This is my emotional loop, played out in words — have you ever been stuck in one of your own?

The Sacrificial Pawn is a soul-piercing concept playlist that explores the agony of spiritual burden, emotional martyrdom, and the quiet heroism of internal suffering. Each track unravels the psyche of a character who bleeds so others don’t have to—trapped in chains of guilt, pain, and broken promises.

From the visceral confession of “Penance” to the desperate emptiness of “I Have Nothing Left,” the playlist crescendos into the apocalyptic grief of “Epilogue After the Great Collapse” and ends on the fragile hope of “Promise.”

This collection is for those drawn to poetic lyricism, psychological depth, and cinematic emotional arcs. Fans of concept albums that blend theology, trauma, and sacrifice will find a kindred spirit in The Sacrificial Pawn.

The Sacrificial Pawn – A Haunting Journey Through Martyrdom and Inner Turmoil

Her Words Kill - Sir, This Is A Cut Throat Fashion

Negative Zero

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"Cycles" is a confession of despair — a bleak meditation on trauma, repetition, and emotional paralysis. From the opening line “My entire existence is a slave,” this track captures the suffocating nature of rumination, broken relationships, and self-destruction.

With lines like “addicted to sadness, my body withdrawals when there isn’t any madness”, it becomes clear that this piece is a window into a soul stuck on repeat — aware of the loop, but unable to break it.

This is not for the faint of heart. It’s for those who’ve seen rock bottom, stared at it, and still kept writing.

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My entire existence
is a slave
chained to the past
with chackles of pain.

rumination begets rumination.

thoughts crumble
and destinegrate into particles.

panic weaves itself
into the fabric of my being
causing isolation.

frozen heart,
broken soul
tattered surrender flag
bruises, and burns
abuse, mistreatment
cycles. repeated.

memories are poisonous,
addicted to sadness
my body withdrawals
when there isn't any madness.
abuse, mistreatment
cycles. repeated.

suicidal man
desperate for something
can't find what he's looking for
poverty at his core
destined for nothing
friendships are rusting.
abuse, mistreatment
cycles. repeated.

suicidal man
desperate for something
can't find what he's looking for
poverty at his core
destined for nothing
friendships are rusting.
abuse, mistreatment
cycles. repeated.

Cycles

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"Penance" is a cry from the cross of self-inflicted guilt — where the wounds are spiritual, but the bleeding is real. Haunted by past sins and spiritual torment, this track channels raw vulnerability into sacred confession.

Lines like “nails through my shoulders, nails through my feet” and “I'm abuser incarnate” frame a soul in crucifixion, caught between repentance and damnation. It's not just pain — it’s punishment. A desperate attempt to earn forgiveness through suffering.

This is for anyone who’s ever begged for mercy they felt they didn’t deserve.

If this one speaks to your soul — I want to hear what you felt.

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sing a poisoned soliloquy
instilled in villainy
my heart bleeds
i can't sleep
I haven't dreamed
you be're haunting me when I do
when I sleep 
I always have to find you
I'm afraid
I can't turn it off,
I'm pollution, 
smoke from a car exhaust
heavy hands
too heavy to carry you
but these same hands 
we're enough to bury you

I've been away
awake on repeat
nails through my shoulders
nails through my feet
feel the self penance
the pain is incomplete
I need to suffer more
so I may regain my seat

The masquerade
of a man
and a demon caged
spirit bound
to the wraiths
and their burning rage
you made a deal
with the devil
and you signed the page
now you'll die 
and nobody
will know your name

I've been away
awake on repeat
nails through my shoulders
nails through my feet
feel the self penance
the pain is incomplete
I need to suffer more
so I may regain my seat

I'm sorry, forgive me
my sins are transparent
I'm abuser incarnate
I made that apparent
please!
forgive me!

I've been away
awake on repeat
nails through my shoulders
nails through my feet
feel the self penance
the pain is incomplete
I need to suffer more
so I may regain my seat


Penance

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"Stay That Way" is a poetic descent into shame, sadness, and shadow-self. Carved from confessions and mythic metaphors, this track is a lament from a soul caught between emotional repression and raw vulnerability.

