last night i was sleeping and woke up exactly the minute this was released ✨😭

// written and recorded in 2023
and there’s more than a million words 
buried round the corners of my mind but none of them feel right now 
but there i said that i love you first
and i meant every word in every moment, not a lie to be found :/

doesn’t matter what you say 
your words mean nothing to me…
felt it as my heart decayed 
your words mean nothing to me 

i’ll keep walking further with my head down 
feels like my hearts constantly in pain now  
staring at the ceiling till i go numb 
i had all the love to last a lifetime but you threw it all out 

oh
valentine? 

// 2/8/2025 
and i hate the way everything has changed
i’ve got reasons to believe that we will never be the same 
but i don’t know who i am without you 
my heart aches when im here without you   

and i can’t talk about my feelings, im ashamed…
i let you into my life so many times so im to blame :/
and i don’t know who i am without you 
cross my heart i’m dead here without you

and i hate the way that ive grown self-conscious 
you ruined me down to the carcass :(
baby don’t you dare call this love  
i tried again and you let me down…
and i hate the way i wake and you’re not here 
weighs against my brain and it’s not fair 
baby don’t you dare give up now 
wait on you till i’m in the ground

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