verses 
The whore in you is what made you deserve this 
You don’t know me, you don’t know the half 
That’s consumed by the darkness 
And stuck in the past 

You think your bad and you know it all
That’s why I get a thrill when I see you fall 
Hope you know it’s me when I’m on top 
You were laughing in my face 
When I was begging you to stop 

Pre C 2 

And where do we go from here?
So done with living in my fear
I’m sick enough, and I’m tired of this 
And since we were not meant to be 
Have the decency, of facing facts when you walk away

C

Am I wrong for wanting to choke you now 
I’ll play your game but I want out 
The silence kills me, you wouldn’t understand
How you put the lyric inside my head, again

B

Now in guessing we weren’t meant to be 
Your secret safe with me 
Safe with me x2

C

Am I wrong for wanting to choke you now 
I’ll play your game but I want out 
The silence killing me, you wouldn’t understand 
How you put the lyric inside my head

Secrets 2021

The original recording of Secrets from 2014.
I had only been using GarageBand to record for 2 or 3 months at this point.
I had never even thought to try recording with electric guitars and bass.

Inside My Head (Secrets) 2014

Track 5 “In Lies We Trust”

Lyrics

You could wait one more day

-V1-

The words you speak are warring thin
And with a grin you think I would stop that?
The image distorts as you can see 
A darker place inside of me 
You let your bitches flip all of your switches
And turn around and silence me 

I want to know what makes you real, what brings me here, till this day they’ll always swear they

-Pre Chorus-

Feel my name, have a brain
They want to kill, I can’t feel 

-Chorus-

Will you stay with me 
Couldn’t you stay with me x2

-V2-
I cannot fairly hold this 
(I’ve done what I can to break the scene)
It’s safe to burn what you miss 
(Still I can pass on my own deceit)
Drink until you
(With everything fallen, it’s old and grey)
Drift out into you 
(The final moment, disarray)

Don’t you bother when you trip me
I still can’t feel anything 
Does it make you feel better when hate consumes your womb

-Bridge-

And still she does what she can
To realize this moment 
Does it make you feel better when 
It never mattered anyway
I think it’s safe to say 
Yeah, it never mattered anyway 

-Pre Chorus-

Feel this way
Live today
Everything will be ok

-Chorus-

Will you stay with me
Couldn’t you stay with me 
Couldn’t you stay with me 
Couldn’t you stay with me

In Lies We Trust

Track 4 “Untitled”

Lyrics 

-V1-

So here I lay, with things I can’t obey
Breathing heavily into my fist 
Now I fit, you always proceed to find me

So in this world who knows 
The truth could hold us down 
Truth could hold me down 
It binds me down 

-Pre Chorus-

Yeah, you know you’re never there

-Chorus-

It’s time to watch you stand up 
Let you stand up 
In your stare x3
Yeah, your stare

-V2-

So I watch you drive away 
Just today
So I let her drive away 
It’s not okay
And let her drive away 
I feel this power tripping 
And let her drive away

-Bridge-

Said I’d hold that 
(So I watch you drive away)
You know she said, I can’t hold that 
(You drove away)
I ask myself who’s like that 
(You drive away)
You know you said I’d be like that 
(You drive away)
Truth be told, I’m not like that

-V3-

Still tripping, I feel our differences 
The colors changing, I’d kill the witnesses 
Still feel so on mode, it binds me down

-Pre Chorus-

Yeah, you know you’re never there

-Breakdown-

Boy, you scream this way

-Chorus-

Let me watch you stand
Your stare
Stare, yeah

Untitled

Track 3 “Skolded”

Lyrics 

-V1-

I channel words through the ceiling 
In cost of aftermath leaving a curse with no healing 
I can’t stand another moment here 
A tight grip as the moment gets near 
It’s hard to breathe, oh what a drag
I keep it deep down inside this bag 
Here comes the knot in my chest and the taste of the sweat 
It’s colder than it’s ever been 

I don’t even need this shit, it holds me a hostage in my own dreams
Then try to shake myself awake, I can’t confide in my soul, I confide in the strap
Where the lock is a strap, strap is the pain, bury all the shame 
I swear to god on my grave, to my friends you’re a slave 
You’re a sinner and you cannot pray