Lines like “a sadness robe made of tainted silk” and “it’s not really shade, but a shadow that I create” hit like gothic scripture — meditating on guilt, regret, and the fear that some scars never heal.

This is for anyone who’s been told to “stay strong” when they’re already breaking.

If you’ve ever wept in silence and wore your shame like armor, this song is for you.

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with the roar of a manticore
I descend from my throne with my hands of war
heart has a blackened core
it's as if I can't control myself anymore

And these blood drops paint the quilt
a sadness robe made of tainted silk
confessing is painful still
but I need to in order for me to regain my will

I'm afraid...
the moment you realize it's not really shade
but a shadow that I create
it's obvious
if I'm around
you will seal your fate.
I'm afraid!
I'm supposed to be stoic with a brooding face
but I'm left in this foolish state
filled with shame
and I'm sure that I'll stay that way 

And these blood drops paint the quilt
a sadness robe made of tainted silk
confessing is painful still
but I need to in order for me to regain my will

I'm afraid...
the moment you realize it's not really shade
but a shadow that I create
it's obvious
if I'm around
you will seal your fate.
I'm afraid!
I'm supposed to be stoic with a brooding face
but I'm left in this foolish state
filled with shame
and I'm sure that I'll stay that way 

And these blood drops paint the quilt
a sadness robe made of tainted silk
confessing is painful still
but I need to in order for me to regain my will



Stay That Way

"Sacrificial Pawn" by Vaelrix is a hauntingly raw exploration of male vulnerability, trauma, and the psychological aftermath of abuse. With poetic lyricism and soul-piercing emotion, this song confronts addiction, disassociation, and the silence surrounding male sexual assault. Blending dark ambient textures and introspective vocals, Vaelrix delivers a powerful confession wrapped in pain, numbness, and emotional honesty. If you're searching for deeply personal music about trauma, recovery, and inner turmoil, 'Sacrificial Pawn' resonates on a level few songs dare to reach.

Lyrics:

[Intro]

[verse 1]
Cold stare on my flesh
Strip me naked with your eyes
He took away my innocence
I'll never be alright
Heroin a pendulum 
It sways within my mind
I'm numb, the way you touch me
it's as if you're blind
Tell me how to stay calm
my mental state declines
I can't even climax
without the thought of getting high

[chorus]
Where do I go from here?
my life is gone
Confess til my soul is clear
I'm just a pawn
what I'm left with is pathetic
empathetic but withdrawn 
I lost who I was. 
I'm just a sacrificial pawn 

[Verse 2]
Socially awkward
I can't embrace with love
it's as if I'm paralyzed
when trapped within his glove
These women don't get me
they think I'm self absorbed
I can't resist my suffering 
when it's banging on my door
I smile like a liar
while my silence starts a war
I want to just retreat
to the way I was before

[chorus]
Where do I go from here?
my life is gone
Confess til my soul is clear
I'm just a pawn
what I'm left with is pathetic
empathetic but withdrawn 
I lost who I was. 
I'm just a sacrificial pawn 

[Bridge]
A flesh light
Blood stains on the bed
Body raped
under a black light
That's fine. 
that's fine. 
I have no choice. 
but that's fine.

[chorus, instrumental swells]
Where do I go from here?
my life is gone
Confess til my soul is clear
I'm just a pawn
what I'm left with is pathetic
empathetic but withdrawn 
I lost who I was. 
I'm just a sacrificial pawn


Sacrificial Pawn

"I Have Nothing Left" by Vaelrix is a dark, emotional journey through despair, addiction, and spiritual fatigue. Featuring haunting melodies and raw, poetic lyrics, this track captures the numbness of losing purpose and the weight of carrying pain alone. Perfect for fans of introspective dark pop, soul-baring confessions, and cinematic soundscapes.

Lyrics:

maybe if I died and gave myself to suicide
the voices telling me to die
they'll disappear

twisted moral compass invited cruel injustice
my primitive impulses
and fear

leaves me in this state
of perpetual decay
The agony of spectating death

They sanctify my ennui
yet desecrate my body
what purpose, if any, is left? 

[chorus]
I'm not perfect
I never said I was
the moral high ground
I've never been above
It's everlasting
Sin stains the flesh
I think I'm giving up
I have nothing left
I have nothing left
I have nothing left.

