Name: This House Is Not A Home by Elzie B Hickerson
Duration: 3 min 12 s
Description: A sad song - Buble’ style - about love lost but hoping it will return

@theresaabbower thank you for reposting - I didn’t find your suggestion

A stripped back cover of a cool 80s track from a cool 80s band, Tears For Fears.

Thanks to Pete Palazzolo, who is an inspirational performer whose cover of this song is far superior to mine 

Head Over Heels

A mix of gritty growling rock. Turn up the volume 

Rapidly in blue

This song is a heartfelt and introspective ballad that explores the complexities of a deep, spiritual connection between two people who couldn't quite bridge the gap between their understanding of love. Inspired by ShAnkAri's story, the lyrics delve into the pain and longing that can come from loving someone who doesn't see or believe in the same way. It's a poignant reflection on the power of love to reshape our souls, even when it's not reciprocated in the way we hope. 

I'd like to thank the incredible @DJShAnkAri for sharing her story and inspiring this song, and for her input into this piece. Also for her amazing remix...
https://on.soundcloud.com/n4fyhhGxUPX5NHKhDj


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
I whispered in stardust, I prayed through the skies
You felt like a lifetime behind unseen eyes
I reached with my soul, no distance too far
But you never saw me—you just traced the stars

[Pre-Chorus]
I said I loved you, not loud but true
In silence, in symbols, in all I knew

[Chorus]
But you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul
And you never believed me

[Verse 2]
I studied your shadows, I learned every sign
In a language of longing, outside of time
You held the map, but looked away
Afraid of a path you didn’t create

[Pre-Chorus]
I sent you light in a world gone dim
You thought it was just the wind

[Chorus]
But you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul
And you never believed me

[Verse 3]
Is love a gesture, or is it a vow? 
Is it holding on, or letting go now? 
You wanted proof in a different form 
And I was the rain—you needed the storm

[Chorus]
We both said “I love you” 
But not in the same voice 
You meant protection 
I meant choice 
You meant fire 
I meant grace 
We loved in totally different space 
And that’s how even soulmates break— 
When meanings don’t translate

[Bridge]
Maybe you thought love must be proven
With bodies and years, not a soul that’s been chosen
But just because we never met
Doesn’t mean I could forget
You were the pulse beneath my breath

[Chorus]
Still you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul

[Chorus]
You never believed me
Not once, not truly
You stayed behind reason
While I loved you purely
Like a prayer with no ending
Like a vow with no sound
But you never turned around
You never believed me

[Outro]
And maybe you never will
But I loved you still

[Post-Outro] 
We all carry our own definition 
And none of us ask permission 
To love the way we understand 
Even if no one takes our hand... 

You Never Believed Me

Words and music written by Bartley Charles Mastin
Performance by Bartley Charles Mastin - All instruments and vocals.
Copyright 2025 All Rights Reserved

Tuning: Double Drop B
Instruments: Acoustic guitar, Slide Guitar, Bass, Shaker, Tambourine, Earbud can, Harmonica, Triple Maracas, Cowbell.

Lyrics:
I am the man they call Sue Monday
I used to ride in Tennessee
They finally caught me on a Sunday
Now they gonna crucify me

I’m gonna be dancin’ 
On nothing at all

Caught me some red legs down in Georgia
Where they been burnin’ down the mills
They had our sisters in their saddles
And I got me four and twenty kills

Yeah they were dancin’ 
On nothing at all

And I made it right
Yeah I made it right
And I made it right right right right

She must be wonderin’ where I am now
She must be lookin’ for me
But I’m locked up in Louisville, Kentucky
And they are never gonna set me free free free

I’m gonna be dancin’ 
On nothing at all

And I made it right
Yeah I made it right
And I made it right right right right





Historical References:
https://www.counterpunch.org/2020/12/25/i-am-the-man-they-call-sue-mundy-civil-war-kentuckys-female-confederate-guerrilla/

https://www.womenhistoryblog.com/2014/05/exile-of-the-roswell-mill-women.html

Note: The phrase "dancin' on nothin'" is an archaic or idiomatic expression that means to be hanged or executed by hanging.