-Pre chorus-

You won’t like this, oh yeah you try to drag me down 
This is the part where seconds become eternity 

-Chorus-

So let the headlights, guide me down 
A lost projection, without a sound 
And if the visions haunt you and you need to find yourself at home 
You’d climb the wall that would take you there

-V2-

I was always told there’s a better time and better place for this 
It rips me apart please stay

They always told me 
You need to find your place 
(The shit I could face)
And wash away what you can’t erase
(But I cannot escape)
They always said you should find your place 
(But I cannot escape)
I wash away what I can’t erase 

-Pre Chorus-

(But I cannot escape)
Lies, lies, upon lies

-Chorus-

So let the headlights, guide me down 
A lost projection, without a sound 
And if the visions haunt you and you need to find yourself at home 
You’d climb the wall that would take you there

-Breakdown-

The whole world’s a mother fucker

-Outro-

They claim there was a man who knew it all 
How in the fuck could he predict when he’s supposed to fall 
(Over and over)
The fuck could he predict when he’s supposed to fall 
(This kills me over and over)
How will thy fall
(This kills me over and over)
How will thy fall
(This kills me now)
(I’m drifting I’m drifting I’m drifting I’m drifting down)
How will thy falll

Carrying the dream he try’s to sleep again 
Skolded but un broken

Skolded

Track 2 “Thoughts Becoming Actions”

*Explicit*

DISCLAIMER: These lyrics are not meant to be taken seriously or as a threat to anyone.
This was simply and artistic expression through the lens of being plagued by suicidal thoughts and narcissism.
As a positive, I hope this can bring some light to the mental health problems cursing the world today.
I have nothing but sympathy and respect for the victims and survivors of mass shootings.

-Intro-

Don’t say shit, don’t you dare fuckin say shit to me bitch
I’m fucking sick of it all 
And I’ve got nothing to lose, I’ll kill us all 

Run 

My bullet comes to wreck your head 
Your fucking dead 

-V1-

(Well hello there buddy, apparently your school has sent you here because you tried to kill everyone?
Apparently you tried to kill everyone in your entire class?
That’s not gonna fly, so why don’t you sit down and tell me your story)

It goes like this 

Swiftly to the left, smoothly to the right 
Creeping through the halls cuz I can’t sleep at night 
Oh yeah I used to cut myself with that knife 
That belt over there, tried to hang myself twice
It didn’t work I close my eyes
(A failed suicide)
Having dreams where everyone dies 
Like all you fuckers in my town 
Guess what, you’re going down

-Chorus-

So quick to shit, so quick to die 
Let my bullet take you through to the end 
I’ll roll till everyone is dead 

-Bridge-

This is the part, where I commit my crimes 
And do the time, the hard times are gone 
Here comes the nine 
(Run)
Here comes the nine 
(Run)
Fuck you, won’t you die 

-Chorus-

So quick to shit, so quick to die 
Let my bullet take you through to the end 
(This one will take you through to the end)

-Outro-

You get the weekly paper
It came to see
(To take you through to the end)
Pictures taken out of curiosity 
They double crossed him and cast him out
Leaving parts of his story out 

Two shots, goodbye

Thoughts Becoming Actions *Explicit*

Track 1 “Voice Of A Visionary”

Lyrics 

(Will you follow the world)
I won’t follow the world
(Follow the world)
I bet you’d follow the world
(Will follow the world)
And I won’t follow the world 
(Follow the world)

-V1-

Hey
(And I won’t follow the world)

Generation Y is fucked 
Spray tan bitches, your shit out of luck 
Fall in line to, twisted lies 
Riding out till the end of time 

Go, till everybody is dead 

-Chorus-

So take my hand now, it’s do or die 
(Till we’re all just dead)
No use being angry forever and live to try
Cross these bridges where the horizon meets the sun 
Here’s a story of better friends where the battles almost won

-V2-

My veins are broken 
I ain’t sore or weak
And so you lay this filter upon my cheek
You bitch 
Won’t you hold me 
(Look into these eyes with your petty lies)
One more night 
(Look into these eyes)
Don’t give a shit what you want from me 
(Look into my eyes with your petty lies)
It’s all a lie
(Look into my eyes)

