You Can't See
© 1994 Vagenda
(Composed at age 17)
(Recorded October 14, 2015)

Sometimes, you can't see
And it can happen to me
You've gotta slow down

You drown in endless thoughts, you fight,
You walk down an endless road at night,
Your souls cold

We let it happen
It didn't have to happen
We could have worked it out

Now "What'll I ever do without you?"
And a million other metaphors
Sound so cliché

Sometimes, you can't see
And it can happen to me
You've gotta slow down

You drown in endless thoughts, you fight,
You walk down an endless road at night,
Your souls cold

Is it all in my head?
It tends to lean in juxtaposition
What is life all about?

But I can't help but wonder
If only I, if only I…
But it's alright
But it's alright

It hurts to close this final chapter,
The one important, yet tragic chapter
Of my life

The Nerado Black Sessions

You Can't See (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Golden Glo
© 1994 Vagenda
(Composed at age 17)
(Recorded on October 19, 2015)

Is it such a big crime
To have a couple of friends
Over to have a good time

Just a couple of blades
And a bottle of pills
If you're satisfied with cheap thrills

I just keep trying
But my tainted mind
Needs tainted wine

No matter how far I go
It's just not good enough!

I never wanted to be
I never wanted to show
I never puked on cheap wine
Bask in the after-glow


Golden Glo (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Back When Everything Was...
© 1996 Vagenda - (January 17, 1996)
(Composed at age 19)
(Recorded on October 28, 2015)

Back when everything was beautiful
Back when everything was true
Back when everything was innocent
Back when everything was new
I never wanted it to end
I never wanted it to be through
All I ever wanted was everything
Back when everything was you
I never wanted to hurt you
I never wanted to break your heart
All I ever wanted was everything
Now everything tears me apart


Back When Everything Was (feat. Hatsune Miku)

The Song
© 1993 Alissa O'Connor & Vagenda
(Lyrics © Alissa O'Connor 1993 - (November 30, 1993))
(Music © Vagenda 1994 - (March 11, 1995) (Composed at age 17))
(Recorded on November 1, 2015)

If I should die in my sleep tonight
If I should never wake up again
If I should go deaf or blind
Would you leave me here all alone
Would you pick up the pieces and leave
Or would you sit and think of me
Because
If you should die in your sleep tonight
If you should never wake up again
If you should go deaf or blind
I would mourn for you forever
I would sit by your side and cry
I would do anything I could do for you
For I love you, I need you
And I'll never let you go
No matter what the circumstances
I'll always be here
Just for you my dear


The Song (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Sweet Child O' Mine
(c) 1987 Guns 'N' Roses
- originally released on August 15, 1988
- from the album Appetite For Destruction
- dedicated to the late Ian Thomas, who had originally pushed me to learn this song as a child.
(Recorded on November 20, 2015)

She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky

Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that special place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably break down and cry

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I'd hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain

Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder and the rain
To quietly pass me by

[3x]
Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

[4x]
Where do we go?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go?
Sweet child o' mine

Sweet Child O' Mine (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Pigs In Submarines
(c) 1995 The Lesbians
dedicated to the late Kyle Chambers
(Recorded on November 28, 2015)

Pigs in submarines
Cows in limousines
Horses in magazines
We all use Vasoline
I'm a washing machine
The cat got a broken spleen
I'm a washing machine
I'm a washing machine


Pigs in Submarines (feat. Hatsune Miku & Cyberdiva)

Cast In Shadows
© 2000 Vagenda
(Composed at age 23)
(Recorded on November 30, 2015)

The sky parts just before her lips
Her words hang in the air
A chill as my thoughts are eclipsed
By a warmth from her stare
Time
Just
Stands
Still
I'm fighting to be there
Could it be better if some things had just never been
Cast in shadows
Cast in shadows
Memory makes the cut in me
While I am
Cast in shadows
Sometimes oceans lay between us
As I run my hands through your hair
Just memories like phantoms with a vengeance
Smother me unless they see how you care
Time
Just
Stands
Still
Tell me "Be strong and bear"
Easy for you to say, I don't know where to begin
Cast in shadows
Cast in shadows
Memory makes the cut in me
While I am
Cast in shadows
*solo*
But I keep on fighting
Like my minds hit by lightning
Here I am
Cast in shadows
Cast in shadows
Memory makes the cut in me
While I am
Cast in shadows


Cast in Shadows (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Immortal
© 1995 Vagenda (January, 1995)
(Composed at age 18)
(Recorded on December 3, 2015)

I'm the chosen one
I'm the sacred son
Think your feelin' pain, take a breath, 'cause I've only just begun

I'm the sentient child
Born free and wild
Take a second look 'cause you won't be seeing me around for a while

You can't make me die
I just want to die with peace of mind
You can't make me die 'cause I'm IMMORTAL
Once a mortal....

