people always talk like they know me 
no one sees the knife inside my heart as i slowly die 
feelings come alive and they’re burning  
i had all the patience in the world but now i don’t try 
it’s a waste of time 
everyone walks out my life 
i say goodbye 
you’ve heard that line 
but i remember every night 
 
hey 
i’m afraid love 
lately it’s more than i just can’t wake up 
stay? 
cause i need you 
but you don’t feel the same and it’s so see through 
 
(oh i just want to go home) 

try to act like i’m tough 
cant even stomach the thought of my blood 
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh 
try to act like enough 
can’t even stomach the thought of you now  
i want to paint walls red when i’m in love 
i want to paint walls red 
i want to paint walls red oh...

i want to paint walls red [drma x michael harrison]

i should bid u, adieu
there’s something that so fucked in my head 
i want to save her, her too 
or maybe i’m just cold in my bed 
 
they’re all obsessed with the drugs 
anything to feel numb 
anything to stay up 
all for unhealthy love 
i’ve repressed way too much 
fuck i just need a hug 
lately i’m throwing up 
grab the blade with the rust 
 
i shouldn’t be one to talk about addicts cause 
i use to drown myself with any percentage 
and i would do anything to not take medicine 
i would do anything to just feel better and 
oh, now i just sit here and cope? 
thinking bout how i’d look hanging from ropes 
thinking bout how it would be better if no one had talked to me and i could just kill myself
 
oh 
i bet you’d hate me if i left you here all alone 
oh 
i bet they’re fucking sick of hearing how i’m better as bones

maybe i'm just cold in my bed [tennis player]

volume 1 on spotify, feb 3rd 

i don’t care if it’s lonely
i’m so sick of you just talking like you know me
and you could or you would if you didn’t go starting fires in this basement

oh…
hope you got everything you needed now
cause i’m burning every garden where we fell in love
and i’m killin’ every peasant that walks in this town
you know i’m painting the walls red till they scream for help

and i can bury every feeling that i’m feeling but i know that it’s just moments before i put the fucking gun in my mouth
you cut my heart and now it’s bleeding and i’m staring at the ceiling but the fuck do i expect when this is how it turns out?

oh why’d you go and make geist red
now he’s full of hate
i can’t stand to look at myself
not a fan of him
bodies scattered all across the hall
baby i don’t miss
so why’d go and makes me red
but i’m loving this...
i’ll fight an ego with a bigger one
i’ll hit another million
geistcord till the day i fucking die
but swear we’ve just begun
don’t care for anybody else
or anyone’s opinion
so go ahead and make geist red
red
red
red

i promise our love is dead [drma x lockhome]

now i’m wanting to die 
take the knife and twist it baby
i’m over this life 
know that i tried 
swear to god don’t say you miss me 
cause it’d be a lie  
 
new face, new lovers :/
i’m still stuck on the old one 
i’m sorry now 
still cold 
same covers 
cry myself to sleep 
cause ur not around 

yeah oh i guess fuck all and my mental 
drowning i’m sentimental 
don’t even want to help myself 
yeah oh took my heart and disassembled 
swearing that you were gentle 
nobody hears a cry for help :/

swear to god, don't say you miss me [drma]

i don’t want to wake up safe and sound
i’ve got a million ghosts they follow me around
cause it’s safe to say that i hate this town
and everyone that i see they act like fucking clowns  
 
well damn i lost my mind
holding on to something i couldn’t keep alive  
lights in my eyes died
staring at what was never truly mine

it’s black and white for the millionth time
the colors stripped with the lies
i’ll add the red with my bloodshot eyes
i swear i tried but you ruined my mind
the trust was pushed to the side
we couldn’t rebuild the broken ties
 
pretty eyes
how they always hypnotize
i can’t take it anymore
i’m holding on to what’s left of my pride
and i
don’t want to fight
but i can’t seem to get you off my mind

here we go again
i know you’ve had it my friends
i crashed my car through the fence  
you know i’m wanting to feel alive
it’s you and i
till the day that i die
i hope that day is tonight
cause i can’t take anymore
i tried 
i can’t take anymore i tried 

i’m no kid in the limelight
i’m more like a deer in the headlights love
already been hit to the curbside
lost so much blood but i’m alright now
and i don’t care if it feels like
razors in my thighs
soul’s been damned like wow
hope that one day i can make it out and tell you bout the love i found

