lyrics**

can’t tell if i’m getting better or worse
smoking less but my body hurts
said i’m happy now,
but i don’t really mean a single word
and i think you know me better than i do

can’t tell if the days are longer or short
time goes by and i’m getting bored 
can’t tell if it’s just me or if it’s the universe
but i think i feel things more than you
more than you

and i wanna be comfortable (i wanna be)
but i’ve never been comfortable ( i wanna be)
is something wrong with the way i learned
to love
why do i feel i’m never enough?
i’m never enough

a broken clock hanging off the wall
but that’s not slowing down time at all
i wish that i could press pause
and disappear for a while
cause i think i feel things more than i should

and i wanna be comfortable (i wanna be)
but i’ve never been comfortable (i wanna be)
i think i’ve learned all wrong,
there’s something off with me
why do i feel like you want me to leave?
like i should leave

comfortable

lyrics**

now the grass is getting greener,
now my rooms a little cleaner. 
i look back at where i started
i used to fall apart
ill with a broken heart

today i taught myself to breathe
now that you’re gone it’s up to me
remember when i called you crying
i don’t remember how
but you just calmed me down

do you remember (you remember, you remember)
do you remember (you remember, you remember)

always one step, one step backwards
never happy ever after
don’t believe a thing i say
i can’t make up my mind
things that i’ve left behind

do you remember (you remember, you remember)
do you remember (you remember, you remember)

do you remember (you remember, you remember)
do you remember (you remember, you remember)

i’ve said some shit i’d like to forget
hoping you’ll answer my calls again
i am willing to start over
and i’ll be there this time
girl you can’t change my mind

do you remember (you remember, you remember)
do you remember (you remember, you remember)

do you remember (you remember, you remember)
do you remember (you remember, you remember)

do u remember?

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isn’t this what you want
isn’t this what you asked me here for
isn’t this who you are
someone to take it off and spin for
spitting up blood and words i don’t mean
starving to fit the perfect body

now i’m a stranger to myself
but it’s nice to feel like someone else

i wanna be good for you
good for you, i wanna be good for you
good for you

didn’t it last a while
didn’t it last until my bones were too weak
couldn’t you have been the one?
couldn’t you have been the one to miss me?
cause it’s been far too long
gripping tight to the weight i carry
on my back

but i’ll never be good for you (good for you)
good for you, i‘ll never be good for you
good for you, i’ll never be

isn’t it beautiful
isn’t it kind of terrifying
that i might lose control
locked in a car that you’ve been driving
isn’t this what you wanted from me?

good for you, good for you i’ll never be
never be, never be
never be good for you
good for you

good for you

**lyrics

i love the rain
but hate the gray sky
so i moved away
now i can’t sleep through the night

i just needed space
just needed some spare time
to hide
now i’m too high

to take the reigns
to finally find
what makes me afraid
and fight fears i feel in my mind

to become awake
and be here in my life
and be real cause it’s time

i’ve been holding on to something
cause i can’t let go
can’t let go
waiting up for something
oh but i don’t know
i don’t know
what i’m waiting for
oh i don’t know what i’m waiting for

if i ask to stay
cause you tame my grave mind
would you turn me away
cause you have had enough of mine

and you needed space
but less when you are high and dry
calling me up at night

i’ve been holding on to you
because i can’t let go
can’t let go
waiting up for you when i don’t even know
even know
what i’m waiting for
oh i don’t know what i’m waiting for

if i could read what’s in your mind
and see if we were even on the same page
been leaving heavy thoughts on your brain

if i could weave between the lines
you know i tell you all the time and it’s strange
i really need you in my life to feel sane

what am i waiting for

recorded this one when i was 18 with a broken 58 mic lol

lyrics***

time spent faded
starry summer nights with you
and evenings wasting
laying on your bed til 2

well rumors drifting
that you found someone new
and this feeling of missing you

and i’ve been thinking bout you
all that you do and did
and it sucks that i’m falling for you
all over again 

oh just thinking bout you
and the way that you held me like that
but i hate when i’m thinking bout you
cause i wish that you never left