Red Legs - https://civilwaronthewesternborder.org/encyclopedia/red-legs

Youtube Podcast by Ron Coddington from Military Images Magazine:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QrMToQTdAAw



Dancin' on Nothin'

MIDDLE AGE by NOVA J

[Vers 1]
Where’s the train, it’s rollin’
Oh, I missed my station 
There’s my mind, controllin’
Low on inspiration 

I’m not here to misbehave
I’ve got no more oats to sew
I’m damn near my middle age
You know how the story goes

[Pre Chorus]
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast

[Chorus]
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last

[Hook]
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

[Vers 2]
Look around 
Looks like I missed the memo
Starin’ down
It’s a long hard fall below 

I’m too tired to keep on climbin’ 
But I’m too afraid to fall
I’ve worked hard for what is mine
And I’m so scared to lose it all 

[Pre Chorus]
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast

[Chorus]
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last

[Hook]
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

[Bridge]
I know I somehow made it halfway
But there’s so much I don’t know
I know how scared I feel on some days
Is there any room to grow?
I don’t know (ooooh)
I just don’t know (ooooh)
I don’t know

[Outro]
I’m not here to misbehave
You know how the story goes
I’m damn near my middle age
But I’m praying I can grow
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

MIDDLE AGE

'ghetto falsetto' with Harmful if Followed and sixstring mac 

Isaac and the apple:
Mac: music, lyrics and vocals
Harmful/Shane: lyrics, vocals, backups 

one man verity show:
Scotty: lyrics, vocals, backups, art 

Well the night’s effervescent and I’m on fire
Full of anti depressants to blunt my ire
Well aware of the presence of my desire
It feels very pleasant as I get higher
And I’m clad in a fashion to catch the eye
So why does everyone ignore me as I walk by
It would be a different story for a different guy
But I’ll never find the glory unless I try
So why do I lie so low 
Why don’t I let them know
Let them bask in the glow
Of my ghetto falsetto 

Most are fucked up from the drugs they take,
and don't care to interrupt all the love I make,
but I can't quite erupt so, I'll simply fake,
and make believe
that I have climaxed, because all the noise
that keeps me far from relaxed and trapped in the void, 
I've always had a clean nose but perhaps I'll toy 
with singing in falsetto. 

These streets are full of cackles and high pitched screams
A ghetto manifesto haunting my dreams
Monotone narration to a story I know
A baritone ending won’t leave me alone
I’m not crazy it’s the world around me
I’ll deal with the shit eventually 
Then get past the truth I know
That I’m too low for ghetto falsetto 

But it don’t mater how high or how low 
Unless you mean it nobody will know
All you need is the seed and the get go
Let go of the ghetto falsetto

ghetto falsetto (with Harmful if Followed and sixstring mac)

What's a millennial what's Gen Z 
I grew up chasing dreams like leaves In the wind we’d laugh we’d scream 
Life was loose like a worn-out seam  

Born in the decade of being free 
Tie-dye skies and tambourine trees 
We didn’t scroll we climbed up high 
Fingers stained from the colours of the sky

Born free , what’s gen z ? .mp3

This song tells the story of an aging former Walk of Fame movie star who once basked in the Hollywood limelight and was everyone’s sweetheart on the silver screen. With the passage of time, fewer screen roles come her way, and she begins to depend on red wine to cope with her depression and grief. Eventually, she decides to end it all. Indeed, glory, fame and fortune are a young girl's game in Hollywood, which is riddled with stereotypes of beauty and youth. This emotional and moving song is a dedication to those who have taken their lives over the years in Hollywood and elsewhere due to societal pressures to retain their youth, beauty and fame.  