here we go i take the pain like a man
bite my tongue till i can’t
i do it all just to feel alive
and where’d you go
when i just needed a friend
said you would wait till the end
but you couldn’t even stay the night

i can't seem to get you off my mind [tennis player]

red vol. 2, 7th july <3

i feel my heart tear string from string again 
and i’m so sorry but i don’t know where the fuck you went 
cause you’re somebody, not the one i met  
i’ll leave the roses by our grave for all the love we had  

no one ever really cares for what i need 
i fall in love with narcissists that have different beliefs 
said that you’d do anything 
but chose to watch me bleed 
and honestly the pain is starting to feel like relief 

no one ever really cares till u can’t breathe 
i’m really fucking fighting i just need my time to grieve 
feeling so damn angry can’t take anymore defeats 
i really miss my friend another ghost amongst the trees 

are you mad love 
tell me i’m the bad one 
your life is but a scam but 
you don’t care what anyone thinks of you 
wish you had think us through 

fuck it’s so pathetic 
miss when you were more poetic 
brag that you’re so copacetic 
but what’s that worth when everyone’s tasted you 
it just not the girl i knew..

i’ll lay here flat on my face 
compare us, i’m a waste 
but at least i’m not fake :/ 
so don’t text that you miss me too 
oh love it’s just not the truth

i fall in love with narcissists [johnnyfriend]

art by kirinhara 

oh 
breakdown 
when does it hurt less 
say i’m sorry
give my head a rest 
all frowns 
could the year just end 
i lay under trees
forgive me love for i’m hopeless 

i feel the thoughts arising as i sit in the dark
i don’t have the words to say what’s wrong with my heart 
people treat me like we don’t all bleed the same 
i guess we don’t bleed the same 
cause i spill blood all on the stage  

oh 
and i hate being sober 
guess i’m the pumpkin now
the way they carve me in october 
yeah oh 
aim your knife a bit lower 
cause it feels like i swallowed my heart how it’s over 
 
but the night’s still yearning 
sky falls apart 
waits for you 
it’s darling 
said i’m fine 
just hurting 
i’ve felt so much worse 
but i still made it to the morning 

it’s cold
don’t let me go 
just take me home 
i can’t be here alone :/ 

so cold 
like ice makes up all my bones 
i try so hard to let go 
but what’s life without a home

i've felt so much worse but i still made it to the morning [prodsecre x heyrick]

wipes the blood off of my face 
and she’ll kiss my cheek 
takes my grip off of her waist 
and she'll take me home 
wont let me go 
in love with your bones 
you won’t be alone 

i never felt words burn 
as much as when i said goodbye   
i’ll always say i love you 
and i’d never tell a lie 
and i’d never tell a lie...

you don’t want to fight 
but pulled out a knife? 
swiped across my throat 
and that’s alright 
i’m a poltergeist 
i’ve been dead my love 
i see the light 
for the thousandth time 
that’s just how it goes 
and i’m alright
swear it’s not a lie 
i just feel remorse

wipes the blood off of my face 
and she’ll kiss my cheek 
takes my grip off of her waist 
and she'll take me 
HOME
WONT LET ME GO 
IN LOVE WITH YOUR BONES
YOU WON'T BE ALONE

take me home, it's storming [prodsecre x heyrick]

standing by the bedside
baby you know you’re picture perfect
lights off moving so slow as you undress
i’ll take time but promise i’m back before the sunset
you’re gone i should’ve known that i was worthless

why is everybody spiteful
like where’d the love go?
suddenly you hate me like i meant nothing despite all…
pushing every corner like i’m not walking on tight ropes
i know the truth is that you’d never care if i fall :/

go on
hold on
seems i made it home but it all seems
so wrong
so wrong…
there’s blood all on the floor leaking down from the walls :(
i just hate that you would never call
tell me that you care but don’t try at all
okay baby posing like a doll
i’ll clean all the blood of off the walls

i don’t serenade
i spit blood out my mouth
or all the thoughts will poison me :/
i love when it builds
and feels like i’m a walking tragedy
i romanticize the pain like it’s not fucking killing me :P
swear its fucking agony

say it’s a dream
wake me up i’ve had enough
cause i feel nothing
my
emotions
have
shut
the
fuck
up.

