Can I just come on here and vent.. I am the worst fcking person I know im 13 and have attempted suicide 5 times so far my skins scarred and my brains fcked up im not sure how im still here but somehow I am...✌️💔🥲

This album is recorded using an SM57 and SM58 with a Focusrite Scarlet 2i2. All the recordings were one-takes from a lukewarm basement of a vegan café. Suppose the songs are about working with people in hospitality... and other stuff.

3. Pedestrian

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtcvwHXJipg

opposite ends of the room, love is there but there's a distance i can't undo.
i built it all up in my head, felt the same but somehow differently or unsaid.

a fire so red could last until we're both dead, but i've been burned before, it's a cliche but my scars are still sore.

i want to take back everything i told you and remember all the times i would hold you. maybe you don't know who i am, maybe i was scared and ran. 
goodbye is hard to do, especially without "i love you."

opposite ends of the state, happiness once was enough to know what i pushed away. but that is SO fucking cheap. you deserve better than that, you deserve better than me.


i want to take back everything i told you and remember all the times i would hold you. maybe you don't know who i am, maybe i was scared and ran. 
goodbyes are hard to do, especially without "i love you."

opposites *NOW ON SPOTIFY<3* (video link in description)

@velvetqueen @teenpregnancy

sample: head in the ceiling by Title Fight 

lyrics: 

(scum)
I feel like i'm sinking deeper into the sea
you stare from afar so tell me what you see
when you're looking at me 
i'm only special in your eyes
thank you a lot but you don't see the other side
you don't know the real me
the real me 

(velvetears)
Believe me
When you're sleeping
I see you dreaming
While I'm in my head fuckin screaming
And I want you to know me
I wanna show you things 
That no ones ever known bout me
There's a lot I'm hiding 
But you're the one that I wanna confide in


in your eyes w/ VELVETEARS (prod. T e e n p r e g n a n c y .)

I like a story I can see right through - and I know you do that cause I do that too
The feelings best when its fleeting - the memory is best when it's leaving
What was it like when you lived back then?
I wanna hear about some people that you never met
I wanna stare up at the sun until i'm blind again, wake up in your arms again.
I can't get ahold, thats why you see me, I'm so shook up
God might forgive you but I don't, this is something you know.

Black ice, Got a suicide fever, think about the past i put weight on the trigger
When you get this old you really start to figure.
Black Ice, Got a suicide fever, cast stones in the past i put weight on the trigger
When you get this old you really start to figure.
I feel so small, what could I be doing wrong?

never met

Thank you for 400 followers . I wanna to grow and develop with you !!!

Follow me on twitter : @lindentears

See you soon...

I Don't Know Why You Think That

i wanted to cry, i wanted to die.

prod: https://soundcloud.com/ihateshinigami

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

Kiss my eyelids (prod. Shinigami)

SINGLE OFF THE ALBUM
'BITTER BLUE'

prod: https://soundcloud.com/nothingnowheremusic

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

And thought i was right for too long
Now its time to face it
I can feel it inside of my bones
And its so hard to shake it
And for the first time
Im feeling closer to closure
I Feel the storm blowing over,
like i can close my eyes tonight

And i can see it in your eyes
(Let go)
A whisper in the night
(Run home)
Run home, Run home

Run Home (Prod. nothing,nowhere.)

Ft:
https://soundcloud.com/gldentx
Prod: 
https://soundcloud.com/keeper92
https://soundcloud.com/tnght_tmrw

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

I know u miss me w/ bradyamour (Prod. keeper x tnght/tmrrw)

follow and support @nadiakuk

first vocal track released as 'cabe' so tell me what you think. there will be more next year...
other vocals and beats @kryptik_official

snapchat: kryptikbeats
instagram: yung_kryptik

lyrics:
it started with a sweet kiss . i guess you were my weakness...
somethings on your mind. tell me why
all the love was sweet bliss. red roses with the cheap tricks
somethings on your mind. tell me I'm the reason why
i never felt from the start, just numb
tell me I'm the fucking reason for this outcome...
all these feelings i can't outrun...