Until we’re all just dead 

-Chorus-

So take my hand now, it’s do or die 
(Dont look just run)
No use being angry forever and live to try 
Cross these bridges, where the horizon meets the sun
(Until we’re all just dead)
Here’s a story of better friends 
(We’re dead)
Where the battles almost won

-Bridge-

(So shine your light on my town)
So when a question becomes a pain my dear
And everyone you still need is here 
(And id love to try)
But everyone you don’t want is right 
They don’t do it for the answers
But they’ll do it for tonight 

-Breakdown-
 
Yo big man with your one bad hand 
(Drawing and drawing the lines)
Hope you can see everyone else give a damn
(Drawing and drawing the whole room full of lines)
Maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll drown 
Either way you’re getting put in the ground 

Visionary of forgotten light 
(Your light)
Hold the screen down, we’ll win this fight 

So I need you to run

-Chorus-

Take my hand now, it’s do or die
(Don’t look just run)
No use being angry forever and live to try 
(Until we’re all just dead)
Cross these bridges where the horizon meets the sun 
(Into the light)
Here’s a story of better friends where the battles almost won
(We’re proud, we’re proud)

-Outro-

Yeah come on
(And as we ride off into the sunset I hope you that remember you chose a generation)
Sick of it all
(That will turn black and will hate)
You’re run down 
(And destroy everything and make everything go up in flames before your very fucking eyes)

Voice Of A Visionary

Uncovered 

Basically I didn’t want to do any crazy artwork so I left in “Uncovered” 
Now I’ll uncover all my covers...

Subway Joe (Joe Bataan Cover)

20/20 (Strawhorse Cover)

Reading My Eulogy Part V
Using Machines 
October 31st, 2020

V1

We gather here to commemorate
Our dear friend who cashed in his chips today 
His girl she came on through to collect her things 
He was lost in a future, now from a rope he’d swing 

C

So tell me why is this happening
And these roses lay dead at my feet 
As I read my eulogy 

V2

A decade of songs, there’s nothing left to say 
And now that you are gone 
I start to miss your face 

Crystal clear you’ve gone a drift 
With these hexes that you should dismiss 
What an atrocity 
Would you help me define this scene 

C

Tell me why is this happening 
And your roses lay dead at my feet 
As I read my eulogy 

Sorry that it took too long 
And would they miss you if you’re gone?
Don’t think so

Reading My Eulogy Part V

Vindicated Part IV 
Using Machines 
October 31st, 2020

Lyrics 

V1

I’m the sun as it dies 
Consuming everything that waits outside 
A supernova without champagne 
Vindicated I am the flame

C

I am the flame 
I am the pressure that killing me 

You push till I’m out of reach 

V2

My loss all reinforcing the demons 
Digging a hole into my chest 
Just when I thought I was blessed 
I said goodbye 

Bridge 

It’s all too much of a compromise 
It got to me, so honestly
I think I’ll pack my things 
Cuz this has gone on long enough 
Just like the suffering you always bring 
Take your apology away from me 
You call this love?

V2

I’m the world as it turns black 
It’s so far gone see there’s no going back 
It starts with 19 ends in 84
New speak tyrants with bad ideas 
And there’s more

B

Can’t stand all the entitlement 

Have you ever been nothing 
There’s a curve we must learn 
No we won’t be discussing 
The ways in which you would burn 

C

I am the flame 
I am the pressure that’s killing me

Vindicated Part IV

Cliches Part III
Using Machines 
October 31st, 2020

Lyrics 

V1

Something is taking the light from the end of the tunnel once again 
Good thing I made a practice out of suffering 
Could you send a sign to my unworthy soul 
Oh I never could listen and where should I begin 
I’ve lost control

C

You look away, like clearly I’m the freak 
And that feeling I let it make me weak 
I didn’t ask for attention
And I wasn’t proud, yet I’m always sticking out 
Cliches are boring 
They’re boring now 
You bore me now 

V2

Nowadays when I lose my visions
People are petty and shallow since the web it got to wide 
Out of place, I won’t play the victim 
You wouldn’t care, so why the fuck should I?