i'm home but the walls are bleeding [prodsecre]

sorry mix is so rough for now 

// lyrics 
guess i took a break from the red 
oh no  
now it’s all on my hair 
match my skin and bones 
i don’t got what it takes 
so you go back home 
and find somebody else 
cause i’m never wrong 

say something 
if you can give me comfort 
but i already tainted 
my house with the memories 
kissed you held tight 
and watched you slumber 
say something 
but please do not lie to me 

please do not lie to me 

i’m so sorry 
i get so silent 
the words are getting stuck 
but ik they wouldn’t make a difference   
hearts dropped to my stomach 
so aim the knife lower darling 
but i’ll say that i love you 
and i hope you know i mean it 

I CANT TAKE THIS MAN 
SHIT JUST NEVER ENDS 
SAY YOU FUCKING CARE 
BUT YOU NEVER SHOW IT TO ME 
BLOODS ALL ON MY HANDS 
AND ITS ALWAYS MINE 
DONT LOOK ME IN THE FACE 
CAUSE YOURE NOT MY MUSE BABY

change your name [prodsecre x heyrick]

i shouldn’t write a song
but idk where else that i could say it
move along but
every time i do its like a phase
and am i wrong?
cause i can never tell
when i’m to blame
so move along
cause idk how else to cope with pain

you wear and tear
go ahead and rip me love
but i’ll still stop and stare
cause i know that you’re hurting too
but this shit’s just unfair
say how much you miss me
but you really do not care
cause i broke down in front of you
and he’s still fucking there

on the bad nights
did you lose sight
of me
you move like
it’s never you & i
darling
i hate life
but i’ll keep on fighting
cause i got lots of ghosts
and i would hate to see them starving

i would hate to see them starving..

i hold my heart in my hands
but you’re still feeling the tension?
walk all over it again
it’s fine i won’t even mention…
spit all over my face
then ask me why i’m regressing
baby could you ever change
cause i don’t get that impression

guess i'm to blame [prodsecre x prophecy x veilonme x kre8ore]

wait 
it’s been a hard day 
stay 
but it’s too late you’re been gone  
it never sticks for quite too long 
 
oh it’s storming and i’m cold 
cried my eyes out and you saw the damage done  
then still chose to move along 
oh it’s hurting, i’m alone 
the rooms a little darker now you’re gone
but that’s how i belong 

hold my heart 

come on baby tell me do you do it to be spiteful  
i pray that you’re happy and get everything that you want 
i hope you stop listening cause i’m not sure where geist goes
where’d the time go..
got to work on myself 

i try to stay sober but im drinking my own weight now 
losing my composure and deep breaths just do not help love 
always make me feel like i am crazy then i’m not wrong..

such a shame [prodsecre x chrismarek]

co-prod @tnvr555 

these days
it’s not hard to feel like i am alone
i am alone
and the seasons change
i hate this season
i am so cold

i’m waiting patiently for you to come back home my love
there's nowhere i would rather be than in your arms
they stuck me in the dirt
and said your trauma heals the earth my friend
will you hurt again?
it’s the risk i always take cause love is worth all of the pain in the end

i’m sorry i’m a mess
she says “oh love you know it’s okay”
and every time that we lock eyes
i fall for u all again
i’m waiting patiently to call you mine and
hold your hand
oh please come home i swear to god that you’re just all that i need

seasons change

spotify

there seems to be a problem
oh don’t wait for me
heaven’s falling down
the rooms getting colder darling
don’t look out the window
it’s falling down

you’ll see death
you’ll see me try to fix everything that we had in the past
you’ll see death
you’ll see me as i hit the ground
lost my wings all again

there’s seems to be somebody else
scraping their hands against the wall
and when hope is lost you’ll find my name doesn’t spark light
no not at all..

