written by me and my friend 9 months ago
vox @th1nkk

ghosts

instrumental by grungejoe
cover art by @nemo_soda


this is what i need, where else should i be
help me to see, am i better off
am i better off, am i better off
all that we'll be we were better gone

dont try and save me
you being here is all that i need
dont look in my direction
all the things u will say
i promise ill reflect it
leave me to bleed

so beyond saving
give up while youre ahead
give up while youre ahead
in all that im making
while youre ahead
give up while youre ahead

dont try and save me
you being here is all that i need

dont try and save me
you being here is all that i need
dont look in my direction
all the things u will say
i promise ill reflect it
leave me to bleed

im falling
dont know what to do
youre crawling to me
what else should i do

dont try and save me
you being here is all that i need
dont look in my direction
all the things u will say
i promise ill reflect it
leave me to bleed
dont try and save me
you being here is all that i need
dont look in my direction
all the things u will say
i promise ill reflect it
leave me to bleed

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All That I Need (grungejoe)

We'll Be OK

made this like a month ago n im probably never finishing it so here U go
prod me

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/janeremover/un-me

lyrics:
i cant find my way 2 the exit
im searching 4 help
now im desperate
couldnt help but stare at the msg
i cant determine ur expression
the screens rlly taught me a lesson now
u built this whole damn house jus 2 tear it down
deep hole, somewhere that i cant be found
im surrounded, old friends come around

the screens rlly taught me a lesson
im surrounded, old friends come around
the screens rlly taught me a lesson now
im surrounded, old friends come around
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
taught me a lesson

(girl i know that its hard)
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
taught me a lesson

is this real, or not?
i been trapped up in a cycle
i cant feel, im stuck
yeah, their calling me their idol
thats a fear, ive got
i dont really want the title
but im here
i oughta make a living
fuck my rivals

taught me a lesson now
u built this whole damn house jus 2 tear it down
deep hole, somewhere that i cant be found
im surrounded, old friends come around

(girl i know that its hard)
(is this real, or not?)
(i been trapped up in a cycle)
(i cant feel, im stuck)
(yeah, their calling me their idol)
(thats a fear, ive got)
(i dont really want the title)
(but im here) (but you already bought a ticket)
(i oughta make a living, fuck my r-) (and theres no turning back now)

taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
taught me a lesson
taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
the screens rlly taught me a lesson
taught me a lesson

lesson learned og version

ive spent most of my weekend
pushing thru the deep end
finding perfect sweaters that match my jeans,
ill empty pockets just to see if
i still have your necklace with me &
if i still seem to manage to feel

bullshit you seem to not miss me,
still i know the truth,
yesterday you told them all
how i suck & how im so cruel

theres an issue, you better resolve it face to face,
honey, keep ur words & stay the same
push my face thru dirt, and feel ashamed
if you say so, then ill think its okay
meet me at the airport, hold my hand
just to miss me for 2 years

ive spent most of my weekend
bleeding on the dirty pavement
holding doors wide opened,
options wont stay clear
ill carry on with writing songs,
that hold the message ive sent thru,
hoping you would listen &
come back soon

bullshit you seem to not miss me,
still i know the truth,
i hope for the worst, yet still feel best
why wont you call my phone?

Bleeding On The Dirty Pavement

cant hold me back,
cant bring me down,
cant choose my words
for our next talk
i still cant sleep, 
id  bring u back to me

just another day,
with another pain,
i guess that u were wrong
when u said "ur okay"
well he treats u better,
yet u still see me
deep down in ur dreams

i miss your face,
i miss your talk,
i miss being able to have that thought
the thought of u,
being mine,
and not his!

if hes way better, then why r u so sad?
write you my last letter,
just to forgive myself for the pain
if hes way better
(will i be the one, that youll take to homecoming this year?)
if hes way better
(will you hold my hand, and tell me things will be okay?)

Homecoming 2024

thousand words could not describe the mess
that u left
with the bottles
u puked right in my bed
and blamed the mass amount of alcohol
the apartment smells like weed
and the parfume of urs
antidepressant pills in ur bag
i wonder how long ull last for

you use me for attention,
call me names u piece of shit
you never wondered how i felt
you never tried to get us help
you disappear into thin air
and watch them change
ur heart its synced to my words
honey why are u so brave?

touch me,
hurt me,
use me as ur therapy,
tell me,
how much u hate me,
just to end up saying that u love me
feed me,
with ur kiss,
hold ur hands onto my sweet lips,
(and let me cry)

u blow ur birthday candles,
and think of ur last wish,
u hold the camera up,
take photos of ur dish
u let the guests all in,
u looked him in the eyes
u held onto his hand
said take the kitchen knife

oh stay here with me,
oh hold onto me
you call me insane
ill give u insane
ill write ur name with fresh blood
on my walls
ill draw u in my diary
ill copy all ur talks

maybe i dont have the guts to spell it all out
maybe i dont want to hurt the feelings of the ones that i love
i shave my body, my face, my hair, my arms & my legs
cut some symbols up on my wrist
for satisfaction of others, not myself
i just wish life wouldnt be unfair

we carved our name into the trees,
ran after sunsets, holding hands
and kissed, how unfair
that u left when i said how i felt
im not the one u think i am

i slit your name into my wrists,
the tattoo artist thinks im sick and calls my mother
she said it would be better if i left her,
so i blame the things on life, cus its unfair

i know how u felt,
i saw it in my dreams
i cant comprehend the fact
that i need u at night to sleep
oh i know its unfair,
i know that i am wrong
i learned from my mistakes
and hope one day ill move on
move on
why cant i just move on?
i miss your gorgeous face, i miss the time we
spent together, miss hearing ur voice and
miss all of the nights we said "i love you"
i guess that one day things change
but i wont let go

