Jay Taa

Unrequited

Young & Naïve

This is a cover of "The Minute You're Gone" made popular by Cliff Richard. This song is a song I associate with my childhood, but more importantly my grandma. This is a song dedicated to her and all she has done to make me who I am today. I love you, Ludy.

Ludy (The Minute You're Gone)

This track was kinda an accident. I was trying to see if I could write a song in 15 minutes, and I did.

Fall for You

This is a cover of Ariana Grande's "Moonlight". This is one of my all time favorite songs, and I couldn't imagine my first body of work not including her influence that has shaped my love for music as a whole. 

Instrumental by https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ot27m0Rv2UY

unrequited

Moonlight (cover)

I'm With You Until the End Of the Line

The audio used at the end of this outro is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=anR3NpbUnt0&t=19s. 

I love you, Chris Evans.

Unrequited (outro)

This is the full version of the short song I wrote and posted on twitter, 
"i see you in the moon, steve". This song was the product and therapy I needed to recover from Endgame. Whether you see the relationship Steve and Bucky shared, romantic or platonic, they were not respected how they should have been in Endgame. This song is written in Bucky's point of view on the departure of Steve in his life. It took a team of people, Arieana, Tommy, and I, countless tears, hours of vocal arrangement, and my love for stucky to create this. I hope you enjoy it as much as I loved creating it. (Special thanks to @emdibuja on twitter for the beautiful cover!)

Trouble in Paradise - EP

i see you in the moon, steve

This is a song about Tommy. Arieana, Tommy, and I were camping, and Ari and I wanted to write a song. When Ari and I told Tommy about wanting to write a song, he was like, "I can't write a song...". Then "Love Me or Don't" happened. Tommy just vented all about his feelings, I wrote lines that related to how he felt, and Ari played chords throughout the conversation until we finished the song at 3 am by the campfire. You are the sun, Tom.

Love Me or Don't - Single

Love Me or Don't

A song of my thoughts of self-doubt. We all got them.

Thank You For Putting Up With Me - Single

Thank You For Putting Up With Me

A song that tore my heart in two to write. My cousin and I wrote this in 5 hours until like 3 AM. This is my favorite song I've ever written. The title and meaning is inspired by Richard Madden reading thirst tweet.

Lovelorn

"In that order?"

This is a song dedicated to my ability to fall in love for anyone so blindly and easy that they become my weakness. Also the fact that Achilles, the Greek hero, was gay and no one talks about it hurts me. I love you, Achilles and Patroclus. THEY HAD THEIR ASHES MIXED IN THE SAME URN SO EVEN IN THE AFTERLIFE THEY WOULD NEVER BE APART.

Achilles' Heel

Loving the feeling of pain that steams from an unrequited/complicated relationship.

Trouble in Paradise

My love for Chris in a song. I love you, Chris. He that person in my life that I don't know, but I see as light. My want to be with him towers a lot of other needs in my life, and it scares me. I don't know this man, but I become sad, jealous, and angry over someone I don't know. This song is a reminder to of, "Am I in love with Chris or the idea of him." I'll never know.

Chris Evans

wow, wow, wow. This song was written on a whim and a vague prompt. My friend asked me to write a song about a lighthouse. So My cousin, Arieana, and I wrote this beauty. Ari pulled this arrangement out of nowhere, and I hate her for how good it was and how casual she made it seem. 

To me, this song is about loss. I lost someone very close to me. One of my most favorite people in the world, and it was my fault. "Starry-eyed" is about losing a relationship that you want to comeback so desperately after all the conflict. The song shows how I want to be the light in their eyes that makes them all starry-eyed again. For them to see me in the light they once saw me in.

Starry-eyed

This one is funny. I wrote this after seeing a guy I had a crush on in one of my classes a couple of months after the class ended. I saw him and all the feelings came back, but I hated that they did, so I wrote this. This song is basically me hitting him with a stick of harmonies and an untuned ukulele.

Autumn Boy

This song is the song that started it all for me. This is the first song I ever wrote. I wrote this in 2016 and haven't stopped writing since. "The Way You Held Me" was suppose to be on "Unrequited", but I didn't put it on; I felt it needed to be here. I feel like "Lovelorn" holds this message of hurt and discontent after love and this song just captures that.

The Way You Held Me

This song was actually an accident. I decided to write this album, but I didn't know what to call it. I had a name planned out before, but I was reading an X-men comic and the title was "X-men: Lovelorn" and Lovelorn just stuck. By definition, Lovelorn is the product of an Unrequited love, it was perfect. So with the new name, I had to write a song for the title, and this was created. The audio is just my cousins, who helped my write and produce Lovelorn as a whole, and I being stupid while recording.

Lovelorn (outro)

A new song! Are we surprised that I couldn't wait two months before posting more? No. "Fresh Out of Luck" is a song that came from my horrible taste in men, I like built-trash. I wanted to take a more humorous, upbeat approach to this song since all my other ones are so slow and serious. I hope you enjoy or can relate! (Pierson is not trash.)

The cover art is of actor, writer, swole god, and the love of my life, Pierson Fodé. You can find him on instagram @Piersonfode. I was going to push this song back for whatever project I end up working on next, but I posted a screenshot on my story, and Pierson reposted it. It was a blessing and a sign to share this song. I hope he is okay with me using his picture. The shot was taken by @jamesmarchioni on instagram. Here's the link to Pierson's original post, https://www.instagram.com/p/B2z2PXqBWrB/. 

Pierson, if you're reading this you're so cool. I've been following you for so long, 5-6ish years. Thank you for reposting my story and always being so kind! I hope to meet you soon and become best friends and you can make me go to the gym more.

Fresh Out of Luck - Single 

Fresh Out of Luck

I am enough. I don't need a prince charming. I am my own. The audio in the beginning is of my friend Nicole, @theenickole, and the beat from youtube can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pdYJtRBPlTw&list=LLfr8mFHz8ML22NFqXKwFYPw&index=5&t=0s

prince charming (prod.lee)

I build boys up to who I want them to be then I get bored. 

Beat: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7O2zBslQtiM

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