a thirteen minute synth piece recorded in february of 2017. improvisational, slowly building, and performed in one take. the clip at the end is of my niece. the way she said, "sometimes i fall down" resonated with me a lot. i don't know why. or... i don't know. i guess i do.

there are dolls scattered across the floor. none of them are yours, they belong to me

hide the tears falling down your face
they’re like a monolith they always stay the same 
i guess he never loved me back 
that’s what you thought of me before you passed away

but i swear i love you dear
i love you dear

meanwhile our shattering animals

anything (cover)

paint my nails and watch me bleed
I'll eat you out till i feel clean
i love the way that you make me feel like i don't deserve
i swear that i don't deserve you

(i don't deserve
i don't deserve what you've got)

bleed

britney spears on crystal meth

0:00 18
2:14 All My Life
4:24 Alright
6:37 Breathe
8:21 I Don’t Know Her
11:33 Wrist

Carson Clay - 18

up right now

First light

you're so romantic be mine

nobody knows me truly

im kinda weird and antisocial 

dont wanna talk im not very vocal 

unless youre the plug then im asking if your moble
x2

yeah i need some smoke x3

my life is a joke

yeah i need some smoke x3

dont hmu unless youre the plug

skinnyasbones

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