09/14/22

sometimes i wonder what, ur issue is
u get upset with me when, i give u a kiss
u start to admire, his paper thin lips
and then i start to wonder, what did i miss?

cus sometimes i still wonder if ur what i want around
cus sometimes i get way too happy when i find out that ur gone
but then on other days i dream of ur gorgeous, precious face
why cant u just say "i love you" straight into my face?

walking down on the path we, both grew up on
ud held for my hand asking me, "my dear what is wrong?"
id say nothing, theres no problem,
i just wish that, we'd be something
"oh how i wish, we'd never dated
so that we both would be friends today"

but i cant let go,
why? cus i said so,
its not my fault,
that i feel so
attached to ur hair & ur face
i wish that itd fade away

i wish i could just,
tell u all my thoughts,
without u thinking,
that i moved on,
cus i still wish that i could just say,
that i love you to this day

cus sometimes i still wonder if ur what i want around
cus sometimes i get way too happy when i find out that ur gone
but then on other days i dream of ur gorgeous, precious face
why cant u just say "i love you" straight into my face?

just say it to my face
just say it to my face

Sometimes

[Production, Instrumentation, Mix & Master by myth valley aka Maxine Faith Noelle] @mythvalley
[Written + Vocals by myth valley, ghostsocial & tepz] @ghostsocial @t3pz

(@mythvalley)
you tell me to realign myself to memories
a vision's past, not mine
you're calling out for help like woe is me
right hook to my face
now I'm falling back
step close, face your fate
no more turning back
and now your crawling back to me
feed 'em lies so endless-

every word to you feels like a pushback
and it hurts the truth is I cant get back
and you been waiting for a sign here's your autograph
and when you find me all alone, I won't cross your path

(@ghostsocial)
killer lips and killer side eye
maybe I just haven’t found the right guy
screw loose, I been tryna get my head right
pony tail, you can tell me if the head’s right
call and tell me that it’s okay
I’ll be waiting for you in your driveway
dolled up, such a small town cliché
Hometown, but you use me as a halfway

(@mythvalley) (x2)
so over, i'm tired
so over, i'm falling back to shit

(@t3pz)
never once did I ever feel little
but god damn, have I ever wanted to break some shit
dead eyes said I gotta let go
tongue tied know you really wanna savor this
you're so dead to me
push back once more till you feel me bleed
just last longer like a symphony
but its all broke off
full of infamy

(@mythvalley)
every word to you feels like a pushback
and it hurts the truth is I cant get back
and you been waiting for a sign here's your autograph
and when you find me all alone, I won't cross your path

so over, i'm tired
so over, i'm falling back to shit (x4)

push back! [with ghostsocial & Tepz]

covenbrook₄ — (mojave, I missed you!!
landers, ca 34°19′58.1988″N 116°23′19.5066″W

+love&thanks to @vanda100 for intro/end ambient textures!

4 of ?
June 15 2004

sleep with a gun on the other side of the mattress 
mean you no harm: when it comes back down, will you catch it

bring me a spaceship to jakarta
somewhere faster, somewhere farther
shuttered lens and muddy water
string the words out to your father

i made you a pact
streak across your face and i ended up worsening the damage
bite my calluses off 'till they bleed
if it takes god just a little
then let me know when he's coming around
i had a vision that you kneeled in front of me on the ground

i take it that you'll fend for yourself (came to you easy)
her flags raised high, 
hitched the i-5 for the touchdown of her life

dust you're kicking behind 
just put the pedal to the metal
make it last however longer you'd like
it's only time until i'm following your trail from behind

got no reason to bruise,
lose my faith or blow it on you
whatever you wanna choose
go your way or walk in my shoes

so have a nice start, wait for your car
play the right cards
but don't tell me i'm easy for you,
or you're going to california
easy on me, annie, won't you?

you came so easy
so why don’t you need me?

landers

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lyrics:

...i might just be sombody else
thats all that there is left to try
so when im nervous, acting distant
broke my phone and youre still ringing
on the concrete in the rain is where i lie

i might be turning into somethin new
thats just if God wont let me die
and if He doesnt let me down
i think i might just come around
and let you know, but you still knew, 
that im alright

every time it gets like this
thinking of when i was a kid
most things were simple as it gets
i feel the rope around my neck
begin to tighten as i rest
i cant sleep now its  6 am
fallin down inside of my head
im falling down
doooown . . .

i wrap my hands with something starry
i dont really want to talk
did hate myself, was feeling sorry
let it fester when you stalk again
dont wanna hang
dont want you to know where i am
those questions, i will answer
in some time...


...why do you tear me apart?
theres something there in the stars
it must be sad to see
but worse to know
that it wont be the same
and you're still stuck in my heart

prance around
til we get figured out
the buiding seems bigger now
and u still dont like home

...
...
...

Homecoming 2024

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