[Verse 2]
I've thought about the drugs, it's alluring with its tug
when I was young and my very dumb
an alcoholic

Addiction in my blood, and I know it's not enough
I'm a danger to myself
so catastrophic

I'm afraid of what I'll do
if I find myself with brew
I don't want that trail of destruction

But my body's so fatigued
from the sorrow and the grief
I feel like I need it to function

[Bridge]
There was a time
Before the screens
when love meant more to me
than dopamine
I am a mind
Devoid of dreams
I'm empty..
an evaporated stream

[chorus]
I'm not perfect
I never said I was
the moral high ground
I've never been above
It's everlasting
Sin stains the flesh
I think I'm giving up
I have nothing left
I have nothing left
I have nothing left.


I Have Nothing Left

“Promise” is a cinematic dark ballad blending haunting orchestral and blues textures with fragile male vocals. Mournful piano, swelling strings, ghostly electric guitar, and subtle percussion carry confessional lyrics about addiction, obsession, and broken promises. This song feels like a funeral lament, capturing the tragedy of making a promise you cannot keep. For listeners drawn to deeply emotional, gothic, and brutally honest music. Let “Promise” pull you into its sorrow. Listen, share, and feel every word.

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
This head of cancer
Infecting what I write
a necromancer 
my words are parasites
it's so revolting
I'm going through withdrawal
listen to scolding
it raised my cortisol 

these words obnoxious
but numb like lidocaine 
wicked subconscious 
submerged in Sonic rain
I am the toxins
that lives in Tylenol
this pscilocybin 
I had to write it all...

[prechorus]
it's the tragedy of an apathy, and a mind that wanders lost..
you echo inside, a jeckle and hyde, how much did the hollow cost?
evaporated hatred, when I realized I was all alone
the roads to your heart were broken apart then replaced by cobblestone...

[Chorus]
whether or not, I stop
I'm seeing beyond this
I tell you, I promise
the dopamine rush
it opens me up
I'm not likely to stop this
not likely to stop this
I shouldn't have made that promise.

[postchorus]
I just didn't think,
I would be so attracted to this
and I didn't know
it would become my reason to live 

[Verse 2]
I can't abandon,
the people I chose to keep
they're my companions
been around like a rotary
I don't remember
what it's like to not obsess
all I have are letters
and a pressure that's in my chest.

if I don't release it?
Then I flood from the inside out
there's so many voices
I need to speak them before they sprout
an invasive species
that will spread these corrupted weeds
this poison Ivy
disseminates through the speech as seeds

[bridge]
my promise, I can't keep it 
like a secret of suicide 
get blue when I recycle
refuse to reuse like the bin is dry 
unstable prophet
a meme coin with a high esteem
I have to rocket
if i didn't I wouldn't write a scheme

prechorus]
it's the tragedy of an apathy, and a mind that wanders lost..
you echo inside, a jeckle and hyde, how much did the hollow cost?
evaporated hatred, when I realized I was all alone
the roads to your heart were broken apart then replaced by cobblestone...

[Chorus]
whether or not, I stop
I'm seeing beyond this
I tell you, I promise
the dopamine rush
it opens me up
I'm not likely to stop this
not likely to stop this
I shouldn't have made that promise.

[postchorus]
I just didn't think,
I would be so attracted to this
and I didn't know
it would become my reason to live 

[Outro]
I love you 
I couldn't do it.
I tried. 
I'm sorry.


Promise

[Verse]
We never change
It’s useless to try
I’ll tear out the page 
Where you promised the lies
That kept me alive

[Chorus]
Blame yourself for me
So I- 
I won’t relapse and
Crave your love again
Break yourself for me
For me
Do it all for me

[Verse]
I feel so strange
So lifeless 
Like something died
I’ll tear out the page
Where you promised the lies
That kept me alive 

[Chorus]
Blame yourself for me
So I- 
I won’t relapse and
Crave your love again
Break yourself for me
For me
Do it all for me

do it all for me

[Verse]
Validation station calling my name
Empty lines whisper
They’re all the same
Recognition hiding
Playing coy
A shadow’s game
A broken toy

