@prodjpjp @prod-oc <3


its like you never even cared
 stripping me bare
 now i got holes in what i wear 
getting prepared
 so u can throw me down the stairs 
how is it my fault i was never even there 
blame it on me so u can sleep in someones bed
how is it my fault i was never even there
 pull me away i get so awkward and i stare 
stop waiting for me im busy pulling out my hair 
how does it feel ? 
im sick of hearing that u care :p

throw me in the sea and let me drown in the ocean 
body going numb and my heart got frozen 
i dont wanna die but my lungs cut open 
pressure in my eyes built up both swollen

crawling to demise my time im chosen
 tell another lie, ill cry, wont show it
 bleeding thru the cracks in my hands cant close them 
wish u never hit me got ur wrists both broken

did i let you down
 dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

did i let you down 
dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

Tear me up and peel the flesh off my body
“It wasnt like that” you know I wasn’t ready
And I know that, there’s nothing you could tell me
I wanted love back, the feelings getting blurry

Spending too much time on my own
Rejecting everybody that I know
 hiding every message on your phone
Start to realise that I got nothing to show

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care [JPJP x OC]

shoutout @prod-oc for doing the bass for me <3 
thanks for listening <3 first solo song in forever 

// chorus
i don’t want to let go
but the feeling in my chest says no
and when the colors in my eyes won’t show
i hope you’ll see I’m better as bones

// verse
i don’t want to talk about it
cause every day is a blur in my head
when i look at you you’re perfect
but don’t look at me i’m worthless
and i don’t even try to hide it
you can see on it on the surface
everyone will say i’m heartless
i just wish that they could see

that it hurts for me to breathe
and it hurts for me to feel
and it hurts for me to walk on this earth everyday
and i can’t keep on pretending
keep lying
there’s no meaning
when my life comes to an end
i swear i’ll be okay

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bones

@prodjpjp
@imgeist

use me for my skin, you can have it
stressed out, cant stop it's a habit
fucked up she wont talk when i'm like this
no thoughts, bringing shame i cant manage
no feelings, i feel like i might have lost it
hate my own skin get me out its getting toxic
fucked up i kinda feel like i dont want it
no feelings i feel like i'm out of options

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

i’ll leave you in the sea
i know what’s best for me
and i, held on tight when it was hard to breathe
and i,
fell apart when you crossed my name in red
and u saw how much i bled

fucked up
how she’s wanting me now
wait till i cut off all my hair and throw a fit in this town
cause i’m
stuck up
feel my ego rebound
at the end of the day
i’m a nobody with a crown

don’t waste my time
i’m wanting out
so say goodbye
leave with the crowd
every part of us is gone

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

anxious w/ i'm geist [prod. jpjp]

Self Prod :) 
Featuring @Sinxi

LYRICS

Break my trust
Taking all I had from us
Leave me just to die
That's so fucked up
Leave me all alone
With my pockets turned to stone
Hell is frozen over

Bad Habits
Never seen you frozen so you
Must have it
Loads of heat to close it over
Heart saddened
Never trust a person to their core

Why'd you say you care when you really don't?
Thinking you're so innocent and then you choke
On all your insecurities you never know
Just how to hold composure when it means the most
You froze at the sight of him
Why'd it make you feel so different when you care so much for me
This kerosene could ignite the bond we built for this
Are you sure you wanna leave? i'll ignite it here

Bad Habits
Never seen you frozen so you
Must have it
Loads of heat to close it over
Heart saddened
Never trust a person to their core

You know it hurts a hundred times you screamed my name
The times it hurt I let it fade away in vain
So take the words right out my mouth and make it say what you hate
Cuz you know my heart starts pumping never had to jump back in your arms
To save my life I guess I feel like I might just start hoping
Everything might fall right if I die
The only way that I can make it if I...