I'm the setting pace
Of an ethereal race
I'll take your retribution and I'll shove it in your face

You built your nest of pine
Your safety's in your shrine
How will you handle the truth once you find yourself out of time!

You can't make me die
I just want to die with peace of mind
You can't make me die 'cause I'm IMMORTAL.....

You're your own enemy....
You're your own enemy....
You're your own enemy....
You're your own enemy....

I'm the gate watcher
Evil cupid avenger
Forced to judge a balance without a sympathetic temper

I'm forced to act on you
Without eyes to see through
Why must we sin, why must we all suffer

You can't make me die
I just want to die with peace of mind
You can't make me die 'cause I'm IMMORTAL


Immortal (feat. Hatsune Miku)

To Silence
© 1992 Vagenda
(Composed at age 15)
(Recorded on December 9, 2015)

Holy swings around
The second sound
Hand to the ground
Summers fresh cut symphony

Darkness to behold
In winters cold
Don't be so bold
And die in blood atop the hungry teeth

He's falling down
Now strike the ground
The new surround-
ings confuse the eyes of air

The sun's astound
Clouds gather 'round
To cry drip drop
Drip no drop to spare

In minds obnoxiousness
Slowly losing consciousness
Like it, I'd rather leave

The waters warm
The air's so cold
The tree won't drink
And there's nothing, nothing left to breath

STOP
To the silence

You live
Your life
Too fast
So fast

You love
Your life
You crash!


To Silence (feat. Hatsune Miku)

The First
(c) 1992 Vagenda
(Composed at age 15)
(Recorded on December 13, 2015)

* There are no lyrics to this song. This was the first song ever written with Nerado Black, at a jam session as we were getting to know each other. It was improved, and became this thing with no words. This may well only end up as a bonus track, as the last track, on the "Monori Rogue Edition" of the release.


The First (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Not My Friend
© 1995 Vagenda (September, 1995)
(Composed at age 18)
(Recorded on December 14, 2015)

 
Dave
You opened up to me
Confessions in your grieves
You must have brought it on yourself
Because your lying through your teeth
Truth is 
Some believe you for a while
Through your sick and twisted smile
But you are no one's friend
You just look out for number one.
Can you feel
My eyes when
They see through
Your shallow
Fucking soul
Tear the threads
Weaved inside
Each man's pride
Guilts a knife
Suicide
Tension builds
My fist clenched
I'll give you
A taste of
Honesty
But who am I
Who are you
I don't care
You're just a disgrace!
All my friends, they’re all in my head
And I don’t know if I’ll see the day
When all of my friends lose fear of themselves
But I don’t give a fuck anyway
‘Cause I’m right here, entrapped in my shell
And I don’t know if I’m getting out
Until the day I realize what life’s about
*Ronda Rousey* "I have this one term for the kind of woman that my mother raised me to not be, and I call it a 'do nothing bitch'."
*Hatsune Miku* "Make me fries!"
*Guitar Solo Begins*
*Ronda Rousey* "like the kind of chick that just like tries to be pretty and be taken care of by somebody else. That's why I think that it is hilarious like when the people like say my body looks masculine, or something like that and I'm just like 'listen, just because my body was developed for a purpose other than fucking millionaires doesn't mean it's masculine. I think it is femininely bad-ass as fuck because there is not a single muscle on my body that isn't for a purpose because I'm not a do nothing bitch'."
Trust
Like love, are dangerous roles
There is no way to control
You give it all away
And they try to steal your soul
But you are not my friend
No, you are not my friend
You are not my friend
I fucking should have know better.
I just can't
Wait for the
End of the
Earth, please will
It'll arrive
Sun explodes
Sets me free
My atoms
Somewhere else
Spawn a tree
The black hole
Is the gate
We are sperm
And that is
The order
Don't you try
To tell me
That I'm lucky enough!
All my friends, they’re all in my head
And I don’t know if I’ll see the day
When all of my friends lose fear of themselves
But I don’t give a fuck anyway
‘Cause I’m right here, entrapped in my shell
And I don’t know if I’m getting out
Until the day I realize what life’s about


Not My Friend (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Pack-A-Bowl
(c) 2003 Vagenda
(Composed at age 26)
(Recorded on December 18, 2015)

*this song began as a jam based off of a segment of a bass line by a friend of mine, and great bassist from Nova Scotia, Canada, Pierre Porter.  We used to jam this all the time.  This segment was a part of a larger work he had made called "Dat Dar Other Tune". Hope you enjoy what I did to that line Pierre!
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
Pack a bowl
etc...


