WHY DOES THIS ACTUALLY SOUND OKAY WTFFF
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LYRICS:  

I really hope my friends know I'm lying 
Idk why I keep denying 
This got me thinking I'm fucking dying 
I dont want it to end 
Well not yet 
I'm not really trying to stay sober 
I dont really want it to take over x2 

Don't come over 
You can't help me 
I don't want it 
Come cry over me 
My dead body 
It's pretty lifeless 
Just excuse all the scars on my thigh now 
To the people that's looking at my dead body 
Don't worry 
I've finally got my place in the stars now 
And I'll do it over again now 

I really hope my friends know I'm lying 
Idk why I keep denying 
This got me thinking I'm fucking dying 
I dont want it to end 
Well not yet 
I'm not really trying to stay sober 
I dont really want it to take over 

I really hope my friends know I'm lying 
Idk why I keep denying 
I keep denying it
keep denying it 
Maybe I'm just tryna keep myself safe from it 
I know its not something you can run from 
But maybe I'm already doing it 

I really hope my friends know I'm lying 
Idk why I keep denying 
This got me thinking I'm fucking dying 
I dont want it to end 
No not yet 
I'm not really trying to stay sober 
Don't really want it to take over x2

I'm dying (lilsmokez x whiz)

bit muffled cba to fix it now lol 
this song is shit also :D
wanna slit my wrist and die but we move 
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LYRICS- 

Going through it again 
Don't wanna play pretend 
Memories come back at me 
Tell me how to breathe 
I know you're not happy 
How i deal with it 
Just tryna live with it 
I’d  wish you’d understand 
understand how it feels on the inside 
You know it's slowly killing me 
I don't wanna try 
I’m fucking anxious every time i step outside 
That's why when i go out 
It's always night time  

Going through it again 
Don't wanna play pretend 
Memories come back at me 
Tell me how to breathe 
I know you're not happy 
How i deal with it 
Just tryna live with it 
I’d  wish you’d understand 
understand how it feels on the inside 
You know it's slowly killing me 
I don't wanna try 
I’m fucking anxious every time i step outside 
That's why when i go out 
It's always night time 

I wish i could explain all the hate in my head 
I wish i could tell you that i'm crying all the time again 
I wish i could tell you that i wanna kms again 
I wish i could go bury it but it dont work like that 

It don't work like that 
But i work like that 
Imma drink up 
Yeah don't bother about waking up 
Don't bother i dont care 
What you really fucking think 
I do it anyway 
So fuck it all i guess 

Going through it again 
Don't wanna play pretend 
Memories come back at me 
Tell me how to breathe 
I know you're not happy 
How i deal with it 
Just tryna live with it 
I’d  wish you’d understand 
understand how it feels on the inside 
You know it's slowly killing me 
I don't wanna try 
I’m fucking anxious every time i step outside 
That's why when i go out 
It's always night time

wish I could tell you (w8nston)

Wow, you're turning into a skellington…. yes 
the pain never ends you must be nUmb 
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LYRICS - 
I keep on fucking up 
My friends have had enough 
It feels like i'm losing it
Think i wanna give it up
Maybe if i hurt enough 
That'll finally be enough 
Sick of being cornered up 
This ain’t even fun no more 
wish i didn’t fuck it up 
So badly like i have 
My friends don’t want me no more 
Finally wanna call it quit 

I’m hanging at the door 
Don’t want this anymore 
I can’t really take it 
I ain’t lying anymore 
Every days a living hell 
I wish you could understand that
I’m gonna kill myself 
Think about it everyday now

I’ll never tell you that 
Ik you don't wanna hear it
Ik that you're sick of me 
Ik i'm barely breathing 

Crying every night is hard now 
Thought i got used to this
Looking for some fucking closure 
Thought i got a grip of it 
Getting drunk to solve my problems 
Alcohol kills the feelings 
But I’m still a nervous reck 
Sick of feeling so depressed 

I keep on fucking up 
My friends have had enough 
It feels like i'm losing it
Think i wanna give it up
Maybe if i hurt enough 
That'll finally be enough 
Sick of being cornered up 
This ain’t even fun no more 
wish i didn’t fuck it up 
So badly like i have 
My friends don’t want me no more 
Finally wanna call it quit 

I hate that they’ll never understand how i really feel 
I don’t know to tell you how it really is 

I keep on fucking up 
My friends have had enough 
It feels like i'm losing it
Think i wanna give it up
Maybe if i hurt enough 
That'll finally be enough 
Sick of being cornered up 
This ain’t even fun no more 
wish i didn’t fuck it up 
So badly like i have 
My friends don’t want me no more 
Finally wanna call it quit

MURDER FANTASY

crying for someone to notice my pain 
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LYRICS-
I just wanna kms 
I just don't know to do anymore 
I'm sick of waking up every fucking day 
I'm not needed here i'll just go away 
Don't chase me into the woods i fucking pray 
I’ll hunt you down if you come to find me now
No one is allowed to see me 
Respect my fucking privacy right now 

