i throw myself into your arms
catch me, hold on, i need you
looking for someone i never loved
asking your friends about you 

let go of this ghost of the world we built
(i cried when i figured out that you were living in his house)
i can't see my throne
(i'm sleeping in my car and on my friend's couch with the tv loud) 

exhale, inhale, exhaling through your chest hole

all my favorite bands broke up and i don't know why

locked up in a little wooden box

pass me the gun
I'll pull the trigger
u were the one
that made me feel bigger

i
can
not
let
go

feel
my
weary
soul

with time we grow distant

u
were
my
lifeline

i held on
for the time
that our lips
intertwined


mein inneres für dich

i'd run away with you if it wasn't for
the lack of breaths i take
heart's beating out my chest and i
don't know who to blame
i'm overwhelmed 
overwhelmed by your presence
how could i compare
i breathe through this iron lung
my mechanized emotional support
my lungs can't take your weight 
i am asphyxiating
feel my beating heart





asphyxiate

get lost in yourself
take her place to watch you from afar
fall in place, swimming with the blood ridden legs that you came from
and you don't stop
i am the razor you gave me
that makes holes in my flesh


decaying in her bed

fuck this, i lost a friend
my own words will haunt me in the end
vomit all on my carpet 
burn down my house with myself in it
stuck at parties, come home late
my soul leaves me when i see your face

all that i want with you
is ten seconds to spare
why can't you spend your time with me

carcasses in my bedroom
put them in bags and try to hide them from you
we were never close to perfect 
stick around and you're an insect in my throat

this wasn't part of the plan

freaks (surf curse cover)

demo from like march or april 2022

lyrics:
god it was the worst feeling
to see you hanging in that tree
wish i could get those moments back
all that we could've done
if you were still here
now my conscience returns to the forest
i will meet you again

aokigahara

expectations are set too high
(god, my arm)
i can't erase it
(seems just like we've ran out of time)
yeah, the damage wears off
can't i pull ur skull into mine?
all of you expect more from me and that's nothing close to what i wanna be now
might as well just lay down and die
veins, still sterile
(painted white, white)
the conscience is no longer there
just dissolve my brain x

(sample is from flcl)

haruhara haruko

seems like I've lost myself for far too long
feels like I've lost my pieces
when you look into my eyes, i forget my sense of self respect
use me, tear me apart
but once u do, i know I'll regret, regret it
lost my mind x


do u feel the same?

run in with my damaged sense of self worth
my head is crawling with spiders
pick up the leaves and put them in my mouth
nothing else for you to know, that's just me

coffee stains

im happy! you didn't see that coming!
i know it might seem like a lie
im screaming in my room with all the lights off but i don't wanna die yeah i don't wanna die
i felt your cold hands and i just wanna warm them up
with my washed out grey sweater with some ripped up holes at the top

im dancing in my closet if u wanna join me x2

i cried last night thinking about how we're gonna move away from each other 2 years from now
do u remember when i kissed u in the park?
you said u wanna do it again
well i do too

im dancing in my closet if u wanna join me x2

(superbad sample)

bedroomluvr

i sit around and think about
how i fuck things up for myself
i make things worse with every touch that i make
i can't make it better

think about how we talked
(can't help it; the thought of you)
(i can't make things better for you)

iluvhighschool

i wanna eat yr soul
i wanna be yr friend
i wanna love u
i want to know if i can be with u
for the rest of my life
i want 2 die with u

flesheater love song

sleep tight, don't let those little bedbugs bite
as you lay your head to rest, just know that i love you

all my friends are here, even you so listen here, we can be anything we want to

so goodnight, i won't have you sit up in your bed, unless you want to

I'll miss you, the lights we hung up around our room

there's no feelings of dread, all is good inside my head

or so i think

oh well, we'll just get up and go give 'em hell

or we could just stay in bed

hey, we're okay, the bloodstains have nothing to say

and as i look up at the stars, i begin to fall into a trance, and i see you with a gun in your hand. you pull the trigger, and i die. i wake up from the dream and i am relieved, because you are laying here next to me.

(toradora sample)

the night sky looks like you when im dreaming

bled out cut in
you're no savior
today i watched a fawn get killed by a car
the driver got out and cried over what they had done
the fawn's mother abandoned it
silence is perfectly fawned out by death
take your spot
in my bloodstream
inject in me


half-dead girlfriend

fake trees - filling graves

made this under my side project fake trees

i want to be with you (sadness cover)

i want a cat

stupid noisy mess i made
lyrics:
the devil is knocking at my door
i just can't leave him there
devil on my shoulder

dry eyes - shoulder (demo)

sleepwalking

model planes - kevin are you ok? (live)

october

burymeinthesky - it'll be a long time before you'll have to make that choice, so dont worry (demo)

deserve

i swallowed a bug

sorry excuse for an apology

paralyze me 
paralyze me

your hands are cold
your hands are numb

your hair is straight and beautiful
unlike the tangled ugly mess of mine
we share the same eyes
but my vision is clouded and foggy
the color of your thoughts paint my heart
shades of purple and blue

a boxcutter's strength
is such faith
that i would be
here with you, your hair wet in the rain,
and my hand bleeding into yours

bright, little stars

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