Pack-A-Bowl (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Beloved Whore
© 1994 Vagenda
(Composed at age 17)
(Recorded on September 27, 2015)

If you want me to
Then don't ask me anymore
If you wrap your arms around me
Then we'll end up on the floor
Why do you want me
When you'd do the same to anyone
Don't humor me with reasons 'cause
If it's all the same
If it's all the same to you, then
Pardon me if I expected you to care
You Beloved Whore
You climb in silent gestures
Are you pleasing anyone
Behind a flirtatious mind
Is the soul of someone crying
Will you satisfy your interests
In me and then will just move on
I would have loved to heal you but
You were only having fun
You weren't hurting anyone
Felt your stomach start to burn
Not knowing one safe place to turn
Inside your mind, emotions burst
Searching for something in your thirst
For why you want to live this way
Is there anything
Left to say?
You Beloved Whore

Beloved Whore (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Under The Gun
© 1994 Vagenda
(Composed at age 17)
(Recorded on October 12, 2015)

She dances on moonlight
In her I confide
Her lips have a healing power
Her names suicide

My life seems so much better
Under the Gun
My blood stains
Under the Gun
My minds been burnt to a cinder
Under this Sun
Death seems warm and tender

Her latent seduction
Fills my empty soul
She comforts my pain until again
Were out of control

My life seems so much better
Under the Gun
My blood stains
Under the Gun
My minds been burnt to a cinder
Under this Sun
Death seems warm and tender

Under the Gun (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Winchester
© 1994 Vagenda - (December 17, 1994)
(Composed at age 18)
(Recorded on October 10, 2015)

 
My mind was my suicide machine
Gentle ticking bomb
And I was serious

I studied my life and my demise
I weighed the choices for and against
And I was serious

I stripped off my social garments
My pride, my morals, all, except reason
And I was serious

Winchester Super-X (R)
300 Mag
180 Gr. Power-Point
And I was serious

Will you draw the line
Will you show me
The truth

SAVE ME

Stare and you won't see
Reality finds you
Will freeze

SAVE ME

Gape into the jaws
The doom of an untamed tooth

BLEED ME

For all I am worth
Eternally with your disease

MY IMMORTAL

And I looked down the narrow abyss of my adversary to study it.
And I was serious

And the abyss stared back in me with one distant, steady eye.
And we were serious

Then suddenly my adversary was antagonized
it lashed out without mercy or remorse
And he was serious

Today I walk, my adversary expired in the ground
With nothing to regret but a broken window

Will you draw the line
Will you show me
The truth

SAVE ME

Stare and you won't see
Reality finds you
Will freeze

SAVE ME

Gape into the jaws
The doom of an untamed tooth

BLEED ME

For all I am worth
Eternally with your disease

MY IMMORTAL


Winchester (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Where Are You?
© 1994 Vagenda
(Composed at age 17)
(Recorded on October 18, 2015)

Why do you
Come here?
Your black faith has stained your lips
And you will spread your disease

Spread your condemnation
For reasons you can't see
Well, I don't think I'm Jesus
There'll be no miracles from me

I say begat your Holy War
I say begat your Holy War!
Down on your knees, low is your time
The slant of light casts a volatile shine!
To worship a God you can't find

Where are You?
Where are You, where are You?
Where are You?

A thousand years, a thousand tears,
A thousand deaths that had to be
You hunted down Ambrose
And turned your unquenched anger to me

To play inside of Nero's mind
As you had in those days
Will encompass
Will condemn
Will encompass
Generations.

I say begat your Holy War
I say begat your Holy War!
Down on your knees, low is your time
The slant of light casts a volatile shine!
To worship a God you can't find

Where are You?
Where are You, where are You?
Where are You?

