Once someone, SOMEONE CALLED STEP-DAD, told me that the reason why I was upset wasn't valid, That.. Just reminded me from now on to NEVER EVER EVER share my feelings with MY parents, Family, or anyone else. Because If HE thought the reason I was upset was stupid and I shouldn't be mad, why even share my feelings? This was when I was like ten, but I never really forgot what he said to me. I never forgot ANYTHING all those people told me. I don't wanna go home, because home doesn't even feel like home anymore.

i need to feel this pain so i can try and crawl away when you say my name

The police came to my house because my friend sent my poems to some teachers and they called the police. I had to go to consoling and get a social worker. I love this song! Love you Bowie 🩷🩷🩷

Bandaids

I was just a kid but I learned much too fast  
Found the internet way too young a scar that would last 
And you know that I hate thinking someone else did this to me
But I had all the resources because of your enabling
And sometimes I wonder if I didn’t hurt so bad 
Would I have been more lovable to my mom and my dad 
And if I went back in time to see six year old me
Id say this shit does not get better this is who you’re meant to be and

I am a monster so you say
I do this on purpose anyway 
I need to feel this pain so I can
I try to crawl away when you say my name 
Hold me down and scream at me
You say this is where I deserve to be 
So keep pretending that you love me
And I’ll believe you although you never show it to me

“Wow you’re such a quiet kid” they all would say to me
Don’t call me an old soul when I’m just unhappy 
You treated me like an adult when I was still so young
 You ask what you did wrong but you fucking knew it all along
I know that I was difficult or I knew that’s how you felt
I was told that I was selfish when I needed fucking help 
I remember when I lied to you I ran away and hid
You didn’t have to hurt me I was just a little kid
I was just a little kid 
I am still a little kid 

I am a monster so you say
I do this on purpose anyway 
I need to feel this pain so I can
I try to crawl away when you say my name 
Hold me down and scream at me
You say this is where I deserve to be 
So keep pretending you love me
And I’ll believe you, I’ll believe you 

I am a monster so you say
I do this on purpose anyway 
I need to feel this pain so I can
I try to crawl away when you say my name 
Hold me down and scream at me
You say this is where I deserve to be 
So keep pretending you love me
I’ll believe you but you’ll never show it to me

Pretend You Love Me

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Pretty For You

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Innocent Consent  by Caroline Carr

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They told her she’d never conceive. Not in whispers. Not with compassion. Just cold certainty from doctors, specialists, and the system that gave up too soon. Against All Odds is Belle J’s raw, soul-stirring anthem of defiance, hope, and the miracle of believing when no one else does. With haunting vocals and stripped-back production, this track is for every woman who’s been dismissed, every body that’s been doubted, and every heart that kept hoping anyway.

Let it play for the ones who were told “never” and proved them wrong.
This is my personal story to inspire you NEVER GIVE UP I proved specialists wrong severe endometriosis wrapped throughout my organs over 13 operations.

Against All Odds

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