Depressing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YJ0w685tKMw


music video

dont mind me

he was to be judged. 
ʎpoqou: @gothfuccboi 


lay me in the reservoir(nothing,nowhere. x ʎpoqou)

everything (prod. oilcolor)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtcvwHXJipg

opposite ends of the room, love is there but there's a distance i can't undo.
i built it all up in my head, felt the same but somehow differently or unsaid.

a fire so red could last until we're both dead, but i've been burned before, it's a cliche but my scars are still sore.

i want to take back everything i told you and remember all the times i would hold you. maybe you don't know who i am, maybe i was scared and ran. 
goodbye is hard to do, especially without "i love you."

opposite ends of the state, happiness once was enough to know what i pushed away. but that is SO fucking cheap. you deserve better than that, you deserve better than me.


i want to take back everything i told you and remember all the times i would hold you. maybe you don't know who i am, maybe i was scared and ran. 
goodbyes are hard to do, especially without "i love you."

opposites *NOW ON SPOTIFY<3* (video link in description)

https://soundcloud.com/scummusic
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I don't wanna feel anything anymore
i just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I remember everything from the time that you left my side
Wiping the tears 'no don't fuck with my eyes'
Biding my time, i wanna try 
Just to forget you but i feel alive 
Oh please take my life
Please take my life
Its the best time to die
Like now, i wanna right now 
I wanna die

I don't wanna feel anything anymore
I just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I dont wanna live in a world without you
Even after al the shit you put me through
You're still the one 
Night grow cold and I'm alone
And you don't ever pick up the phone when i call
So let me die here

Let Me Die Here w/ scum (prod. trxpicvl )

letdown

Prod:
https://soundcloud.com/fats_e
https://soundcloud.com/keeper92

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I can't do this (Prod. fats'e x keeper)

wasted on you (ft. 93FEETOFSMOKE and KING CHRISTIAN)

luna has risen

also available on:

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spotify, and all other major music stores.

lying in the snow
so cold 
please dont leave me tomorrow
pressure on my shoulders
feels like boulders
i might crumble

be my sanctuary
you might save me
let the waves take me
on on on i wander
all alone
beneath the surface

watch me drift among
the stars and moon and sun
my journeys just begun
but all ive done is run
take away the pain
the silence of the rain
skin and bones remain
fragments of fragile remains


its time we stopped this pointless nonsense
pick yourself up its not worth it
they just wanna see you down
but miss you when youre not around

youre wasting all your time on this
thats all you do is overthink
i know you wish for this to end
i know you wish for this to end

i cant fucking stay this way
burn my body to a blaze
ash and skin and bone remain
lay me to rest in the rain x4

luna

download

sanctuary pt. 2 🌠

luna has risen

also available on:

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spotify, and all other major music stores.

take me away from this path that i follow
its left me hopeless and empty and hollow

will i stay asleep forever
nothings the same as i remember

i still bite my nails like i learned when i was seven
and i still remember that car that you left in

so i close my eyes and hope that tomorrow
brings brighter lights and respite from my sorrow

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way [x2]

my eyes are still sleepy just like when you kissed me
just let me be alone i dont care if you miss me

numb and cold and scared to be away
from those i love im heartless anyway

im scared of the day i wake up and im 18
the walls of my room are collapsing please save me

dream a dream and hope for that one day
you come to life and feel like youre something

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way 

nobody
nobody

nobody 😔

your backyard

Download - https://we.tl/IggAhqivaV

prod. by migu

lyrics

whether its dark or the sky is lit up
whatever the time if my eyes open i get up
if you are not helping me i do not wanna hear wait up
you were asleep every night that i stayed up
time steady passin its hard to keep my balance
i know thinkings normal but i over thought to the point of damage
cannot reverse it dna cursed 
every 24 hours curl and twist these blunts like cursive
tight rope walker world down below
watch your breathe and your step for it you dont youll go

minor setback nightmares never go on vacation
i need a second to breathe my lungs are waiting for confirmation

UNRENDERED

Bones - MinorSetback

A mashup of both songs that i love. 

(cover)
(lyrics video)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E5P9KInqMig&feature=youtu.be

@lilxlotus
@tddybrr

Can't Do This/Anxious

@qawikamri
@darkblu10314
@mountain-noise

LYRICS:
4 walls, white ones, scarred ones,
https://genius.com/Qawi-kamri-pull-a-gun-lyrics

SPOTIFY

Pull A Gun (w DarkBlu) (prod. Airocean)

[VERSE 1]
When every thought brings so much pain.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna feel anything.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna change.
Something in my brain,
Telling me to hate.
All I ever say,
I don't wanna change.
Something In my brain,
Won't go away.

[CHORUS]
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my bed and i'll finally lay in it.
Lay in it.
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
Ill lay in it.

[VERSE 2]
Backpacked on my own,
rather be fucked up all alone,
Airplane mode on my iPhone,
Running from a careless path I wish I'd never known,
But I know that...
Everyone that I believed in was holding me back,
Matter of fact,
I wasn't leaving because what I needed was space that I lacked,
I got off track,
Don't wanna do it by myself,
But I don't want no help,
The only way's to runaway
and write a story to tell.

[SPOKEN WORD]
Made a promise that I'd love myself
And a promise that I'd break it.
Made a promise that I'd get better 
And a promise that I'd fake it.
Promised myself that I'd give it up,
Give up everything you hated.
Made a promise that I'd enjoy my life, and a promise that I'd take it.

[CHORUS X3]

deathbed

banshee

Lotus killed it , check out his music <3
https://m.soundcloud.com/lilxlotus/sets

'We may never meet again , but we'll never forget eachother' 

Artwork by @Evanxflow
Mixed and mastered by Ronnie Scocozza

@yungscuffonline - Getting Worse ft. Lil Lotus (Prod. Zippy)

so long, goodbye (ft. Lil Lotus)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SvpxMwPtsbM

by the time you come back down I feel so low already
sleepy is a god 
Vocals recorded , mixed and mastered by Tristen Whitehead
Artwork by Cassie Podish

@yungscuffonline - Low Already(Prod. Sleepy)

the worthless

uncertain

the water

is rising



im choking

help me

i dont know how much more i can take



oh what a beautiful night it is

the wind is howling at my skin

inching me closer to the window

and im not scared at all



a walking corpse

cleanse my soul

rid me of all my impurities



or let me rot

6 feet deep

either ways fine with me





i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares



and i always think about how fucked up it is that we live our whole lives trying to please others



but we can never please ourselves 



day after day

night after night

its just never enough and it will never be enough



now everyday i just sit in this bed and feel sorry for myself and the cycle repeats like clockwork



years to months to days to hours to minutes to seconds



and i swear the only way out of this prison i put myself in is a bullet to my fucking head or a bottle of spilt pills



i need to learn

to just to give in

theres no point in fighting it anymore

Depressing

javary13