I had a vision of the two of us
Chasing what we thought was love

And maybe it was, maybe it really was 
But do you know what?
I think you loved me just enough
To know what the difference was

After all this thought
I’m thankful for the lesson you taught—
The difference between loving just a little
And loving someone, loving someone a lot

You said you loved me just a little
Walking me to my door
I turned you back around to show you that I wanted more

But I knew, you knew, she knew, and we knew 
It wasn’t right to ask that of you
Now I’m left with the guilt of knowing that I wanted to

It’s wrong, it’s wrong I know
It’s wrong, it’s wrong to love you both

I know I have self control
Over my actions, but who knows
What had control over my heart
When you said you loved me on Harbor Boulevard 

We’ve moved on
I mailed you back your Polaroid of
You and your last girl that I had stolen
Hoping I’d be the only one that you’d hold onto

I had to rebuild his trust
I apologized for months
He knows part of me still cares about
And wonders how you’re doing now

It’s wrong, it’s wrong I know
It’s wrong, it’s wrong to love you both

We were faded but the moon was bright
As you walked me back to my room that night
You asked me what I had on my mind
I said I’m not sure why

You tilted his hat so you could see in my eyes
Said you like dark-haired girls, but I was changing your type
You wished you knew me sooner, wished the timing was right
And I just said goodnight

Because it’s wrong, it’s wrong I know 
It’s wrong, it’s wrong to love you both

It’s wrong
It’s wrong I know
Easy but wrong
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Amarsi Un Po

Paint your ink all over me
We’ll see how things go eventually
But I think I’m drawn to the way you breathe
To the way you see me

Pick me up like your paintbrush
Like a habit you’ve had though we just met last month
Now all I’m thinking about is us
Baby where’ve you been hiding
So glad nobody else had the right timing
Cause I want you to be mine

We’ll get lost in conversation
World’s so hurt but maybe we can change it 
You know I’m drawn to the way you think
To the way we dream

Pick me up like your paintbrush
You know just how to hold me with the softest touch
Seems dangerous to feel this much
I was standing, staring at your canvas
You sat down next to me like we planned it
I think a higher power had a hand in it 

Baby where’ve you been hiding
So glad no one had the right timing
Cause I want you to be mine

Paintbrush

Long time no see
That’s what you said to me
Eyes on fire that October evening

Walked in in shades
Guess some things never change
Said American Spirits were still your favorite

If I’m nervous will you know I’m still falling
I had a fear that you wouldn’t be coming
Keep a straight face as I feel my heart break
Because you look different in a good way

Too cool for school
Always a bit removed
No one knows the story like you and I do

Leave it in the past
Ignore the aftermath
But I can’t act like it never happened

If I’m nervous will you know I’m still falling
I had a fear that you wouldn’t be coming
Keep a straight face as I feel my heart break
Because you look different in a good way

I had to leave it all on the table 
Clear the wine clear my mind I gotta say this
It’s been a while since I’ve seen your smile
But it cuts me just the same

Charisma, curls, commitment issues
Man I love the way that I feel around you
Will we pick it back up where we left it
Did you mean what you said or do you regret it

Chasing clarity my vision grew blurry
As you whispered that you were over me
Caught in the crossfire of two men’s love
Insecure, selfish, and helpless with only my blood 

Wish I could say that you were being cruel
It’s true that I wish that I could blame you
You say you wandering in a way that isn’t cool
But in your 20s I'm pretty sure that’s what you’re supposed to do

I’ll watch you go like your cigarette smoke
Light me up, fade away, I still smell it on my clothes
I think you’re too used to letting me down
I think I’m too used to skipping town

You lit the flame, but I kept the fire
My hopes were higher than the tide was
Thought you'd know by now to be careful with a writer
Keep my pride and I’ll keep your lighter

If I’m nervous will you know I’m still falling
I had a fear that you wouldn’t be coming
Keep a straight face as I feel my heart break
Because you’ve always been different in a good way