i don’t want to fight it
let it take control
i let you down
now you don’t love me no more
and when i hit the ground
oh not a sound was heard
so please just scrape what‘s left of me
and sell the bones

heaven's falling down

it starts slowly 
no movement 
i couldn't even feel the difference 
then it hits  
i'm missing you 
now it's quickly 
but gently.. 
hands around my neck so swiftly
before i know 
i'm falling in love 

then a lie sprouts again 
ruins all that i know, it's the end  
so is it all goodbyes now i guess 
always wrong timing my friend 

but don't say that you love me 
when you couldn't spare me a minute, no 
i'm so used to people acting different
thought u were different though 
so hang me up so slowly 
let me see what is it you're about 
lately it just feels like 
i'm about to get my heart ripped out


spare a minute [neverforever]

breathe in
and breathe out
but you don't hear a sound
so you'll ask me if i'm okay
you're leaving
and me now
then we go back around
watched it all end on that Wednesday

please don't look at me
feel sickening
but i just want to know if you're still listening
the summer's gone and fall's soon following
will winter freeze what's left of what we had remained

watched it all end on a wednesday
butterflies around your neck
watched it all end on a wednesday
pulled you in for a kiss
cause i knew it’s the end

watched it all end on that wednesday [neverforever]

and the words don't seem to make it out
guess i stitched my mouth
feelings won't die
they're too loud
and keep leaking out

but i knew it would all
come to an end
please i must leave now
but don't forget me

and when i rest my head on you
i'm captivated you're so pretty
go on rip my heart in two
anything you want my baby

oh
i hope i see you in my dreams
when i fall asleep

you're so pretty [neverforever]

oh
you’ve got everyone here fooled
it’s all an act
and you’ll use us like tools
i don’t have much left that i’d say to you
so i’ll take the fall
but i can’t play it cool

i watched the blood dripped till nothing was left
i pulled you in for a kiss then you laid me to rest
but those nights were my comfort
oh they were the best
what i would do to feel you on my chest

but the serpents got his tongue
inside of your mouth
i’m a devil of my word
mean what i say love
i can’t let you back in
cause you’d cut yourself out
and bring all of my insides
with you to the south
oh no

valentine?

oh oh me oh oh my
i can see in your eyes
all the blood on your face
used to paint on a smile
when i grip on your waist
and i feel your insides
yeah i’m back at your place
cause i’ve given up pride

oh oh me oh oh my
you know i don’t tell lies
cause when you told yours love
how it ruined my life
won’t let anyone feel
how i felt that night
so trust me or just don’t
i swear i don’t tell lies

i'm a devil of my word

i'm a devil of my word [neverforever]

@seenyona

i feel lost
my words get stuck
the good all fades away

hear my songs
so you know what’s wrong
and you hit me up
but your numbers blocked
hey you know my side
so i’m sorry love
made me kill myself
and i can’t do it all again

fall on my back love
kiss at my palm
my eyes dim down -is that what you want-
grip at my chest
i know that youve won
accepting fate
im yours from now on

lost in my mental, im crashing in waves
scratch at my wrists, im bleeding again
im beyond help, someone do something
i dont think i could go through it again
always left out, i feel so abondendond
taking my trust, and taking advantage
fell out of love, i took so much damage
im beyond help, im beyond caring

GO TAKE YOUR TIME AND WATCH ME DIE INSIDE YOUR ARMS
ITS OKAY.
CAUSE THERE’S NOWHERE ELSE I WOULD RATHER BE BURIED
BUT WHEN I’M GONE WILL YOU EVEN THINK OF ME
CAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE THERES SOMEWHERE YOU’D RATHER BE

OH NO
WHAT IS HOME??
IM THE GHOST THAT WAS LEFT WHEN THE CROWN FELL RIGHT OUT OF YOUR HANDS
BROKEN BONES
LEFT TO ROT
YOU CAN SEE THE DIRT
IN EVERY CREVICE
OF HIS WORDS

when i'm gone, will you even think of me? w/ yona

give a big frown
and cold shoulders 
carving up my heart  
like it’s still october 
face down 
guess it’s over 
i’ll still say goodluck 
my four-leaf clover 

i miss your face 
how you’d come and just lay down 
kiss you on the cheek 
and then it’d all feel okay wyow 
now i wake in pain ow 
the rush all to my brains gone 
skipping meals all week 
cause i can’t seem to keep them down

season’s almost over 
god i hate the way 
that i can’t stay sober 
reason’s getting colder 
so tell me to my face 
that you miss me lover :(

god i hate the way that i miss you lover 
god i hate the way that i miss you 
 
// verse 
sick to my stomach
trying not to vomit 
say
why’re you running? 
are you hiding something :/ 
stay 
i’m not sorry 
but i need you dearly 
sick to my stomach
i’ll jump off the summit 

sick to my stomach
trying not to vomit 
people like to doubt me
last i checked i got my money coming 
hey, what’s the problem 
why you acting funny 
people like to doubt me
like their numbers can’t be made with pennies

tell me to my face, that you miss me lover [prodsecre x jolst]