Bad Habits
Never seen you frozen so you
Must have it
Loads of heat to close it over
Heart saddened
Never trust a person to their core

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BAD HABITS (feat.Sinxi)

prod. ocin
guitars: yhello

Come catch a feeling while we’re watching a lightning 
But nothing excites me, baby I try to hide it 
I think about you, let’s make love on the highway 
Can we get inside babe 
You know time won’t stop flying 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
We keep laughing it off, ya 

Kill time when we're driving 
It's both of us finding 
A reason to separate 
Your past is behind me 
I don't open up 
Don't wanna be judged 
Don't wanna be looked at 
I blame my gut 

I love you and you know that 
Even if you don't love me back 
I pray at night to hope you're well 
And pray again for my own self 
If I had a wish and that would be to see you laugh 
Cause I guarantee that you'll receive a smile back 
Now we both sitting there just laughing it off 
I want you to know that you were all I got 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh

laugh it off (ft. heylog)

sorry mix is so rough for now 

// lyrics 
guess i took a break from the red 
oh no  
now it’s all on my hair 
match my skin and bones 
i don’t got what it takes 
so you go back home 
and find somebody else 
cause i’m never wrong 

say something 
if you can give me comfort 
but i already tainted 
my house with the memories 
kissed you held tight 
and watched you slumber 
say something 
but please do not lie to me 

please do not lie to me 

i’m so sorry 
i get so silent 
the words are getting stuck 
but ik they wouldn’t make a difference   
hearts dropped to my stomach 
so aim the knife lower darling 
but i’ll say that i love you 
and i hope you know i mean it 

I CANT TAKE THIS MAN 
SHIT JUST NEVER ENDS 
SAY YOU FUCKING CARE 
BUT YOU NEVER SHOW IT TO ME 
BLOODS ALL ON MY HANDS 
AND ITS ALWAYS MINE 
DONT LOOK ME IN THE FACE 
CAUSE YOURE NOT MY MUSE BABY

change your name [prodsecre x heyrick]

i shouldn’t write a song
but idk where else that i could say it
move along but
every time i do its like a phase
and am i wrong?
cause i can never tell
when i’m to blame
so move along
cause idk how else to cope with pain

you wear and tear
go ahead and rip me love
but i’ll still stop and stare
cause i know that you’re hurting too
but this shit’s just unfair
say how much you miss me
but you really do not care
cause i broke down in front of you
and he’s still fucking there

on the bad nights
did you lose sight
of me
you move like
it’s never you & i
darling
i hate life
but i’ll keep on fighting
cause i got lots of ghosts
and i would hate to see them starving

i would hate to see them starving..

i hold my heart in my hands
but you’re still feeling the tension?
walk all over it again
it’s fine i won’t even mention…
spit all over my face
then ask me why i’m regressing
baby could you ever change
cause i don’t get that impression

guess i'm to blame [prodsecre x prophecy x veilonme x kre8ore]

it starts slowly 
no movement 
i couldn't even feel the difference 
then it hits  
i'm missing you 
now it's quickly 
but gently.. 
hands around my neck so swiftly
before i know 
i'm falling in love 

then a lie sprouts again 
ruins all that i know, it's the end  
so is it all goodbyes now i guess 
always wrong timing my friend 

but don't say that you love me 
when you couldn't spare me a minute, no 
i'm so used to people acting different
thought u were different though 
so hang me up so slowly 
let me see what is it you're about 
lately it just feels like 
i'm about to get my heart ripped out


spare a minute [neverforever]

@prod-oc

i can’t fall asleep
when you’re not here with me
so promise that you’ll pay a visit in my dreams
my eyes they start to bleed
but please do not worry
i rather wipe the blood than what’s left of my tears

oh oh oh

saw my angel’s wings tore apart again
now i’m gone adrift no guardian
so ive lost some friends
it’s all part of it
but when i’m on top
don’t say my name

there’s that girl in red…
everybody seems to adore
got blood on my fit
now im starting to get real annoyed
and when winter’s gone
you’ll wonder why it’s still getting cold
with severed wings
you’re all sanctioned here
left to be doomed

doomed

doomed [oc]

conversation, we should give it up
i think im struggling to fight you
and theres no need for me to act so tough
id throw my life away to find you
and we can stop, tell me its enough
inflict all the damage you want
you can bruise my bones and be rough
id never tell you to stop

this is the only time i get to hear you
ive wasted all my life, trying to see you
and i dont go outside, cause im ashamed to
id rather stay and hide, its what im bound to

guess i'm to blame [prodsecre x prophecy x veilonme x kre8ore]

valentine ghost