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cry about it

cry about it 😹

i'll never change

plays are botted

talk to me like im stupid / ask me if i like u, it depends
mistakes that i made back then they haunt me / i say im okay its all pretend
im so tired of lying but i fail at trying to let u know im not ur friend
and i know that u hate to see me break down but this was ur choice in the end

im being haunted i know that their watching my every move
stuck in my room to afraid to go out and fight my fears
and i know u want whats best but im scared of being left out
and i hate to make u feel bad but im only getting worse now

i sleep every night and i see that man in my dreams / hes watching me i fear
do u believe in me? / i watch my shadow move on its own im scared
and i tried so hard u dont understand / how can i make my point clear
and im changing more than u realize im not who i was last year

haunt

prod @lynyou @trustt @omgisai
video / visualizer: https://youtu.be/W2jl_vXwRsc

lyrics:
@lynyou
yea it dont really feel the same no more nah
yea getting tired of the lies i been bored yea
i just say im fine then i move on
then i go keep crying til it turn dawn
(x2)

yea i closed my eyes i can still see the tv
say u dont like me but u really need me
yea the trophys mine ima win u gon see me
ima take whats not mine feeling greedy
(x2)

@trustt
close my eyes and i still see you there
but i still stay walkin round im the man yea
but you dont really know that yet
so you dont really know a thing about me
runnin round the town with my head fucked up
i cant find my phone think im boutta throw up
i said fuck all your friends and fuck what you heard
yea fuck all your friends they belong in the dirt

closed my eyes i can still see the tv
say u dont like me but u really need me
yea the trophys mine ima win u gon see me
ima take whats not mine feeling greedy
(x2)

@lynyou
yea it dont really feel the same no more nah
yea getting tired of the lies i been bored yea
i just say im fine then i move on
then i go keep crying til it turn dawn
(x2)

yea i closed my eyes i can still see the tv
say u dont like me but u really need me
yea the trophys mine ima win u gon see me
ima take whats not mine feeling greedy
(x2)

need me

prod @lynyou @omgisai

lyrics:
u left me there in the corner waiting for someones help
and im not taking ur orders go find someone else

i cant think straight around u it drives me mad
its hard to tell how i feel cause it hurts so bad
(x2)

bad, bad, hurts so bad
so bad, bad, hurts so bad (x1000000)

it dont work @ all / try my best to make it alright
might get hurt & fall / i been thinking bout u all night (x4)

bad, bad, hurts so bad
so bad, bad, hurts so bad (x1000000)

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a tale of thirteen, who sought to convene. under the knowledge of a single eye, would those thirteen learn why.

hurtz

im only keeping this up cause of papa squat

wipe ur tears its ok like im always here
idc what it takes im gonna be there
and ur leaving me now think thats my biggest fear
yea but im here til u cant stay / tell em 'get out my ears'
i dont need ur help now i got no faith no hope left
im just waiting til it falls down
no shadow just me on the ground
u can look deep into my soul and nothing will be found
yea i tell em 'get out my ears' ima stand on my own ground

is this real or not
i been trapped up in a cycle, cant feel im stuck
their calling me their idol thats a fear ive got
i dont really want the title but im here
i oughta make a living fuck my rivals

5 hours passed fore i rose from my bed
my smile faded away as soon as i read that text
read that text soon as i read that text
now im fighting w/ voices that dance in my head

is this real or not
i been trapped up in a cycle, cant feel im stuck
their calling me their idol thats a fear ive got
i dont really want the title but im here
i oughta make a living fuck my rivals

wipe your tears

ft @7akkiro @trustt

lyrics:
@v_letical
i relive the same dream everytime i fall asleep
and im stuck alone cause of promises u said to keep
i dont feel safe anymore hes always watching me
and until i get out i guess ill just cry & scream

and i don't think that you understand how i felt when you told me
told me that it won't work out
do you even know who i am
i don't think you even know me but you still wanna slow things down

@7akkiro
fell apart in october got no time to heal
see you pass by my shoulder but i still can't feel
so where did i go wrong?
lost in my thoughts i can't seem to move on
why'd you act like you cared?
tell me if i did something to you
i'll always always feel like i knew you
i won't make those mistakes again
i promise you i won't fall on my face again
unless you tell me those lies

@trustt
and i'd break my back for you just to get what you want
and i'm so used to losing, don't know when to start
don't feel bad for me, just feel bad for my friends
can't feel pity for someone you don't care about anymore, been here before
so just close your eyes when you look down at the bed and hear me say your name
and i see that face, it says you'd run away with me, if only things could change

and i know that it won't, and i know that it's all my fault 
and i know that it won't, and i know that it's all my fault
and i know that it won't, and i know that it's all my fault 
and i know that it won't, and i know that it's all my fault 