C

You look away, like clearly I’m the freak 
And so my face I never let them see 
I didn’t need a correction 
In my constant doubt I’m sure in time you’ll figure out 
Cliches are boring 
They’re boring now

Cliches Part III

Parallel Lines Part II
Using Machines 
October 31st, 2020

Lyrics 

V1

I think you’re right
I’ll explode like dynamite and fly 
So this new low is getting me down 
And I’ve been told I’m fine 
And it’s getting old 

C

As the seasons change 
Bring the summer rain 
And the lines on the road 
Eating the sun, I relate 
Nobody cares till they’ve rubbed away 

V2

So once again I must insist 
The truth will fall for decadence 
Oh sweet integrity 
So desperate for room to breathe 
Karma’s perfect timing 

For now I’ll just around and take this shit and fry
Deep down I dare to feel 
Most of the past was never real, it died 
My ego suicide, goodbye 

C

As the seasons change 
Bring the summer rain 
There’s a smell in the air 
Thinking of you your fiery state 
Nobody care till it’s too late 

Nobody care till it’s too late 

Parallel the lines are paved

Parallel Lines Part II

Miserable Part I
Using Machines 
October 31st, 2020

Lyrics

V1

Drown yourself
In diamonds and fancy things 
You should choke yourself 
I think my cutter is what you need 
And you think that I’m not here 
You’re gone as quick as the cheapest colognes
Convex is the apex into paths unknown

I wonder where the river would go 

C

We got lost for too long 
And it’s my song, watch me tell all the world 
Things were simple then 
We had to watch it end 

The dead calm of red dawn 
Sitting on my lawn, and you never knew I was miserable, not like that mattered either way 

V2

It was the finest escape I’ve seen thus far 
Now I’m over concerned with the state of your heart 
And come to think of it, I’d love to stick a knife inside 
And you kicked me when I’m down 
And so all I want is to end this ride

C

It’s all because we got lost for too long 
And it’s my song, watch me tell all the world 
Things were simple then 
We had to watch it end 

The dead calm of red dawn 
Sitting on my lawn, and you never knew I was miserable, not like that mattered either way 


I used to say “carrying the dream I try to sleep again”
But it’s should’ve been 
“Carrying the dream I’m losing sleep, your fucking killing me”

Miserable Part I

Lyrics 

V1

Behold the rug of broken glass
Mainlined and so cheap 
It’s funny how things don’t seem to last 
In a time so cold and bleak 
Never meant that much to me 

V2

Your newspaper columns they make me laugh 
They write of the rising regime 
Where you can say what you want 
But you can never say that 
Is it words that make you scream?
It won’t take too long to see 

B

Hating the present I thought I knew 
And now I can see what the people do 
They’re cheating me and babe they’re cheating you 
Seasons are here to change 
You bankrupt the country and who will pay 
You’ve consciously chosen our fate 
So you can live a while longer 
While society turns out your daughter
Your always dressed to impress
But you can’t maintain your game of chess

V3

4 rooms to my left in the jailhouse hall 
Lived a man named pistol Pete 
He resides in the city of motor cars 
There spent driving at high speeds
Then he shot it up his sleeve 
It’s just part of the routine 
On the edge of 17

Pistol Pete

Lyrics 

V1 

Don’t need a light to medicate 
The clock is wrong on the floor where I lay 
Wicked word got around my head 
That I want revolution but want my own death 
In a realm of dissonance, everyone hides 

Pre C

Is 2018 alright?
Be asleep in the fire 

C

And set cruise when you’ve had enough
I stepped on through cause I hadn’t 
And I do it again 

V2

All the 21st century lingo 
Shaping America with virtue signals and it’s bad
It’s all pretend
Do superstars make better people?
Mr. Hollywood, could you get me my sequel?
Gonna try, your false idols must die 

Pre C

So 2018 ain’t alright
But get your version today 

C

And set cruise when you’ve had enough 
I stepped on through cause I hadn’t 
And the orpheus they call the sun
It starts to open up

It took a big dream your babe had to cut 
My conscious turn to dust

Now killing is a must

C

Set cruise when you’ve had enough 
And step on through if you haven’t 
And orpheus they call the sun 
The one you gotta love 
Dilated and trapped in a wave I had to cut 
Eyes sown shut

