My Fans Kept Me Alive is Willa’s rawest confession yet—a cinematic, emotionally scorched tribute to the fans who carried her through the silence. It’s not a thank-you. It’s survival carved into sound.

The beat is moody and atmospheric, built on ambient crowd noise, flickering synths, and candlelight percussion. The verses are bar-heavy and vulnerable, tracing the edge between collapse and resurrection. Willa doesn’t romanticize the struggle—she documents it. Every line is a scar. Every breath is a receipt.

The hook hits like a whispered scream:

“No label, no deal—just fans with fire and a myth they feel.”

My Fans Kept Me Alive

Produced by: @Boyfifty

won't let it show (Lyrics)

They act like they know but I know that you don’t
I’m tired of feeling like this on low
Feel sick to my stomach but won’t let it show
This is life as I know
Bitch I learnt how to cope

I just want one more wish
To stop me from feeling like this
It ain’t been a month it’s been longer than I can think back ever since I thought something was wrong

Re write my wrongs
Put heart in my songs
I’m tired bout writing that shit that was false
I know I ain’t next yeah
What I think they impressed na

I been so fake I lost sight of my self
I look to the mirror and felt
Shit who is this, I don’t know anymore
I’m trying to heal while I’m sore
going though call after call

and my teeth are decaying
So low I be weighing

Think my health is danger

Friends haven’t seen me so long I’m a stranger
I can’t fix this shit so I’m filled with this anger

I haven’t had a girl since 2015
And still that was just some silly little thing
But shit I think back and I miss that feeling
I want someone to be there

I want someone to be there when I’m down
I just pick up the phone then you come around
And we talk and we laugh we just love what we got
it’s been a long time swear I’ve almost forgot

What it’s like to give half of my self to another
Getting drunk now we dancing with each-other
I don’t care cause we living how we wanna
And I like when we do what we want

And I know it will get better sometime
Don’t want to wait I’m slowly loosing time

I find it hard just to be myself

And I’m sorry that I could not be who you want
I got caught in my head thought I wasn’t the one
For you
So I packed up my bags
And I left just so I could keep you from falling for me
I got bad energy
I’m not who you should meet
I’m happy you found someone better than me yeah

Won't Let It Show (prod. Boyfifty)

https://song.link/us/i/1537518910

pink - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCWMFDIJOnk5CeOarRmRI6Rw

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Gotta Love (Prod. pink)

lemon lime

Mixed by Lionel Elsound
Produced by GoodJohn

All Downhill from Here (prod. Goodjohn)

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Neutral

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I Met God

Produced by Benihana Boy 
Mixed by Lionel Elsound

Whatever

Out In The Open

Produced by Pete Productionz 
Mixed by Lionel Elsound

I Miss Myself

more music soon, working hard rn

[LYRICS]

I love my family, they got me so far and
Ima stay with them, we won’t be apart yeah
Ima keep listening to what my loving heart says
I’ll stay on a move just as long as I am patient

I can clearly see my world evolving
Everyday unfolds another path before me
I’ll be out here racing anyway
I will never let these moments fade away

Running, running
Wasting all the air inside my lungs yeah
Running, you got me running
I don’t think I’ll ever feel the same no
Running, running
Can’t go back in time I guess I’m staying here
Running, I’ll be running
I’m okay with always needing change yeah

Running, I’ll be running to you
Running, coming out of the blue

Taking every moment as a sign from the stars
Living better now so I can finally love my scars
If you chose to run with me, I’d finally be at peace
I can wish my wants away, but you’re the one I need

Blessed with every moment I’ve been given with my family
But now I’m dropping everything so don’t be getting worried
I’ll still have that part of me but I need to move freely
I can wish my wants away, but you’re the one I need

Falling, you got me reaching for you
Calling, take me out the blue
Home bound, I’ll be aiming for you
I’m found, I’ll be running to you

I’ll be out here racing anyway
I will never let these moments fade away

Running, running
Wasting all the air inside my lungs yeah
Running, you got me running
I don’t think I’ll ever feel the same no
Running, running
Can’t go back in time I guess I’m staying here
Running, I’ll be running
I’m okay with always needing change yeah

Running, I’ll be running to you
Running, coming out of the blue
I will never let these moments fade away

Running, running
Wasting all the air inside my lungs yeah
Running, you got me running
I don’t think I’ll ever feel the same no
Running, running
Can’t go back in time I guess I’m staying here
Running, I’ll be running
I’m okay with always needing change yeah

@hunterjw - running (prod. antares)

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Out In The Open

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