Where Are You (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Aphrodite's Suicide
© 2001 Vagenda (October 3, 2001)
(Composed at age 24)
(Recorded December 13, 2015)

 
My one redeeming virtue
Is that I never meant to hurt you
Ya ya
My one redeeming virtue
Is that I never meant to hurt you
Ya ya
So I pick up all the pieces and try to start again
They're all hidden underneath the veils
But if they're pieces of delusion of something that never ends
Well they're better off broke if it only fails
My one remaining virtue
Is that I never meant to hurt you
Ya ya
My one remaining virtue
Is that I never meant to hurt you
Ya ya
So I picked up all the pieces trying to start again
But this time there was nothing left behind the veils
A fact that seemed so obvious
I guess its not for all of us
Don't get hung up or you'll get de-railed
Reaching out
Lust about
The beautiful
You're so beautiful
Reaching out
Lust about
The beautiful
You're so beautiful
You're so beautiful
So Beautiful
It kills me
It kills me
It kills me
It kills me
So Beautiful
It kills me
It kills me
So I pick up all the pieces and try to start again
They're all hidden underneath the veils
But if they're pieces of delusion of something that never ends
Well they're better off broke if it only fails
My one remaining virtue
Is that I never meant to hurt you
Ya ya...

Aphrodite's Suicide (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Stay Dry
© Darren Whitty 2007
(Recorded on December 13, 2015)

 
I woke up this morning
To dawn's pale light
I'd been tossing & turning
All through the night
I rolled out of bed
& thought I might
Light me up a cigarette
To make me feel alright
It's getting harder and harder
Harder to stay dry
When the rain is coming down
Falling from all sides
I've seen sunny days
I've never asked why
It's getting harder and harder
Harder to stay dry, that's right
I looked out the window
And I sighed
The rain was pouring down
Painting the outside
My head was light
My chest felt tight
What a perfect day to curl up and hide
It's getting harder and harder
Harder to stay dry
When the rain is pouring down
Coming from all sides
I've seen sunny days 
I've never asked why
It's getting harder and harder
Harder to stay dry, that's right
So many memories
And they all tried
To get the full attention
Of my third eye
Some memories are true
Others just lies
I used to be able to separate
Now I don't even try
It's getting harder and harder
Harder to stay dry
When the rain is pouring down
Painting the outside
I've seen sunny days
I've never asked why
It's getting harder and harder
Harder to stay dry
It's getting harder and harder
Harder to stay dry
When the rain is coming down
Falling from all sides
I've seen sunny days
I've never asked why
It's getting harder and harder
Harder to stay dry, that's right


Stay Dry (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Restless Afternoon
(c) 1999 Vagenda
Composed at age 22
Recorded January 17, 2016
*this song is in three sections.  Section A is the primary section.  Section B is a short transitional lament.  Section C is a drastically re-harmonized restatement

Restless Afternoon (Section A)
----------------------------------------
It's just a restless afternoon
And to look at me you'd swear I'm alone in this room.
But there's a bittersweet part of you
Here inside me

It used to be a sweet love in bloom
With this ribbon tying my soul to you
And its commitment echoes through
Says infinity
But I think I see the end

There's nothing
You don't know
Alright
Earth Raven
Door's open
...

I think I'm going to dust off my broom
And fight for some distraction from your presence inside
I used to love that special bond we shared
Now it's torture

It used to be a sweet love in bloom
With this ribbon tying my soul to you
And its commitment echoes through
Says infinity
But I think I see the end

There's nothing
You don't know
Alright
Earth Raven
Door's open
Take Flight
Don't leave your heart divided
Be solid and decided
There's only one 
There's only one
There's only one
Earth Raven
Be free.

It used to be a sweet love in bloom
With this ribbon tying my soul to you
And its commitment echoes through
Says infinity
But I think I see the end

Restless Afternoon (Section C)
----------------------------------------
It's just a restless afternoon
I've got my mind on Saskatoon
And I'll be gone soon

It's just a restless afternoon
I've got my mind on Saskatoon
And I'll be gone soon

It's just a restless afternoon
I've got my mind on Saskatoon
And I'll be gone soon

It's just a restless afternoon
I've got my mind on Saskatoon
And I'll be gone soon

It's not so much that time heals a broken heart
After a few passed years, where two ex-lovers can finally be leisurely and chat a light meaningless chat over coffee with light-hearted smiles that comfortably imply nothing nor show any signs of that purposeful intense depth that would have been in those lips a few years before.
It's not so much that time heals a broken heart
As much as it is that a heart broken if given enough time, can bleed itself so dry you have to laugh at your naivety for even believing in love, question if the warmth was even real, and to strengthen what of you is left, assume it hadn't, then blame the notions and failure on your youth…
It's not so much that time heals a broken heart
As much that time simply leaves you without one



