the sky turned red then turned black
and after that its bleeding spread
scratching scars ontop of scars
endearment died eruptions start

nothing i will ever want
repeating that in different fonts
pulling out the broken parts
patch them up and they'll go far

no i dont need it so leaving is painless
all the empty vessels pretend theyre blameless
why do you hate it, but refuse to quit?
im just an empty vessel that cant be fixed

oh

its just like a brand new world
nothing that can hurt you first
scratching scars ontop of scars
endearment died where eruptions start

all the things i could ever want
repeating that in my thoughts
cutting gashes razor sharp
tore me up inside my heart

i really need it so leaving is painful
all the empty vessels think it's so shameful
so full of hatred it makes me feel sick
youre just an evil person that cant be fixed

voice: eleanor forte AI from synth v.

year

nothing left today
lightning with the pain
call it simple joy
now kill it with your voice
my fingers black and bruised
thread is coming loose
jumpin off of me 
fallin off of you
hollowed out and sunk
ruined when begun 
droning like a hit 
that echoes off a drum
my body red and scarred
you think i misconstrue
life is way too hard
for doubting like you do

Scars

collapsing everyday, moving inches when you breathe
like you won't notice nor will you notice me
all the money in the world, meaningless to you or me
am i really, really happy or should i pretend to be
do you really care, really think it's fine?
the sun and the moon to me are just a sign
nothing really ends nothing really starts
am i really happy or have i just played a part
do you really care, really think it's fair?
oh, the sun and the moon, i cant help but stare

collapse

Titleless Now

xia yu yao + eleanor forte, anri, natalie

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dont know if it's right or wrong
i can't get myself to care
wake up and just turn it down
guess it's how it goes

why can't you say what you mean
i guess it's the way we're made
do you even want to know
what's left underneath

tie it tight and i can't complain
make me cry, why, it's not from pain
from the start until the end
sweat drips down and make me red
it's your fault it's what you said

please it feels all wrong 
i want it to stop
i want to accept it
alive, simply reject it

i dont know what's wrong with me
or if i should even care
sunrays pouring through the cracks
yet, life is just so unfair
kindly ask you turn your backs
waiting for the next in line
i bet now it's plain to see
that's just the way it-

Airbreath

i do it wrong all the time
but no one saw so no one minds
dying leaves fall to the ground
when they all fall they make no more sound
its all wrong everytime
just what i saw, uh nevermind
sighing out when its all over
and suffering just to get closer

im thinking words that i cant say
outside my heart inside my brain
its all my fault i will admit
is there enough or too much of it
its wrong in its own way
just what i saw on yesterday
reminiscing on painful stings
i want to suffer for pleasant things

sitting idly waiting for ur return something tells me it must be earnedall my skin and teeth and hair abnd blood i will give to u with all my Love

Ribbon

im missing words i just wanna rewrite them distantly erupting in the horizon
utterance other words failing to describe them 
rusty stains on the inside of your shirt hem
mouthing words to stop yourself from wanting it
clearer sounds spelling out that it's poison
everything and anything that proves your existence
beating heart quickens noticing your resistance

sirens sounding, increased movement, i wish life was way more boring
go ahead please ignore me practicing being adoring

(vocals: Eleanor Forte AI, Solaria)

memories heavy in your mind
what could ever rid of them
all those weightless words wont die
time will turn them into lead

duality, unsystematically,
appeal to senses randomly
reminded me, invited me
to love or to hate, it hurts either way

trust the heaven in your mind,
knowing your sure sane affair
artificial by design
time will turn it into air
judgement feigned then is applied
hardened shifted focused stare
why wont they come back to me?
not my fault if it bleeds

exhale, seeing red
trigger finger hit the switch
inhale, it failed 
blessed to be cursed like this
accosting me, unsystematically
random idiosyncrasies
reminded me in equal parts
of love or hate
it hurts me to say this

ah

unable to discern the line between needs and wants 
lights flashing faces blur
advertisements sharpen first
useless, its useless
pointless information
uses elude you, its constant stimulation

Stimulation

yes you've heard this melody before. but it absolutely needed to be re-contextualized into a trance record. 

full album otw: Fall 2024

HIGHER 2024 (preview)

music, art: valendar
guitar: KAZUMIGUCHI
kazumiguchi yt: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCs2j...
song yt link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yv32LXnvEh8

Ok

Valendar

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