Tried to kill myself with alcohol 
I'm getting closer every time i try  
My body is weak and dizzy all the time 
Someone help me out this mess i've made 
My family want me to get a fucking grip
I know my friends feel the same way as well 
I just feel so lost in this hell 
Please, I don't know how to help myself :( 

I just wanna kms 
I just don't know to do anymore 
I'm sick of waking up every fucking day 
I'm not needed here i'll just go away 
Don't chase me into the woods i fucking pray 
I’ll hunt you down if you come to find me now
No one is allowed to see me 
Respect my fucking privacy right now

KILLINGMY$ELF988$TYLE (SAIGX)

 dead yami <33
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LYRICS:-
let's hope I dont blow my brains out 
let's hope I work this out now 
let's hope I can stay on this path now 
get my money up 
dont give a fuck now 
dont hit me up 
I know that you're fake now 
give me some time lemme work now
you can use me after dont worry
just want someone to love me 

I feel bad coz I'm still suicidal 
so if the chances there imma take it
I dont know how to get out if it 
I'm just so fucking sorry 
don't think I'll ever learn my lesson 
lifes not ment to fucking be like this 
gonna run myself into the ground now
I just want it all to end now

let's hope I dont blow my brains out 
let's hope I work this out now 
let's hope I can stay on this path now 
get my money up 
dont give a fuck now 
dont hit me up 
I know that you're fake now 
give me some time lemme work now
you can use me after dont worry
just want someone to love me 

and am still getting drunk all the time now 
and am still cutting at my fucking thigh now
guess I haven't really fucking changed 
but I don't really care now 
coz I'm doing this shit my way 
give me 1 year and I'll show ya 
just what its like to be me
you could never do this xoxo 

$uicidal but we slay now :3 (dead yami)

silly girl thinking you're better than me coz your family ain't a joke 
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LYRICS:- 
you're not better than me 
you don't wanna die 
why you gotta be a stuck up little bitch for
just because mum and dad are together all married 
you ain't shit to me no more 

you can shove your stupid car up your fucking face 
say I've changed but I don't care tho 
we all know you've changed as well 
so why you acting all fucking special for 

x2

get a grip you're not special like me XD (irlshitbih x SHER33)

I'm very fucking lonely \ü/ 
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LYRICS:-
I feel so alone 
Can't do this anymore 
I just wanna fall to the floor 
I’ve put the blade down now 
I'm just wasting my time 
No amount of hurt can fix this now 
I feel so alone 
Someone just hear me out 

Someone hear me out 
I feel so alone 
I ain’t even got anyone on my phone 
Who the fuck wanna talk now
I'm done with myself 
Same conversations over again 
I'm just looking for a friend 
Why is everything so hard now 
Why aren’t you here when i need it the most 
Thought we were friends 
What the fuck is this 
Why can’t you just hit me up

Why can’t you just hit me up
It’s taking the piss 
I’m there for you over again 
When's the table gonna turn
Are you ever gonna hear me out
I’m tired of this 
I’m crying on the floor again 
I just wanna fall to the fucking floor 
Hang myself from the fucking ceiling 
I’m so fucking done with this

loner (sheepy x staywoozy)

this is what a conversation with myself sounds like
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LYRICS:-
Tell me as i sit here that its gon be alright 
Tell me that i'm not a waste of my time 
Tell me that in the long run its gon be alright 
Tell me that i'm gonna get what i want now 
Tell me that i haven’t sold my soul just yet 
Tell me that i’m just being stupid and it's not real 
Tell me as i sit here thats it gon be alright 
Tell me that i’ve got a grip and i'll be just fine 

Being alone is a feeling i wanna get used too 
I invite you round to get wasted and we make out
Ik you don’t like me like that and i don't blame you 
you're giving me mixed signals 
Slit my wrists and kill me off now
I just wish you could see how bullshit human life is 
It’s so clear and obvious to me 
Why aren’t you getting it 
We’re born to live and die
Like what's the fucking point in it 
Idk i just feel like its a waste of time for me

Tell me as i sit here that its gon be alright 
Tell me that i'm not a waste of my time 
Tell me that in the long run its gon be alright 
Tell me that i'm gonna get what i want now 
Tell me that i haven’t sold my soul just yet 
Tell me that i’m just being stupid and it's not real 
Tell me as i sit here thats it gon be alright 
Tell me that i’ve got a grip and i'll be just fine 

I feel i'm still wasting my time tryna like myself 
See how the bullshit world really fucking works now
Makes you feel insecure and small until ya kys 
Throws you into an abusive family environment
makes you hate yourself
Takes away all your favourite people you took up to
Find it on your own its all you really got now 
Can’t rely on no one else coz they all fake now 
Omfg i wanna blow my fucking brains out

brontosaurus \ü/

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