(@v_letical)
and i don't think that you understand how i felt when you told me
told me that it won't work out
do you even know who i am
i don't think you even know me but you still wanna slow things down
(x2)

still wanna slow things down (x100)

packet loss

plays are botted

produced by me & @trustt

lyrics:
a twisted shadow paints the scene
its all a lie ive been living in a broken dream
listen to me / read along
its been weeks and ive been feeling down but i carry on

believe it or not / im not moving on
i lie in bed and i sing my song
i wrote a note trying to right my wrongs
you left me to die here i dont know whats wrong
i dont know whats wrong

u wanna force me to try new things
i thought u already know that its not what i want
its not what i want oh
i swallow the pill u took my joy away
tip of my tongue cant find the words to say
now the next time u text my number dont expect me back

dreamer

weeks passing by so fast its starting to hurt my head
monster watching me sleep and i let it knock me dead

be careful when he comes around
i know ur trying to talk but u cant save me now
sleep with one eye open he cant take me down
i keep the window closed cause i cant trust this town
i was once told that misery loves company and im starting to see it
u left me stuck in a reverie / my dreams seem real starting to believe it

weeks passing by so fast its starting to hurt my head
monster watching me sleep and i let it knock me dead
caught in a nightmare / a chapter i wrote but really regret
im tired of being lied to / honestly things should be left unsaid

i watch the light flicker / i close my eyes i see u still
did i go to sleep last night? i cant tell time cant tell whats real
and ive done nothing but care
and uve done nothing but stare at me and judge me not fair
i fell into ur trap im not scared im not scared

knock me dead

i know its hard i know it is
i played my part i lost my grip
until next year im off that shit
want something new im bored of this
and if u find the answer to my question
then let me know im tired of living life unsafe inside my home

mom told me im a waste and everyone tells me the same
yea maybe theres a reason why they left me
my biggest enemy is someone i dont know
im fighting for u back dont think about me

now this is a story i dont wanna tell
its like the end of a movie i havent seen before
ive always lived for attention why cant u see that
im on my knees begging for more

war within

i watched it fall i watched it burn (from the ground up i built our life)
u took my heart u let me hurt (from the ground up i built our life)
and i watch from afar at the top of the hill / u look so different now
thinking of words to say when we cross paths

i really dont know how u say ive changed but the only thing here thats changed is ur mind
leave me replace / there goes another lost hope that i thought i would find

and i know that its not healthy to be obsessed but u cant help me
i want whats best but i know that i cant give up what i want

do u enjoy watching me suffer
i play my cards put down the bottle
i know its hard my life is awful only gets worse
i read every chapter and there is no happy ever after
im a bad liar im a bad actor
i put on a smile but its really a disaster but i go on

replace

ur gun fires at my heart
said i like the way that u pull me apart
and i, im just a kid but ill do what it takes to feel loved for once
its just love i want
i feel dumb i cant play my part
ill lose the race even if u gave me a headstart
and i, im contemplating should i pull out the gun
forget everyone forget everyone

and i fall down
im just a person i cant read ur mind
please dont call now
leaving me stuck i always feel confined

but i act like i like it u act like u want me
i try to keep calm but the memories haunt me

bad actor

produced by me, additional vocals from @trustt & @1crusafix, lyrics co-written by @elliemillss

i watched the glass shatter im falling im falling
too busy staring away dont call me dont call me
no i cant even fix myself so how would i fix u
no i dont even love myself so why would i love u

if i wanted to shoot dont tell me otherwise
(dont tell me otherwise dont tell me otherwise)
if i wanted to shoot dont tell me otherwise
(dont tell me otherwise dont tell me otherwise)
oh no u fucked it up again
ill hold the fort ill stand my ground til someone takes me down one day
ive got so close to falling down but everytime i find my way
cant even fix myself so how would i fix u
no i dont even love myself so why would i love u

i cant seem to find out what the problem is
u hit that part of me i act like i like it
if i were u id just let me go now
and id tell u how i feel but i dont really know how

if i were u id just let me go now
and id tell u how i feel but i dont really know how
if i were u id just let me go now
and id tell u how i feel but i dont really know how

oh if i wanted to shoot dont tell me otherwise
(dont tell me otherwise dont tell me otherwise)
if i wanted to shoot dont tell me otherwise
(dont tell me otherwise dont tell me otherwise)
oh no u fucked it up again
ill hold the fort ill stand my ground til someone takes me down one day
ive got so close to falling down but everytime i find my way
cant even fix myself so how would i fix u
no i dont even love myself so why would i love u

is that all you wanted for me to feel
u cried for help but i cant hear u still

debris

in the attic of my mind i always think abt that one time
i reached for victory i thought i won
but ur lurking there ur keeping a secret from me
i ponder on that moment when i felt alone

in the moment of that triumph when my profit seemed so near
my rivals envy surfaced shoot the gun runaway out of fear
ur intentions r not clear ur like a snake inside the grass
strike me when i least expect it leaving scars thatre gonna last

i see u lurking there ur keeping a secret from me
always ponder on that moment when i felt alone
its not my fault that they like me more what do u want from me
tried to stab me then and there as i walk home

and after what ive done for u
i gave u what u wanted
u still treat me like a no one
and when everything is said and done
and im finally gone
ill be absent realize what Uve done >

class president

u painted me a picture watched the colors fade away
oh love liar
u were the only thing i wanted then u made the skies turn gray
oh love liar