[Prechorus]
But the course keeps winding tight
A loop
A spiral
Out of sight

[Chorus]
Validation oh it’s a tricky game
Chasing echoes
Chasing fame
Is it real or is it mine
Recognition the course that's fine

[Verse 2]
Mirrors laughing
Bending the truth
Staring back with the eyes of youth
The train rolls on
No ticket to show
Do I stay or let it go

[Bridge]
A fine line
A blurred design
Chasing dreams that intertwine
Validation whispers
It’s all a test
Can you face it
Can you rest

[Chorus]
Validation oh it’s a tricky game
Chasing echoes
Chasing fame
Is it real or is it mine
Recognition the course that's fine

Validation Station

[Verse 1]
Dust on my hands dust on my knees
Searching for answers in the desert breeze
Hunger in my gut hunger in my soul
Is this the lesson or is this the toll

[Chorus]
Man doesn’t live on bread alone
Words from the mouth of God
Echo like stones
Man doesn’t live on bread alone
What fills the heart
What builds the bone

[Verse 2]
Forty years of wandering feet
Blisters burning under the heat
Manna falls but it ain't enough
I’m craving the voice that calls my bluff

[Prechorus]
Shadows whisper but they lie
Only truth can satisfy

[Chorus]
Man doesn’t live on bread alone
Words from the mouth of God
Echo like stones
Man doesn’t live on bread alone
What fills the heart
What builds the bone

[Bridge]
You fed me words sharper than steel
Cut me open just to heal
I thought I needed just the bread
But it’s Your voice that wakes the dead

Bread Alone

mama's boy

a curse ties us down
to our broken ways 
forever hexed 
lost, drifting in a maze
(is it true?)

are we dead?
or are we just 
sleepwalking?
when night falls
the city calls
for us to walk 
(on the edge)

i don’t know if i can take
much more of this simulation 
i feel like it’s about to break 
into a worst situation

are we dead?
or are we just 
sleepwalking?
when night falls
the city calls
for us to walk 
(on the edge of nowhere,
on the edge of nowhere) 

are we dead?
or are we just 
sleepwalking?
when night falls
the city calls
for us to walk

forever hexed

Lyrics:

You
Kept me in the queue I'm the second dude
I'm
In a different mood I might break a thing or two
Why
Did you stab me in the back I wish it wasn't true
But if our
Love wasn't a heart attack I'd leave it all to you
You kept me in the queue I'm the second dude
I'm
In a different mood I might break a thing or two
Why
Did you stab me in the back I wish it wasn't true
But if our
Love wasn't a heart attack I'd leave it all to you

I'd leave it all to you
I'd leave it all to you
I'd leave it all to you
I'd leave it all

You
Kept me in the queue I'm the second dude
I'm
In a different mood I might break a thing or two
Why
Did you stab me in the back I wish it wasn't true
But if our
Love wasn't a heart attack I'd leave it all to you
You kept me in the queue I'm the second dude
I'm
In a different mood I might break a thing or two
Why
Did you stab me in the back I wish it wasn't true
But if our
Love wasn't a heart attack I'd leave it all to you

I killed my old self, can't have him back
Quit saving me a spot, whatever you got planned
Been in this line I can hardly stand
I don't understand how you could be such a high demand

You
Kept me in the queue I'm the second dude
I'm
In a different mood I might break a thing or two
Why
Did you stab me in the back I wish it wasn't true
But if our
Love wasn't a heart attack I'd leave it all to you
You kept me in the queue I'm the second dude
I'm
In a different mood I might break a thing or two
Why
Did you stab me in the back I wish it wasn't true
But if our
Love wasn't a heart attack I'd leave it all to you

I'd leave it all to you
I'd leave it all to you
I'd leave it all to you
I'd leave it all

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Vaelrix is a genre-bending lyricist whose work blurs the line between rap, poetry, and cinematic storytelling. With thousands of songs written and a catalog shaped by trauma, transformation, and spiritual unrest, every track is a raw confession wrapped in layered metaphors. Drawing influence from anime, philosophy, theology, and the darkest corners of the mind, Vaelrix delivers complex rhyme schemes and emotionally charged narratives that cut deep and linger. This isn't just music—it's survival through sound. Welcome to the archive of a soul set on fire.


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