False Idols

Lyrics 

V1

4 am is here too quick 
I burnt myself on cigarettes that nowadays I want to quit 
It’s getting tough 
Now that I’ve been crystal clear, I can watch the better days, they’re motioning to disappear 
While shaping us, they don’t bother waiting up 

C

Changes, the passing train I’ll never see 
And if you don’t mind I hope you’ll let me take a seat
But they kick me off in some place that no one goes
Used to lies so much more than you could ever know

Is this life?
No course in the road 

V2

Radio it plays a tune, I turn it off and catch a cough to sleep away the afternoon 
I’m out of touch 
Am I getting through to you?
All the years have come and gone and now your on to something new 
Without the crutch, I’m left feeling stuck 

Bridge 

Why oh why so difficult to read 
How could I feel alright, you got me on my knees 
Please just let me get to sleep 
I’d give about anything, this make believe 
Will take away everything 

C

Changes, the passing train I’ll never see 
And if you don’t mind I hope you’ll let me take a seat
But you kick me off in some place that no one goes
Used to lies, yours meant more than you could ever know

B

When your thoughts are jaded, overrated 
Glossy eyed and sitting still 
Lost forever, gone together 
Hate you all and always will

I always will x2

C

Changes, the passing train I’ll never see 
And if you don’t mind I hope you’ll let me take a seat
But you kick me off in some place that no one goes
No surprise, how it’s hard for me to let you go

Better Days

Lyrics 

V1

What a burden to bear well
Would anybody care at all
This incubus it takes your wrists
And puts them where he wants 
Only where he wants 

C1

You should be afraid 
They left you ashamed 

A stray 
Yeah, I’m standing tall for you in the worst of times
Tell me why

V2

You’ve hidden in this underworld 
Where nothing can shine 
And all of its creatures are eating you alive 
This ain’t a lecture but it’s good to know 
I think our innocence had long dissipated 

C2

With nothing to gain 
Cold and afraid 
Stray to stray, no one will keep you safe 

B

It keeps you safe x6
They get to leave, you move on with the pain 

Why?
They leave, you move on with the pain

Outro 

Another mistake, so fun 
And love was misplaced with one 
Another mistake, so fun 
And love was misplaced with one

Stray 2 Stray

Lyrics 

V1 

Reach for the sky
This is a robbery but I’m giving it to charity 
And don’t ask me why 
Alinsky said never waste a good tragedy 
Then came the planes and the bombs 
And no one can explain the calm before the storm 
I’ll find you out 

C

So don’t let it haunt you 
Go do what you want to 
If life was way too short to play this game 
If nobody’s perfect, then what makes it worth it 
You want another start, just turn the page 

We could fly away 

I got something to say 

V2 
Reach for the sky
This is a robbery but I’m giving it to charity 
Shadazz man
Our purple afternoon would get dark 
What a night to pass along quietly 
Escape down these cobblestone paths 
Lit by gas lamps 

Freedom for me to abuse 
Treason is my tool to use 

C x2

So don’t let it haunt you 
Go do what you want to 
If life was way too short to play this game 
If nobody’s perfect, then what makes it worth it 
You want another start, just turn the page

Blacklisted

Lyrics

V1 

So help me god, life or death, I cannot choose
Soon I won’t refuse 

Bridge 

Given my choices, I rinse and then repeat
And drink on her poison, she’s always lovely 
She thinks there’s a spirit watching over me 
Just beyond the dream, I don’t listen 

I wrote you in this rhyme 

V2 

So Jesus cries, sensation became abuse 
There’s nothing left to prove 

Bridge 2

The grass seems much greener 
Just across the street 
Where love is a creature that beckons upkeep
And I’m not a preacher, I’ve never been a thief 
She’d really like to leave, this prison

Chorus

I’ll show you all now 
Thanks for keeping covered 
She shows you all now 
How these things they never change 
We’ll show you all now 
The things I’ve discovered 
We’ll show you all now 
Just before I fade away 

Outro

Stars in her eyes, 3 of a perfect pair 
Remember wandering here in your garden 
When no one cared

Meant 4 More Than This

Musician/Poet
Featuring my unreleased material from former bands and current projects ☠️

RJ Clark

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