Restless Afternoon (feat. Hatsune Miku & Kaito)

B.E.M. (Bug Eyed Monster)
© Vagenda 1995
Recorded July 1, 2016

Why do we all exist
Cries of the atheist
I am just another stupid mother-fucker
Who thinks there's a way out of this
But life is just an illusion
And I am just an alchemist

Only in this world
Only the strong survive!
Oh and I'm still alive

I'm only
Satan's child
I'm only
Alive

*female moaning*

I am sick and tired of listening to liars
Finding comfort in their phony gods
Life does not deserve such confusion
Reality, from them, was robbed

Only in this world
Only the strong survive!
Oh and I'm still alive

I'm only
Satan's child
I'm only
Alive

I feel it watching me
"What fools you mortals be"
No matter how we all try to survive
We're going to die anyway
The monster is the game of life, just a maze,
But I am not going to play

Only in this world
Only the strong survive!
Oh and I'm still alive

I'm only
Satan's child
I'm only
Alive
I'm only
Satan's child
I'm only
Alive
I'm only
Satan's child
I'm only
Alive

B.E.M.

B.E.M. (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Spirit Chaser
© Vagenda 2000
Recorded August 14, 2016

Just another snowy night
Cold feet and icy breath
And I'm 20 miles away
From realizing where I'm going

Though your never in my sight
You beat inside my chest
It would warm me for today
If it would just stop snowing

Now I think I understand, but the worlds much colder
But at least I have its weight raised off my shoulders
Now I think I understand, but the worlds much colder
But at least I have its weight raised off my shoulders

The sky is black tonight
I just wish I could see the stars
It doesn't seem like much
But the small stuff makes me feel better

Somewhere in warmth and light
Or in one of the passing cars
Someone enjoys your touch
While I try to enjoy this weather

Now I think I understand, but the worlds much colder
But at least I have its weight raised off my shoulders
Now I think I understand, but the worlds much colder
But at least I have its weight raised off my shoulders

Spirit Chaser (feat. Hatsune Miku)

California Sunshine (feat. Hatsune Miku & CyberDIVA)
© 1995 Vagenda.  All rights reserved
(January 11, 1995)
From the album "Sons Of Lillith"
Recorded on May 4, 2017

Oh I remember
Not how I lost myself, but that I felt alone
Friday night I'm wasted 
Under sunlight powered moonbeams
But my conscience is one lost soul, now
I try to remember
But I'm lost in twilight

The drinking and the drugs, they just weren't good enough
How I love
My California Sunshine
(Take a hit of the California Sunshine)

I'll get high, I'll get high as I like
I just need some papers and a bottle of black stuff, oh
I need to get away
'Cause my past is haunting me daily
I know when it's feeling right
It gently seduces my bloodstream
I try to remember
But I'm lost in twilight

The drinking and the drugs, they weren't good enough
How I love
My California Sunshine
(Take a hit of the California Sunshine)

The drinking and the drugs, they weren't good enough
How I love
My California Sunshine
(Take a hit of California Sunshine)

California Sunshine (feat. Hatsune Miku & CyberDIVA)

Fall For You
© 1995 Vagenda.  All rights reserved
(December 1, 1995)
From the album "Sons Of Lillith"
Recorded on May 22, 2017


Hate to see you hurt and plead
'Cause I've got just what you need
To end the pain you go through
	Yeah, let me put these healing hands on you
Warm me with your snake-eyes charms
Caresses and disarms
All the things that we might be
	Yeah, baby put those loving hands on me

Oh, watch me fall for you
'Cause I can't wait to fall into
Your pit of desire
Wallow in your fire
Yeah, I like it a lot
Oh, my baby don't stop
And it gets so damn hot
Dancing on her sweet spot

Super-charger flower bed
Cascading overhead
Your brilliant light shines on me
	Yeah, I can't wait for you to set me free
Eat my aphrodisiac
And break out from your white shell
So you can feel reborn
	Yeah, the sun is going to shine in the morning in the image of our spiritual twilight

Fall For You (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Consequences Of The Weather (feat. Hatsune Miku)
© 2001 Vagenda.  All rights reserved.
From the album "Sons Of Lillith"
Recorded on June 4, 2016


Everything is wonderful.
Everything is bliss.
Everything is tangible.
Everything I wish.