if i let you in again
after all this time i spent
hating you for what you did
and wishing i was over it

well now i’m done with you
you never let me love you
i wish i’d realized what you do
before i fell
before i fell in love with you

paper hearts were ripping at the seems
and plans made, canceled
kissing you on new year’s eve

and now she’s over
and i don’t know what to do
and angers rising
because i’m still in love with you

and i’ve been thinking bout you
all that you do and did
and it sucks that i’m falling for you
all over again 

oh just thinking bout you
and the way that you held me like that
but i hate when i’m thinking bout you
cause i wish that you never left

if i let you in again
after all that time i spent
hating you for what you did
and wishing i was over it

so now i’m done with you
you never let me love you
i wish i’d realized what you do
before i fell
before i fell in love with you

before i fell in love

before i fell in love

another old one i found deep in my files :)

lyrics***

it’s 1 am
i’ve got your pictures laid out on the carpet

by 2 am
i’m drunk and sad

at 3 am 
start reminiscing bout that one blurry,
starry night in june that we had

if only you could tell me what went wrong
if only you didn’t string me right along
cause maybe i’d be over it now
and no one had to know
that i was hurting at all

wake up at 6 am
to the sunlight blazing through my window

7 am and you’re on my mind

at 8 am
i try to forget you,
but it never works for me at all
guess i’ll just pretend

if only you could tell me what went wrong
if only you didn’t string me right along
cause maybe i’d be over it now
and no one had to know
that i was hurting at all

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i look to you
you’re sweet as candy
talk my ear off
through red wine and brandy

taken all summer
to find that feeling
you feel when you’re younger
i feel like i’m spinning

oh take me back there
back to that tree
that looks over mountains
and rivers and creeks

i feel so big here
invincible
if only i lived here
with you alone
and nobody’d know

cause if we removed all the bull shit
then maybe we’d make it
or maybe we crash
but i’d rather find out i hate you
then always be waiting for us
i don’t have the patience to wait for ya

silently starin into the sky
moves kinda slowly compared to that night
the first time you kissed me
you looked in my eyes
you said that you’ll missed me
and i cried
i wanted to be next to you at all times

but i should’ve left that party
left you without me
show you how it feels
to be brushed off forgotten
and pushed to the bottom of you

cause i could’ve really been something
if you hadn’t got to me first
now every time i write about you it hurts

i look to you

***lyrics

bittersweet right to the end
what do i call you
a lover or a friend
and will you miss me
when i’m out here
keeping busy
so that i don’t disappear

memories of last night spin
round my apartment
oh let the games begin
i’m already dizzy
thinking of you
do you miss me
are you thinking of me too

i need to know
need somethin to go off of
and i’d be fine alone
but i’d rather hold ya

so baby take it slow
and let me take you higher
and i don’t want to get burned
but i’ll play with fire

your eyes glow
is it trick of the moon
what am i doing
falling so soon
don’t wanna blow this
but i’m used to
making messes
out of people like you

i got to know
show me something my love
i might be fine alone
but you know that i’d rather hold ya

but we’ll take it slow
and watch the flames grow higher
and i don’t want to get burned
but i’ll play with fire

play with fire

**lyrics

a cold shoulder to cry on
guess i took it for granted
who i can rely on

unread books on the nightstand
and my hand inside of my pillow
just wanted to sleep tonight
but it’s never that simple

don’t take her from me
she’s already gone
packed up the boxes
and moved along

don’t tell me it’s over
when i’ve only begun
to look for that feeling
i thought might be love

getting used to the mundane
getting used to the silence
with my eyes on the ceiling
sinking into my mattress

said i’d never go back there
they’d be scared to see me like this now
i slept soundly all night long
god, i wish i could remember how

don’t take her from me
she’s already gone
packed up all the boxes
and moved along

don’t tell me it’s over
when i’ve only begun
to look for that feeling
i thought might be love

might be love

queer la based singer/songwriter
alternative/indie
instagram: ellagrace.music

i wrote, recorded, and produced these songs at home on garage band

if you like what you hear i will record them for real in an actual studio !! <3

ella grace

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