im just a pawn in ur game
a role u want me to play
i watch the truth unveil
i see ur real face
(x2)

wounds deep & raw
they question what i saw
thought i was pure im wrong
tainted w/ many flaws
a burning ache remains
a constant haunting trace
in reverie im lost in an unfamiliar place

in the debris of ur love
tarnished memories ur trust betrayed
u love liar
its so quiet down here
ill sing freely breaking from ur chain
(can u hear me now?)
u love liar

love liar

its a hard pill to swallow
& if anyone asks for me
just tell them im not home
i hear ur call
always feel like im being followed
god please dont wake me up
cause im not facing tmrw

n if it rlly mattered that much
u should tell me instead of hiding
n if it rlly matters that much
u could tell me im tired of fighting
(x2)

youll tell me its all my fault
i stay in my place
im crawling up on the walls
confined in my space
making life hard to live
so im hiding my face
maybe ill change my mind tmrw

melancholy

rushed i actually hate this song so much

every waking moment i stare at ur picture til i lose myself
ask me where im going cant answer cause im running from ur help
theres no way of knowing where the next stop is on this certain route
but i still try to find it out

the highs the lows i always stay true to myself
good bye until next time tired of the cards ive been dealt
when i was young i told my friends that i would be something
i lost my patience tried too hard til i flew away
waiting for that day

framework

its about time to let go of whats no longer mine
such a painful truth to deal with all the patterns dont align
the art of losing always falls on me what am i doing wrong
i dont see anything not a single sign

fuck
gotta do what i gotta do today but i cant get it off my mind
im fucked up im not thinking straight im wasting all my time
if i had never strummed that guitar string would i even be alive?
never once did it right not a single sign

the art of losing always calls to me but we dont get along
makes me feel stupid when im in my room just making stupid songs
the art of losing always falls on me what am i doing wrong
i dont see anything not a single sign
(x2)

the art of losing

produced by me & inci0
featuring inci0 @manmelter

lyrics:

@lynyou
and all he had to do was change his name to get away
i would hurt myself to get rid of your pain
a mistake that was made to ruin my whole day
and now he's gone, vanished without a trace
and all he had to do was change his name and hide his face
to get away from them calling his name
and all he had to do was run far to a safer place
and now he's gone, vanished without a trace

@manmelter
lately ive been taking toxins
broke down with nothing but a 20 in my pocket
on the freeway dazed and nauseous
screaming cause i hate the way that everybody mocked him
oh when your soul is gone
i'll be the one to call on god
mary taught me how to deal with emotions
mama told me not to say im wrong
its a cycle in a cyclone
interventions never worked
im on a tightrope tryna find home
one wrong move and im lower than dirt
its a game i play with a smile on my face
in denial but i know its not easy
ive been searching through my files tryna gather all your pictures
its necessary but it aint pleasing

@lynyou
and all he had to do was change his name to get away
i would hurt myself to get rid of your pain
a mistake that was made to ruin my whole day
and now he's gone, vanished without a trace
and all he had to do was change his name and hide his face
to get away from them calling his name
and all he had to do was run far to a safer place
and now he's gone, vanished without a trace

trace

prod me +intro synth from @omgisai

i guess im back where i left off
has the grass grown any longer
last time we talked u got pissed off
did i ruin ur fun?
if i wanted to i could take u down w/ me
but i know u dont want that so i wont

i wanted more but i received closure
the ends right there n im getting closer
i got one more night until its over
i wasted time trying to let go of her
and now i know and now i know
i cant let it happen again
and now i know and now i know
i cant let it happen again

i havent had a break to take for a while now
ive been fighting for my life
its not that easy to get u to calm down
i know u hate the way i...
talk about the past but i still wont stop
i know u hate the things i...
want but at some point i gotta turn it off

idle

i was hiding
bad choices im always writing
thats a battle not worth fighting
u hurt me / all of that misguiding

its hard 2 talk
i know i hurt u but its not my fault
u didnt see what i saw
one step is all i took 
and then i lost

oh its so sad to think about the good times / u & i

i was hiding
i got so much worse at deciding
cant help but think about the past when im alone & the suns not shining
did you get what you wanted? or are you not done
u keep on wasting time / how are u not giving up

its hard 2 talk
i know i hurt u but its not my fault
u didnt see what i saw
one step is all i took 
and then i lost

u & i

circa august 2024
prod me

lyrics/
and i know when its all done
ur gonna blame me, ur gonna blame me
and i know when its all done
ur gonna blame me, ur gonna blame me

i need a warning when i get close to her
its never fair at all
always ask myself what am i doing wrong
dont wanna lose u again
but ur slipping away like the last time
i keep holding on to fall apart
tell me what ur feeling on the inside

and i know when its all done
ur gonna blame me, ur gonna blame me
and i know when its all done
ur gonna blame me, ur gonna blame me

wont u take me back?
sometimes i wanna give up all i have
i got problems stacked
i been doing other shit to make me mad

and i know when its all done
ur gonna blame me, ur gonna blame me
and i know when its all done
ur gonna blame me, ur gonna blame me

valetical

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