Everything is tangible.
Everything's delicious.
Everything's a candy cane.
Even Allouicious.

Hardly understandable.
Naive and pedantic.
Admiring and set a glow.
Devouring romantic.

Yearning unimaginable.
Desperate and fanatic.
Leaping in the world you see.
Trembling and Satanic.

Lifting all the air you breathe.
Filling them with roses.
Memorizing every scene and your elegant poses.  


Remembering your attitudes
And when you fell too weak.
Remembering the helping hand
That brushed against your cheek.

And thinking what a time we had.
Incredible, bizarre,
Knowing we would never part - 
But now we are so far…

Consequences Of The Weather (feat. Hatsune Miku)

Where's Your Heart Today (feat. CyberDIVA)
© 1993 Vagenda.  All rights reserved
From the album "Sons Of Lillith"
Recorded on July 18, 2017


Where's your heart today
In a love so true and strong, so you say
But your still afraid
Of life itself or do you like it that way
You'll someday see
How your love is bringing insanity

The truth - underneath
The excuses pinch my mind, I can't breath
NO
Just leave

So there's not much I can say
I gave you love, in fear you merely pushed it from yourself
Just makes me wonder why I ever loved
When another just got me drunk, and found myself waking up with someone else

So fade's the reasons to exist
It's pretty bad when you have paranoia in your own fist
I'm lost in lust, or whatever you could call this

I offered you love, but I was less than sand
And it feels so good 'neath her soft hand
That my love for you, so starved and strong
May fall to her touch if you should wait too long
Not that I'd quit love and force it to sever
But it's drowning and it can't hold it's breath forever

Where's Your Heart Today (Part 1) [feat. CiberDIVA]

Tomorrow
© 1999 Vagenda. All rights reserved
From the album "Sons Of Lillith"
Recorded on July 8, 2017

Be careful always
Cause I am really high right now
Take these problems
Take them all away
There's one way
To see that it will be alright
In the morning, I'll be yawning
In the neon light
and she said
Do do do dooo
Yeah, well it's always felt so nice,
Do do do dooo
Yeah, well it's always felt so nice, yeah
Yeah, well
time to do it all again tomorrow

Tomorrow (feat. Hatsune Miku)

The Only One To Blame
© 2017 Vagenda.  All rights reserved
Music And Arrangement By Vagenda
Libretto By Ashley LaRock


I broke your heart
I tore it apart
I stayed too long
I had to be wrong
I thought we were strong
Apparently not strong enough
This isn't an apology
This the venting of my emotional take on the heartbreak. 
 
It was for my own sake
I ended our crazy stupid love sooo fake
One day I met with another man at a bar
More than once I've video chatted with an older guy double my age
That's my two bad wrongs amongset the many other imperfect flaws
My two wrongs don't equate to the wrongs you done me.
I did my wrongs to be free

Just for you I went a thousand miles
I always drove to see your smile 
You had your chance to do the same
Yet our love ending somehow I'm the only one to blame

I
Am
The
Only
One
To
Blame

You had your chance to meet me halfway
You had your chance to marry me any day
You had your chance to make things fair
You had your chance to always be with me
You had your chance  to want to love me
You had your chance  to want to see me
You had your chance to want to talk to me
You had your chance to treat me right
You had your chance to live life with me
You had your chance to make our life an adventure
You had your chance to be my hope and my dream and my future
You  had your chance to drive a thousand miles
You  had your chance to always see my smile
You had your chance to be my Superman
But you are the villian and I'm the hero because

I
Am
The
Only
One
To
Blame

Our love was a crappy fall out 
not the made up Hollywood happy ending 
Our love used to be the Facebook love trending
but
Our love is a love no more
Our love is now you there and me here
Our love is miles apart
Our love ended and it broke me down

Our love was always about me loving you
Your love was you never had a clue
Your love was always everyone but me
Your love was for the friends and family you see
Your love was for your job and your money
Your love was too quickly move on and find a rebound honey

My love was trust and hopes and wishes for us to be a true hero team
My love was the sacrifice of my time, my devotion and the numerous compromises I made for you
what the heck though
Yours ours my love whats the difference there's no love now

And

I
Know 
I
Am
Not
The
Only
One
To
Blame

The Only One To Blame (feat. Hatsune Miku & Kaito)

Tattoo
© 1999 Vagenda.  All rights reserved.
(April, 1999)
Recorded July 15, 2017

Friday's arrived and I'm feeling alive
Like I'm reborn
That sting in your eyes, wipe it away
There's a world to see

Don't blink
Get your head in the game
Don't look back
Because it's never the same
Take charge
Make them remember your name
You gotta stand up
You know the reason you came
You better fight back
And get a couple of scars
Before you chill out
And lay out under the stars

Yesterday's gone but you move right along
In the new day
Why can't you just let go of the past
Just as easily?