// yona
cling to your waist, god dont let this be a dream
its been so long, since someone's appeared in front of me 
ive been dying in the midst, fill my heart with vacancy
in my head i still believe that, ill....

lay out my arms
your head falls down soft
do you mind laying here with me?

cos were out in the sun
fell asleep so damn calm
how long till we lose this memory?

thought you were all i need

// valentine ghost 
i saw the love leaving your eyes
you said it was you and its i 
its always a lie 
tell me how you feel inside? 
are you just sick of us trying? 
i guess i should die 

cause i don’t know how you sleep soundly at night 
cant even breath when you’re not by my side

till daylight w/ yona [neverforever]

// written and recorded in 2023
and there’s more than a million words 
buried round the corners of my mind but none of them feel right now 
but there i said that i love you first
and i meant every word in every moment, not a lie to be found :/

doesn’t matter what you say 
your words mean nothing to me…
felt it as my heart decayed 
your words mean nothing to me 

i’ll keep walking further with my head down 
feels like my hearts constantly in pain now  
staring at the ceiling till i go numb 
i had all the love to last a lifetime but you threw it all out 

oh
valentine? 

// 2/8/2025 
and i hate the way everything has changed
i’ve got reasons to believe that we will never be the same 
but i don’t know who i am without you 
my heart aches when im here without you   

and i can’t talk about my feelings, im ashamed…
i let you into my life so many times so im to blame :/
and i don’t know who i am without you 
cross my heart i’m dead here without you

and i hate the way that ive grown self-conscious 
you ruined me down to the carcass :(
baby don’t you dare call this love  
i tried again and you let me down…
and i hate the way i wake and you’re not here 
weighs against my brain and it’s not fair 
baby don’t you dare give up now 
wait on you till i’m in the ground

i don't know who i am without you [michael harrison x fxckyeahako]

prod valentine ghost
guitar @iissaame
instrumental mix/master @prod-oc

and the roses all decayed
it’s so hard to walk away
even when the sky’s are gray
i still wish that you had stayed
go back to your ways

why leave so soon...
was it all doomed?
cause i need you
but seems like you don’t

you left the room
knew it was doomed
cause i need you
but you’ll never stay
go back to your ways

baby does it hurt you
like you hurt me
i would never hurt you
love i’m sorry
could you look me in the face
and say that i’m not dirty?
cause i feel like im not your angel lately

yeah it feels like a suicide
you & i oh
watched me trip on words and cry
but you and i know
every word you say…a lie
watched my heart broke
baby how could you be fine
if i’m your home?

valentine ghost - sigh

rot 
i can’t deal with all of it 
i’m starting to feel nauseous 
would you want to talk? 
but please don’t mind the silence 
my brain just isn’t kind to me 

stay alive 
say a lie
wish that i could speak my mind 
but i’ve got so much to lose 
that i’d rather keep my pride  
say its fine
then we die 
it all feels like wasted time 
say are you wasting my time?

yeah i should stay my distance
promise that’s just how i know to be
i like it much better
when nobody seems to notice me 
stay and listen?
but i've been bored of all the fucking grief
no one seems to comprehend 
yet they have the songs on repeat 

i’m pleading my silence
no reason for violence 
i’m not gonna take this outside 
i’ve been subconsciously cautious 
of inhaling your toxins 
but seems that i let them inside 
there’s no way to find what’s wrong now 
cause i moved on so why the comedown

untitled freestyle [prodsecre x sorrow bringer]

and i feel so cold in the middle of summer
would you take my hand or leave me here to shiver
and i’m back at the start i’m consumed by the somber
cause i fall so fast but hit the floor even harder…

and a voice so sweet to fall asleep to
now i can’t sleep without you ;/
wish i could take all your problems
give you a life you’d enjoy

and a spark so real i felt something new
now i watch it all turn blue
wish i could do it all over
did i miss something important? :(

valentine ghost

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