Say you got a girl in Hawaii
Say you don’t love me but I think you’re lying
I’ll keep a straight face as I feel my heart break
Because you look different in a good way

Always Been Different

One night, two nights, three nights to remember
One more night and would it’ve turned into forever

If we hold hands inside of your pocket
Maybe then we won’t have to stop it
If you hold my waist hidden under my jacket
Maybe no one will notice how bad it is

Said I had you feeling some type of way
I said that we were on the same page
Agreed not to communicate
Cause we knew what was at stake
It’ll take some time now to fix this
But I’m the first to fall from a distance

We had a four hour conversation
I had seven texts from my baby
“Are you sleeping?” “Did you fall asleep?”
“When you wake up please text me”

One night, two nights, three nights to remember
One more night and would it turn into forever

One knock to tell you I’m home
Two knocks just to be sure
Three knocks to say I’m going to sleep
Four knocks wish you were here next to me

I left my wine on the table
To remember our conversation
In the morning when I tried to fight it
It was sitting there to remind me

I couldn’t reach out if I tried to
Because of what we had decided
So instead I’ll be here hiding
All these songs that I shouldn’t be writing

His shirt is hanging in my closet
Your shirt is folded at the bottom
I know that it doesn’t seem right 
But you admitted he was the better guy

Short lived, long lasting
A real Hemingway kind of action
I would like to say that I’m sorry
I guess we’ll leave it to die where it started

One knock to tell you I’m home
Two knocks just to be sure
Three knocks to say I’m going to sleep
Four knocks wish you were here next to me

I had to block your number
Cause we said what if’s were no way to live
You said you’ll never see me again
But what about all our friends in common?
You said we could put it in the past if I promised you that I would wear sunglasses 
So that my eyes wouldn’t kill you

Bottom line he’s the love of life
Bottom line he loves me and I don’t know why
Bottom line he moved cities just to be my side

One knock to tell you I’m home
Two knocks just to be sure
Three knocks to say I’m going to sleep

Four Knocks

Is this your state of twilight or was I?
It’s the only question left plaguing my mind
You had always said, ”Love take your time”
But look at that, you took it all back in the blink of an eye
Is this your state of twilight or was I?

It hurts to say
You really feel this way
But if I say you’re asleep
The pain still stays

Even if you wake
Wake up one day
It would never be the same
It will never be the same

Was our love just young or dumb or was it right?
Were you brave or afraid when you suddenly changed your mind?
I know that I could ask you who what when and why
But there’s only one thing that's keeping me up at night
Is this your state of twilight or was I?

Is this what it is to change your mind
Change everything you are, change space and time
I used to be where you are
Now you’ll just be on my mind

I wasn’t asking you to change only asking you to care
You can keep all that you are, was hoping maybe you would share it
Different meanings of forgiveness
And this is where we landed

Twilight

Is it lost? Is it gone?
Tell me straight is it time to move on?
Hey, if so it’s okay
All this pain will be gone someday

There’s a note in my phone
From about seventeen months ago
“Hey, I love you.
Keep working hard, I’ll be back soon.”

I know it was a while ago
And now I’m wearing someone else's sweatshirt
I don’t know how you think of it now
But I think that I still need you around

Now you’d say it was a waste to watch me study
But there was a time you liked my company

I’ll keep coming back to this
Cause baby it was magic
If there’s such a thing as good love we had it
If you ever wonder was it good enough
Baby I know we had a good, good love

Is it lost? Is it gone?
Tell me straight is it time to move on?
Hey, if so it’s okay
All this pain will be gone someday
But I'll remember the look on your face that summer
When you said that you'd love me like no other

I know sometimes that’s how it goes
And now I’m wearing someone else's sweatshirt
It wasn’t till I was with someone new
I realized I still want you

I keep coming back to this
Cause baby it was magic
If there’s such a thing as good love we had it
I don't know I guess it wasn't good enough
But baby I know it was a good, good love