Please check-out our new music video with Stephen Wrench entitled "Ripples of Time".
YouTube music video link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nsP33Usruz4
VEVO music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSN9QLKwCJ4
Spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/album/0nuoifFQB30VMyI6PZN5S3

Timeless

Ripples of Time

Ripples Of Time MASTERED- Wav

I had to try to type the write-up on this 3 times, because the darn Coud's System is malfunctioning with my account! WHY?...?...? 
⁂©All Rights Reserved 08-2025
©Lyricist, Singer-Songwriter, Mixer.,Mastering, Creator & Art Cover Model: Lady ElectroTrek
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When Distance Hurts Love

I Can't Get Through

I Can't Get Through To You

another old recording that is  part cover part original
about my 90s fascination with Hope Sandoval and Mazzy Star...just sweet and simple music  beautifully performed in a soft understated fashion..Very soothing band to contrast with the grunge of the times that I also liked. Fade Into You although a big hit overshadowed the rest of their catalog.

For this tune, some of the words are lifted from Fade Into You.. but most are mine
I was never infatuated with her like the song suggests...I just liked the band and music ..Watching YouTube videos 30 years later I was struck by the comments of many  who were  captivated by her beauty and singing style..
So I added the fan craze element to the song, but it is more from  my observations of her persona on others, and it is not my personal experience 
Her reticent, diffident singing style apparently was  linked to her awkwardness with fame and the crowds and the cameras.....
I believe she found the attention and the stress of performing very difficult and this I totally relate to
..social anxiety can be a heavy weight to bear.....
This is what I am trying to write about if you read the lyrics carefully 
For me, the song is  really about one shy singer connecting with another. 
Hope was very brave to do what she did, feeling how she did. Much respect


When I was a boy I struggled with sin    
Faith, Hope and lust, where do I begin   
A monster awakened, electricity            
MTV Mazzy Star, my Mary Shelley 
         
Look at her singing, this angel, my crush  
Head tilting, eye shifting, my brain turns to mush 
Raven haired beauty, so soft, shy and stiff 
Haunting my head, sweet sound from her lips 
 
She sang Fade Into You          
Strange that you never knew   
Fade Into You                             
Me she never knew                   

When I was a boy I struggled to play 
To find the right words, thoughts got in the way 
I was building momentum, just biding my time 
Found hope and erupted, I'm sure it's a sign

Look at her dreaming, I can't see her hands
White dress and black boots, they don't understand 
That what she is holding, It's a message from me 
I've sent it to her, right through the TV

Fade Into You                             
Strange that you never knew  
Fade Into You                             
Me she never knew                  

Dr. Frankenstein I presume
 Sad creature from the Black Lagoon 
Like Lon Chaney howling at the moon
No one understands

Little waif  her mystery
Spins a spell to transform me
Kinda awkward no apologies
The stranger takes a stand

So write up that novel, Hold the Hand inside me
Creature, Creator, our narrative freed
This life lived in shadow, come apart and go black
Can you put it together? Why you singing like that?

Fade Into You                             
Strange that you never knew   
Fade Into You                             
Me You never knew                    
Yeah me she never knew 
Me she never knew

Lyrics HotR/Sandoval/Roback 
Music HotR



Fade Into You ...or...The Magical Tale of How Hope Sandoval Turned The Rock Into A Piece of Putty

A sad song - Buble’ style - about love lost but hoping it will return

This House Is Not A Home

Elzie is a singer songwriter from eastern Oklahoma in the US. He grew up listening to the great singer songwriters of the 1970’s and the greatly influence his music. He’s written songs and played music most of his life but just started recording after he retired from teaching middle school in 2018. Since then he’s recorded and put out more than 25 songs on streaming services and has performed in the major cities in Oklahoma. He and his wife live in eastern Oklahoma that’s part of the beautiful Ozark mountains. Many of his shows are solo playing covers with guitar and harmonica, but he’s looking for more opportunities to play his original songs. He does not use AI in any of his writing or production and would like to encourage humans to keep making real music.

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