"Lynn" is the middle name of my mother. The lyrics to this song were actually from a letter I wrote when i was 14 yrs old. My parents sat us down and told us that while we knew mom was already sick, they were now going to define it.
The doctors told us there was a very large percentage chance that she had about 5 yrs left to live. And while it wasn't definite , there was a really good chance. This as you can imagine was pretty crushing. 
I didnt process it well at all

Growing up in a military family you most likely know one parent really well. Mostly because the other is deployed a lot, sometimes up to 8 months. And add to this the fact that i was already somewhat of a "momma's boy". I loved my dad, i revered him as well. but my mother was my primary caregiver.
She was the feeling of "home". No matter if you love home or hate Home it still holds weight. and you are not unaffected when it is rocked. And i loved home.

One day soon after i decided to write my mom a letter. I wrote it and put in where she could see. Then realized i wanted to be nowhere near her when she read it, so i ran away. to the other side of the military base. and hid behind a bus stop, packed with enough candy to last me a day or 2. My brother found me, i still have no freaking clue how. but he talked me out of staying, and we returned. I locked myself away in the bathroom for at least 6 hrs, and could not stop thinking about what she'd say. and if she'd be mad. finally i came out. She was there, i have no idea what she was feeling. i cant imagine. But we never said a word. She just hugged me.

The words you hear and read her are exactly what was in that letter.

"Lynn" The Aurora Borealis Project

Instrumental by Christian Becker
Vocals recorded at TW Soundworks

Lyrics:
Life is a looking glass 
Far too often reviewed posthumously
Rather than inside of the scene, 
Whilst the worlds a play we deliver the lines
Devoid of emotion but efficient in time
Oh what we wouldn't give to so many of these takes

Relive

Erode (Unmixed Version)

The Reason

Kse sounding song

Letting Go

I miss your voice
Our divide grows deeper
Every day I don't make that decision
The lines of love have been drawn
And I am stuck trying to imagine
a detour , and the perfect mind
 You bled for me.
What can i give you?
What is the sum of a man?
Failure and inconsistency,
Each and every time.
In moments I would die,
I would literally die for you.
And at times i would walk away.
Walk with my back to your life.
EMOTION IS AND WILL ALWAYS BE
THE DRIVER OF A BROKEN RACE.
What is the sum of grace?
Completion of the incomplete.
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In Moments

"Instead of Who I Am"

"Decay"  by The Aurora Borealis Project

Demo

I am incomplete.
Though i have longed for hope,
Though i believe it is there
I have not ascertained its fresh breath.
The wind blows a softer tune,
But it is still the song of despair.
The days when i heard of you were bright
Though you were miles away,
I still had reason to dream.
But the darkness has come.
And with its entrance, the exit of dreaming has taken place.
Why do we sing alone.  (Why do we sing without)
Is there beauty in solitude
Or have we romanticized the ideal of brokenheartedness

" A Softer Tune" ft. Drewsif Stalin

Truth Becomes the Teeth (Teaser)

(instrumental by Kevin Macdonald) featuring ThaHyyEst

Hope In You (instrumental by Kevin Macdonald) featuring ThaHyyEst

Instrumental by Noyan of NYN and Carthage
Lyrics:
Tonight I'll sing to you
It will open up every layer of me but the truth
Tonight I'll attempt leave the past behind
And I'll come up empty
Just like every other time.
You've sent a rescue boat and I sent it back without me
Tonight I'll try to remove the fiction between you and I
And ill endeavor at removing the friction
that is digging away at my relationship of lies
Tonight when I sing , I can only sing for the truth
Because there are two parts of me.
The one that does. And the one that doesn't want you
As if an ocean surrounding an island
That is the distance between where I used to be
and where I stand
And just like that piece of land
surrounded by the sea
Such is an exact representation of my beliefs
And the smallest part of me
Is what I wish could sing
Sing a song with a volume so great
You could hear through the miles and the crashing waves
From my heart to yours and my voice to your ears
Then maybe the water would turn from me
and instead wash away all these years
And every falsehood retreat with the tide
And somehow reveal a longstanding bridge
Between our lives.
And though it seems distant and too far a chance
This is why I sing, and this
Is my last romance