I don’t know if opening the things that I mailed back to you
Felt like I was saying we were through or if you knew
It was just too painful to say
Seeing your things made me miss your face

I don’t know how you think about things
But baby I still think about you and me
Who knew Nike in yellow'd make me miss the grey
And think of all the reasons that I wish you'd stayed

I'll keep coming back to this
Cause baby it was magic
If there’s such a thing as good love I think we had it
If you ever wonder was it good enough
Baby I know it was a good, good love

Hey I still love you
Been working hard please come back soon

good love

Two world travelers, one small town
Unfinished people, unfinished house
More thoughts in my head than I should probably say out loud

You told me I pull you like a magnet
You said you’re afraid of what might happen if
I finally let you in

Sitting there at your kitchen table
Writing backstories for all your neighbors
Talking about the things we want to be famous for
A singer and a senator

Funny how I barely know you
Sitting there in your Patagonia
Envisioning a world with the both of us

Tell me what would that be like
I’m sure that it would be hard sometimes
Maybe it’s gold, we’ll watch it unfold
But what do I know at 22 years old

Hold my sleeve so you don’t hold my hand
Tell me about everything that happened to you back then
All the names of your best friends

Tell me about all the cities that you lived in 
How it felt the first time you saw them from a distance
Something about you, you have no limits
Baby I’m just here to listen 

Maybe we come from different worlds
But I’ll share mine and you’ll share yours
There’s so much to explore

Tell me about all the cities that you lived in 
How it felt the first time you saw them from a distance
Something about you, you have no limits
Baby I’m just here to listen

Tell me what would that be like
I’m sure that it would be hard sometimes
Maybe it’s gold, we’ll watch it unfold
But what do I know at 22 years old

One day maybe we’ll laugh at this part
All the nights I didn’t let you kiss me on your front porch
If it turns out to be just a memory 
When I think of you and me
I’ll think it was a hell of week

You said I seem unafraid
I don’t know why you see me that way
Maybe I don’t have your experience
That doesn’t mean that my experience is meaningless 

I only call you by your last name
To establish a casual form of interacting
Because I’m undecided if I can stand it
The fact that you said you don’t like Paris

Baby we can just see what happens 
These years run like rabbits
19 crimes then I lost track of them
It’s been a while since someone made me laugh like this

You perceive a lack of imperfection
Where there’s simply a lack of letting you in
So I’ll say if till you’re convinced 
The sinners and the saints of men
Aren’t that different
We're not that different

hell of a week

You tried to write on us like a carbon copy
Two women, one pen, a facade you got caught in
I don’t know which one was darker
I don’t know which one was harder
But you left alone and we left smarter 

Your timeline’s not adding up
You said that it’s been months
Said you had to get it wrong a lot of times
Before your heart found mine
Made me believe that I was the outlier
Caught red handed now Imma start a fire
Next on my list baby Imma out a liar

Copy and paste, copy and paste
Copy and paste all of your pain on me
A woman’s love can’t set you free
When what you said to her you said to me
It lost meaning

The only thing worse than playing games
Is playing them at your age
You said it’s easier said than done
To love just one person at once 
And I get it, that you don’t have self control 
Who could have known
I thought you might by now by 30 years old
But I shouldn’t have assumed you were grown

Outlier

I try not to write about my children
Because I'm afraid one day I'll have to listen
Back to the tracks of the dreams I had
Over an empty glass in an empty kitchen

I have things I hope for
I have things I work for
But this is just the one thing that
It seems I have no control of

To my nieces and my nephews when they come
I love your mom and dad so much
And I'll always be there not to judge
And to always fix up your bruises and cuts

If I never have a daughter or a son
If I die young at least I had fun
At least I knew love just once
At least time goes on

I was honest, I was scared
I wrote about it, wrote it down right there
I liked the giving more than the taking
I liked the feeling of being your baby

It took a while but I figured out how
How to like being by myself
I can do it, I can try, try, try
But I find that life's what you do in your down time

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