yeah.. 
i saw that you called...aye...
fuck that shit guess i'll miss them all... girl,
i thought you was the best of them all... but...
i was the dumbest one of them all... yeah...
fuck it pack another bowl... yeah...
all i have to do is make a call... aye
ring ring ring thats her on the phone... 
knock knock knock on the door now its on...

from the start (prod. nadiak)

@yung-hy
@nothingnowheremusic

vocals by shy
instrumental by jay vee & nothing, nowhere.
mix & master by jay vee
artwork by tommy lam

viewfinder w/ shy & nothing,nowhere.

lyrics:

[foreign forest]
ill take the high road
cause thats the only road i know
im gonna find those letters i wrote to myself
and if you grow older
know that im your past 
don't bother looking over
and if you feel hurt i dont blame you
looking through the photos wishing that you were the same you

you'll get through it now
we'll get through it now
hard to hear you when the musics loud

ill take the high road
cause thats the only road i know
im gonna find those letters i wrote to myself
and if you grow older
know that im your past 
don't bother looking over
and if you feel hurt i dont blame you
looking through the photos wishing that you were the same you
you'll get through it now

[smrtdeath]
looking through the photos wishing that i was the same me
baby i know you thought you could change me
but maybe it was plain to see
we weren't made to be
you and me
so ima take the high road
cause thats the only way i'll be able to carry on
ima find those pieces of my broken heart and
take them home

and ima ride home tell your mama that im sorry for everything
x2

and ima take the high road
cause thats the only road i know
ima find those letters i wrote to myself
and when you get older 
i hope you think of me as the devil on your shoulder

time'll heal the wound but thats a lot of pain to wait through

Listen on Spotify

letters 2 myself ft. smrtdeath (prod. rogergoon)

lil freestyle over something fresh from the homie
@yungkys
check out his tunes!

she cries in the rain sometimes //prod. Waste Yrself ☻

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oaUug6k5pb0

soundcloud.com/anobodyreally 
vocals mixed by soundcloud.com/iamrellim

scraping up the pennies
so i can buy myself another line
staring at the clock thinking it’ll
go and speed up time 
look alive
9 to 5
suit and tie
its do or die
such a joke
the same old flows
you basic artists fuck the whole
operation
make shit basic
no exaggeration 
so much 
shit
a literal sense
flooding the scene 
its way too dense
I’m always so damn tense 

4:14
in the morning
my stomachs churning
the joint is burning
slowly learning
to bite my tongue 
cause its not worth it
got these bitches 
swerving
you’d think that its on purpose
my talent may be slept on
but its so perfect
i make shit for myself
and i say that with a heavy heart
for the people  
there listening who
don’t want me to ever stop
as much as its for you
i can’t see myself
going on
if what I’m doing
can’t sustain 
the happy thoughts 
i go and 
tell myself
that it’ll all be done
and finally stop
you been waiting for the
moment i finally drop
dead 
its all inside your head
these fucking thoughts you got
about me they’ve been
implanted 
  
scraping up the pennies
so i can buy myself another line
staring at the clock thinking it’ll
go and speed up time 
look alive
9 to 5
suit and tie
its do or die
such a joke
the same old flows
you basic artists fuck the whole
operation
make shit basic
no exaggeration 
so much 
shit
a literal sense
flooding the scene 
its way too dense
I’m always so damn tense

do or die (prod ʎpoqou)(video in description)

Tụi mình là Mặn, một band được mở bởi ba cậu nhóc có hứng thú với âm nhạc. Hãy theo dõi chúng mình cho những sản phẩm sắp tới nhe.

#a little update: hien gio tui minh moi nguoi dang moi nguoi mot noi nen chua the ra nhac tiep duoc. bay gio lau lau up nhac choi th nhe' :)

i wanted to cry, i wanted to die.

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