Deep down
I know it's burning inside
So baby, wake up
And buckle in for the ride

Let go
That thing you never forget
Is gonna come back
And feel a lot like regret
It isn't insane
If you remember it all
It isn't honor
It's setting up for the fall

Friday's arrived and I'm feeling alive
Like I'm reborn
That sting in your eyes, wipe it away
There's a world to see

Don't blink
Get your head in the game
Don't look back
Because it's never the same
Take charge
Make them remember your name
You gotta stand up
You know the reason you came
You better fight back
And get a couple of scars
Before you chill out
And lay out under the stars

Life is long and by and by
We all get lost while we learn to fly
Icons. idols, all false gods
Spiritual crutches make us frauds
Never again will I lose sight
Of the source of my souls light
If you need something to remind you
... get a new tattoo

Tattoo (feat. CyberDIVA)

Serpentable (feat. Beth McClelland, CyberDIVA & Gumi)
© 1996 Vagenda.  All rights reserved
(writen on April 17, 1996)
From the album "Sons Of Lillith"
Recorded on August 23, 2017

Everywhere seemed Everything
Was innocent, So pure, it seemed
So infantile, 'til I met you
Now I feel like

	I'm trapped in your eyes
	Paint me with your lies
	Hold me in your fate
	While you turn love to hate

It's all a joke
And I'm  the clown


We slept under the castle
	Under our shrine
Call him a god among men
	In the wrong time
Its' all in your convictions
	It's all a game
But I don't have the time to
	Save the world again

Everywhere seemed Everything
Was innocent, So pure, it seemed
So infantile, 'til I met you
Now I feel like

	I'm trapped in your eyes
	Paint me with your lies
	Hold me in your fate
	While you turn love to hate

It's all a joke
And I'm  the clown

...Now if this records is being played at a club, disco, lounge, house basement, block party, car stereo, stoop, walkman, diskman, ipod, cellphone, or PA System at any other social gathering, we will now allow the beat to continue, and proceed to give you more of what you like.

Serpentable [feat. Beth McClelland, CyberDIVA & Gumi]

Never (feat. Hatsune Miku)
© 1996 Vagenda.  All rights reserved.
(April, 1996)


Take a look at yourself
And tell me if you see
Any trace of that innocence
That you used to be

Angel came to me
From Heaven today
Said don't go believin' her
Mysterious ways

I loved you like a sister
I loved you like a friend
I held you like a lover
Never thinking it would end
Long gone kisses
Float through the sky
The memories fade
But never die

You
Just
Walk
You just walk away

I walk on by
Like something I would never do

Search through your soul now child
And tell me if you find
All the answers that you seek
For your peace of mind

Angel came to me
From heaven above - she said
Can't believe how many people
Decorate love

I loved you like a sister
I loved you like a friend
I held you like a lover
Never thinking it would end
Long gone kisses
Float through the sky
The memories fade
But never die

You
Just
Walk
You just walk away

I walk on by
Like something I would never do

Never (feat. Hatsune Miku)

You And Me (Never Going To Live This Life Together) [feat. Hatsune Miku]
© 2017 Vagenda.  All rights reserved
From the album "Sons Of Lillith"
Recorded on May 5, 2017


You and me
Never going to spend this life together
Never going to share this love forever

Lyric Video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pzsOq91b0VU

You And Me (Never Going To Live This Live Together) [feat. Hatsune Miku]

G-String Blues

Vagenda is an artist from Peterborough, Ontario, Canada.  Since January 2011, Vagenda has been livestreaming audio production and gaming streams on Twitch and Hitbox, as well as writing a fictional origin story called "V is for Vagenda" hosted on multiple game league sites, Blogger, and WordPress.

Vagenda is also both recording artist and an audio engineer at Nerado Black Productions, a recording studio also in Peterborough, Ontario, Canada.

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