Vista Mare 2 (Last Romance) from the upcoming album "Last Romance"

"Do you remember love?
I do.
I remember the days when you used to love me too
When not a word in the language we speak
Could define the affection you had for me.
You would run the roads between want and need
Without stopping for regrets
Visiting both sides equally.
You see, there was a time when we boasted in our hopes
Now these are relics of a time past
They are ghosts
There is a chasm of truth in detail I choose not to light.
For a time I tried to remind you of us,
But where we once had vision
Now there is only night
And no fight in your fists
Just like us, you opened them up
And let go of everything we had to give
I've learned to leave to the wind 
The whispered wailings for times past
Then walk away , hoping they'll float 
Just like a songs notes
Of those times gone past
Then become the serenade of our great collapse"

Collapse

Barricade (Spoken Word)

Featuirng Drewsif Stalin and composed by Ian Wilmot

Lyrics
You are safe in my arms tonight
Ill watch over you
And care for your sleep
I will hold so careful
In my arms this life
That has been rocked
By the stormiest of seas
You are safe in my arms tonight
And though the world is jagged
I will walk for you my Dear
And when the vision is low
You can stay here
And though you shake
And though you tremble
I will not move

Hold You By The Aurora Borealis Project

Hold Of Hades marks the first chapter of a five part concept album called Resurrection. The first act is about a very conflicted and worn man. And though there are two very different voices calling to him, he is starting to listen to and give in to his demons. 

Hold of Hades

I have demons that speak to me 
They hold claws on my shoulders 
And regurgitate disease 
And I do not struggle. 
Though I know their presence 
I am gored by their thoughts 
And though my mind is separate 
I am steered their choice of direction 
Teeth caress my skin 
A few labored breaths then I feel them sinking in 
You are a distant voice screaming of resistance 
But not one step yet is reflective of my decision
(The story ends before it begins)
"And if you'd turn
and raise your gaze
Than you would see
Those aren't chains.
Turn Away!"
We are not conscious of 
Perdition's embrace.
Descend



Act 1: Hold of Hades

Act II: Continues the narrative from Hold of Hades. Here the the entertaining of the man's demons has lead to the tightening of their grip , and some of the darkest thoughts, visions, ...and voices he has ever heard. 

Hold onto insanity for a few moments
tasting the bitter winds of complexity untamed
The sky meets the water
The water the sky
the pearly white teeth of destruction
With a tempting glare of hope
Of momentary completion
Like a creature with no home
I am searching for a warm body.
Termination is more inviting than truth
Be overcome by the noiseless fury of frustration.
Breathe deep
Close your eyes
Leer over the ledge of the minds abyss
Succumb
I'm no longer sure of steps
Nor motivation
Nor of my ability to take them
Im pretty sure Id fall apart
Piece by decaying piece
I'd search for my slowing heart
And confirm its absence
Descend

Act II: Descend

*THE SONG IS CURRENTLY MAXED ON DOWNLOADS . SO I AM ADDING IT TO MY BANDCAMP FOR1.00 OR PAY WHAT YOU WANT at https://theauroraborealisproject.bandcamp.com/track/the-light-i-never-did-see-ft-drewsif-stalin-and-jarrod-alonge


The song "The Light I Never Did See" is written about realizing the falsehoods we have of love and dependence And learning more about ourselves in the process as we hopefully realize what our shortcomings are. 

Instrumental written and recorded by Jarrod Alonge
Some Post Production and most clean singing by Drewsif Stalin



I used to sit outside and wait for you
Though I knew you'd never come
I'd hope and I'd pray that you'd show your pretty face
Or turn your light back on
And confirm you were waiting for me too
I'd romanticize this ideal of you
And me
Of how in love we were, and how you needed to be
Close to the only thing that could keep you breathing
And how I was that one
The one that could save you.
But to tell you the tame truth, you never felt for me
And though it lay before my eyes
Just like your light that I never did see
Though I waited with every bit of me.
In many ways i haven't moved on
I'm still sitting there on that swing
I'm may no longer be waiting for you
I'm realizing now Ive been waiting on me

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