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غنـى الحمام وهيج القلب بغناه - ميحد حمد

نـاديـتــك بـصــوتـي

من زمان وانت عن عيوني غايب

لا تزيد الشكاوي🌟

انا غـناتـي فـيـك مـاخـاب ضـنـي 🥀

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My dopamine

Entering a state of blissful rage who am I today

A fury running deep my identity is cut into sectors of forgotten  memories 

I grip life with one thought in mind 

Can I push the limits of my disease

Far past indulgence but into catastrophe entropy I am lustful in trances and sacrifices so bestowed to me     

Lock inside but released among the unknown passers by I'm a walking fantasy 

Caged but free in a free fall I can't escape 

I'm drowning in my sanctuary 

Made from chemicals and emotional rocket fuel insanity to be perceived as normality

Griding my teeth as they crack and chip 

The darkness natural is a life with walls surrounded but no limits to emotional savagery 

   You know why we overdose, 

Because most people like me lived a thousand life's of hell and no one notices  

For our last wish all we wanted of this  world

Is to have a moment at peace before we escape from the world of pain we take into ourselves 

We break down in the shower we  scream, sit on the floor with madness in the only place we own 

The minds we were born with to live our life with,

Abused we were born into 

Fucking took all the drugs to numb it

but couldn't stop the memories

Neglected we faced by parents that didn't understand

The sexual abuse

No one believes you 

Go to your room

No self esteem from the eyes of society no friends to call our own

So for all the life we lied to shield you from our kind sides

No trust to offer, 

But I know I gave you my world

But you can't see, 

We are lonely,

The ropes the darkness we were closed within 

There torment we went through 

The yes

We are the 0.01% of America 

A borderline diagnosis

Comorbid dissociative identity disorder

PTSD exploring 

Hope you know that your words broke the tape that I sown my wounds together with

All of us together tried to put him back together for,

Every time you strike me down

Balled me up in a ball in the corner, 

I just wanted you to love me

Accept me  for me but I 

I recoiled in fear bred in horror,

From the hurt you put me through, it aways felt normal 

For every scream putting me down,

Humiliating me I was forced to love you

Another scar was drawn when I wanted to kill you and free myself

I love you but I can't stand you now that you broke my trust

Beating me into fighting back black out blood on the floor crying in the room that's all that you wanted me for 

For every time I felt isolated I grew smaller and smaller  
It's ok I will have to smile until my mask crumbles

Chattering invisibility 

Echoing in my mind two voices one in the dark sre there more of me but not me cast covers over me

When they ask if I'm fine

Numb to 

I say stand forward,

If I'm fine,

I'm fine now

No I've been set on fire inside parts of me 

All I wanted was love I wanted to feel someone next to me before I die

For every beaten memory there's a scream at night that is the merges within my mind

I never knew who I was

Was I ever good enough,

Was I ever really loved,

Was the sex good,

It was hell with you

What am I suppose to feel 

This is introspective 

But my hate bleeds through

Are these demons I hold the only friends I have to hold

You see me as something to control,

Let me be good and let me get that for you


I must leave but I'm going to stay

I'm over this life,

Its time end this

Turn me in Turn me out 

Let me go while I fall asleep 

Just go away and when you go I say

You know why we overdose,

To escape the pure hell trapped and frozen in our minds

Looping and looking insane negative thoughts drives us to



My Suicide Alter Dopamine Drop Dead Whore

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